Otto turned the key and a smile took hold of his face. Evelyn darted into the kitchen and passed him something – an envelope. ‘Can’t stay.’ Her eyes flickered warmly. ‘Geoffrey’s home. Asleep but home.’ She glanced at the countertops and saw, among the clutter, their recent work: three pen-and-ink studies of her face; a charcoal drawing of her head in profile; a pencil sketch of her hands; a water-colour of her reading at his kitchen table.
He wished then that he could turn the key on the door, on the day, on the world.
She leafed through the sketches and nodded at the envelope in his hand. ‘It’s an offer of temporary work with the Army. Geoffrey arranged it earlier.’
He raised an amused eyebrow. ‘The Army uses purple stationery?’
She didn’t look up. ‘Lilac. I had to put it in something. And I thought you’d prefer me as your courier. Geoffrey was going to find you at the church but I intercepted.’
‘Thank you …’ He reached for the cigarette behind his ear. ‘I wanted to stay longer but I was losing the light. I’m almost there. Only the final central section remains. The bit I’ve looked forward to painting most.’
He struck a match against the range. She wasn’t listening.
She studied the profile sketch. She looked up, her face clouded, preoccupied. ‘I told him I would deliver it to you via the Salvation Army.’
He tapped his nose. ‘Understood.’
‘I only glanced at it. It’s shift work in town. Please don’t feel obliged. If you do want it, they need you to report tomorrow by seven.’ She dropped the sketch and started opening cupboards, then his Frigidaire, impatiently. ‘Apart from those old potatoes, what do you actually have to eat, Otto?’
‘I’m fine,’ he said. ‘Please don’t make yourself late back.’
‘You’re not fine. You’re thin. And you can’t report for work hungry.’
‘Thank you for this.’ He waved the envelope. ‘Now go. I’m fine. Truly.’
She blinked something back – a thought, a word, an apology.
He turned the key and bent the crown of his head to the door.
Then, late that afternoon, the three cheery taps: Philip.
‘One moment!’ he shouted through the door. He gathered up the sketches and stowed them in a cupboard, but when he turned the key once more and opened the door, two boys entered instead of one.
‘This is my friend Orson,’ said Philip.
‘How do you do, Orson,’ said Otto. His heart lurched at his ribs.
‘How do you do.’
‘Goodness.’ He forced a grin. ‘My kitchen, as you can see, Orson, is a poor place to receive guests.’
‘He doesn’t mind,’ said Philip, walking in.
‘Should I be expecting any other visitors, Philip?’ Otto asked warily.
‘I shouldn’t think so. I only know Orson. And Hal, his brother.’
‘His brother …’
‘His grown-up brother. But Hal has the shakes and a bullet in his head, so I don’t think he’ll ever be able to come.’
‘I’m sorry to hear that, Orson.’
Orson was looking around the room. ‘It must be jolly nice having your own secret place.’
‘My friends are away at the moment.’
‘I hear you’re good at drawing.’
‘Philip is very good himself. Which reminds me.’ He turned to him. ‘Long time, no see, my friend.’
‘I’ve been busy …’ Philip let Hal’s belt slide down his coat sleeve. He felt the cold steel of the buckle meet his wrist.
‘Too busy to draw?’
‘Yes,’ he said, ‘far too busy for that.’
‘We’ve had exams,’ Orson quickly added, ‘at school.’
‘Well, I am sorry to hear that too.’
‘ “Vell?” ’ Orson repeated.
‘He’s from Wales,’ said Philip dully. He felt odd, unhappy, and he didn’t know why. He hadn’t been able to eat a single sweet on their way there.
Otto watched the wheels turn behind Orson’s eyes. The boy had worked it out, though he said nothing. He was clearly older and more knowing than Philip.
At the table, he served them the rhubarb he’d stolen from the fruit plot in the Park and had boiled up with sugar. In the Frigidaire, he still had the cream top from the pint he’d nabbed off a doorstep that morning.
‘Hurrah!’ said Orson to Otto. ‘Aren’t you having any?’
Otto shook his head and pulled a cigarette from behind his ear.
Philip stared at his bowl like he might be sick.
Orson smiled as he passed Otto the cornet. ‘Here, have one of these. Have as many as you like.’
And still, every time: the jar on Dr Metzger’s desk, the children’s smiles.
‘Go on,’ said Orson. ‘There’s lots. The green ones are nice.’
He reached in blindly. A striped sweet appeared in his hand.
‘A bull’s-eye,’ said Orson. Beneath the table, he kicked Philip’s foot and flashed a grin.
‘What a treat,’ Otto declared and turned away to the sink.
Philip eyed Orson across the table. Then Orson nodded and withdrew, not the stocking from his pocket as planned, but something much smaller: a green pill, one of the pair he’d taken that November day from the buried flour tin. It gleamed like treasure on his palm. Then he raised a finger to his lips, glanced over his shoulder, and slipped it into the cornet.
‘Thanks very much for the rhubarb!’ he sang out, pushing back his chair.
Philip stared at the cornet that Orson had abandoned in the middle of the kitchen table. He couldn’t move. Those pills, he knew, weren’t pills that made you better … And everything started to spin like a propeller in his head. Otto was showing him once again how to draw two lines for the Spitfire’s fuselage; next, at their cross-hairs, a large oval; then, for the tail, a quadrilateral; then two more ovals for the wings; and finally, for the tail fins, two small ovals and a little circle. ‘You have to find the secret shapes inside the thing you want to draw,’ he’d explained. It had been so exciting to see the plane, the real thing, appear on his page at last.
Spin, spin, spin, and Otto was hugging his mother and touching her back, and his father was drunk in his chair and too tired for cricket in the Park.
He and Orson were supposed to scare Otto – with Hal’s special belt and the lasso of broken glass. Then he was supposed to say: Leave my mother alone.
He was reaching for the sweets – to stuff them into his pocket, to carry them and the pill away – when he saw it. Poking out from beneath the fruit bowl. A lilac envelope with his mother’s handwriting.
He had given his mother that notepaper set for Christmas. Now here it was, in Otto the Jew Thief ’s house. She had written him a secret letter.
He pushed back his chair and almost stumbled over the table leg.
‘Yes, thanks for the rhubarb!’ Then he ran out the door in Orson’s wake and didn’t stop until they had crossed the Park.
They stood by the burn pile. ‘Will he die?’ he panted.
‘Maybe, maybe not,’ said Orson, wiping the sweat from his cheeks. ‘Russian courtiers tried to kill Rasputin with cyanide but he didn’t die because they fed him pastries and sweet things by accident. Lots of sugar might stop it. I found a book in the library.’
‘Is it painful?’
Orson shrugged. ‘First it’s hard to breathe. Then you fall unconscious. Then you have a heart attack and your skin turns pink. He’s German, you know.’
‘Not Welsh?’
‘Of course not Welsh. A spy, no doubt. We might get a medal.’
‘Orson’ – he tipped his face to the sky because tears pushed at the backs of his eyes – ‘the green liquorice torpedoes look just like the pill.’
‘Yes’ – Orson pulled up a sock – ‘that was lucky, wasn’t it?’