NOTES FROM GIRL X
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Day 3, 10:09 p.m.
Girl Over the Top: Sometimes I am numb. Nothing matters. Other times, when I let myself feel, I feel too much. Bleed for everything.
They Say to Me: You will “outgrow” this and “grow up.”
I Say to Them: What does that mean? To stop caring?
The Truth Hurts, So? There are some people meant for greatness. Then there are the rest of us. I’m not the stars or the sun—I don’t radiate heat. Or the moon-I don’t shine like a beacon to light the way. I am definitely not a celestial body. I’m an earthbound girl destined to revolve around someone else. And I would gladly revolve around J, who is the sun, the moon, and the stars put together. Loving him is a sickness. A fever.
Frightening Thoughts du Jour: a. I am obsessed.
b. I hate that I feel this way.
c. I have such disdain for girls like me.