CONTENTS

Author’s Note

Prologue: All We Can Do

1 One In, One Out

2 The Hardest Job

3 Burying Trauma

4 A Lifelong Apprenticeship

5 An Alarming Regularity

6 Faces Quickly Fade

7 Making Me Despair

8 Picking Up the Pieces

9 Moments of Madness

10 Find a Bloody Dock Leaf

11 A Lack of Respect

12 The Seemingly Humdrum

13 Right Place, Right Time

14 Storing Up Problems

15 The Q Word

16 A Scary Feeling

17 Messed Up and Dark

18 Road to Recovery

19 Why?

20 Something Positive

21 Doing Better

22 Another Way

23 Softening the Blow

24 Tremendously Proud

About the Author

Acknowledgements