I was coming from Tähtvere. It was Sunday evening.

I was the only fare to the final stop.

I stepped out. The road was silent: not a single car.

The wind had fallen silent. Only the stars

and the sickle of the new moon shone above the river.

I felt sorry I had to keep going. I’d have liked to step

off the path onto the wasteland and to stop

to look at that moon, those constellations – several of which

I’d forgotten again during the winter – but most of all

at the sky itself, the blue of the sky that was nearly

as deep and strange as once long ago,

twenty years ago, when we sat and drank wine

around a campfire in the nearby forest, and I came

back to Tartu on a village road with a girl,

arms around each other’s necks.

The blue is much easier to remember

than names, titles or faces,

even the faces of those you once loved.

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