Once more spring pulls young leaves from buds
and the earth hides its tears under primrose.
But a man is only a ship anchored in himself, in his history,
his time, a big ship decaying on the village pond
forgetting there are other beings, other societies and worlds:
fishes building nests or surfacing to breathe,
caravans of penguins arriving on the shore,
ants walking their ancient trails – the soil is alive and moves
its endless feet, flagella, mouth, appendages and antennae.
But a man should be clear, a mirror reflecting everything:
this spring, these birds returning, these triangles, open
and closed sets, and hierarchies –
a man is curved, a closed surface reflecting only himself,
the ancient darkness in his vaults
where even candlelights are weary and names written with soot
cover one another. Everyone wants to perpetuate himself,
one conquers, one discovers, one wins: all looking for
themselves, for their sooty names, suitable place
on the walls and under the vaults of history.
The darkness is deep. And cold carbonic acid gas is rising
and white eyeless fishes are stirring in their pools,
niches in sandstone, everywhere mummies and pyramids of bones,
too little space for the living.
Small indeed is the consolation from what once was said
by another buried alive, small consolation from churches
and castles, from painting and classical music.
A man finds himself moved far away from the living:
beside him, above him, beneath him.
He is closed in himself and has invented his own reflection
and the reflection of that reflection: culture, literature,
architecture. But even this is hopelessly, hopelessly little.
But then? But then, as from another space, from a world
from under other suns, the language of the bees, the intelligence
of dolphins, a little understanding, satori, some open space
in the catacombs of our minds. A little consolation
in the oxygen deficiency.
Some wind in the grey lobes in the sclerotic vessels see
something bursting like a spring in the fossa sylvii
hippocampus the little sea horse skipping in its paradise of algae
before the windows are locked with bars and the city escapes
into its soot and noise. My leaves are too white,
too futile to compare with the green, a petty testimony
compared to the sparrow’s song, a testimony of the truth
that eyes are proof of seeing, ears are proof of hearing,
and no alphabet, no code, no axiom. Never. And nowhere.
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