TEN

Crissa unlocked the front door, pushed it open with her fingertips, and listened. The house was silent.

She stepped in. To her left, the alarm on the wall began to beep. She punched in the code to deactivate it, closed the door behind her.

She’d left the suitcases in the car, wanted her hands free. She walked the empty rooms, found no signs anyone had been there. The .32 was still in its holster, clipped beneath the bed.

She brought in the two suitcases, one of them full of money, locked the front door, left them in the living room. The sliding glass door that led onto the back deck was locked and barred, as she’d left it. She pulled back the vertical blinds, opened the door. The motion detector above her clicked on, bathed the deck in light.

A chill breeze blew in off the inlet. She drew up one of the wrought-iron porch chairs, sat. The security light lit up the sloping backyard all the way to the small dock beyond. In the distance, she could see taillights on the drawbridge that linked Avon and Belmar. Looking east, toward the ocean, the far-off lights of fishing boats on the horizon. She heard the soft clang of a buoy out in the channel, the squawk of invisible seagulls overhead. The sounds of home.

She’d bought the house the year before, put down a hundred thousand dollars in cash, a fifth of the purchase price. She could have paid it off all at once, but that would have been a red flag to the IRS. On paper, she lived off low-level but steady investments—strip malls in Arkansas and Alabama, a car wash in Tennessee. They gave her cover for the life she lived, let her layer her take-home cash into legitimate sources of income. Rathka, the lawyer in New York, had set it all up for her. In the three years since she’d lost everything, had her identity compromised, forfeited all she owned, she’d built a new life.

The light clicked off, and she sat there in darkness. Her right arm and shoulder were stiff, but the pain had dulled to an arthritic ache. She’d open a bottle of wine, pop a couple of Aleve, turn on the radio to WQXR, the classical station out of New York. A long hot shower and then sleep. Tomorrow, she’d unpack the money, separate Larry’s eighty thousand, stow some more in safe deposit boxes she kept at two local banks. She’d call Rathka tomorrow, decide what to do with the rest.

After a while, she went back inside, locked the door behind her. In the bedroom, she took the .32 from its holster and checked to make sure the magazine was full, with a round in the chamber. It was a nervous habit, but she couldn’t sleep otherwise. For the past few months, she’d had a recurring nightmare of a figure coming at her fast out of darkness while she pulled the trigger of an empty pistol again and again.

But those were just dreams. She fit the gun back into its holster. She was home now, safe. Alive. This time.

*   *   *

“You’re back,” Jimmy Peaches said.

She sat beside him on the bench, looked out at the empty beach, the ocean beyond.

“For a little while,” she said, and set the white and gold box of cigars between them.

“Portofinos again,” he said. “You’re spoiling me.”

“Life’s too short to smoke bad cigars. Isn’t that what you always say?”

Twenty feet up the boardwalk, out of earshot, the aide who’d brought him out was smoking a cigarette and talking on a cell phone. He’d nodded when he saw her approach, then wandered away.

“You pay him for that?” she said. “To mind his own business?”

“Julio’s a good kid. He looks after me.”

“And you take care of him as well, I’d guess.”

“The little they make here, I’m happy to help out. And he looks up to me for some reason.”

“Because you’re an OG?”

“Me? I’m just an old man with bad legs and not much time. He feels sorry for me, more likely.”

Gulls wheeled overhead. The ocean was calm and still, only a faint breeze moving the dune grass. Behind them, the retirement home cast a shadow across the boardwalk. Twenty stories of pink concrete rising into the sky, the tallest building on this side of Asbury Park.

She nodded at the red aluminum walker beside the bench. “You lost the wheelchair.”

“Finally. Been a few weeks now. Can’t go very far, and I’m exhausted when I get there, but it’s better than being stuck in that chair, having to call someone every time I need to take a piss. Excuse my French.”

He had color in his cheeks, had gained weight since the last time she’d seen him. He wore a yellow monogrammed shirt, dark slacks, black shoes polished to a mirror shine. But his hair was thinner, pink scalp showing through.

“You look good,” she said.

“You’re lying, but that’s fine. I don’t mind.”

She touched the cigar box. “You want me to open these for you?”

“Not a bad idea, as long as we’re out here. Might as well take advantage.”

She got out her penknife, sliced through the plastic wrap and seal. “How’s your grandson, Anthony?”

“He makes it down here when he can. He’s got the restaurant, so he’s busy with that. I think he’s getting back together with the ex, too. Or trying to. I don’t think he knows what he wants.”

“Why do you say that?”

“Because he’s always asking about you.”

She closed the knife, put it away. “The kids will make the difference. He won’t want to take the chance on losing them again.”

“I hope not,” he said. Inside the box, the cigars were in thin aluminum tubes. He took one out. “The older I get, the more I realize there’s nothing more important than family.”

“I’m sure you’re right.” She looked away.

“I’m sorry,” he said after a moment. “Forgive me. I’m an old man. I forget sometimes.”

“It’s all right. Things are what they are. Hopefully someday they’ll be different.”

“They will. What do you hear from our friend in Texas?”

“Nothing new. And I’m not expecting much anytime soon.”

“It’s too bad, what happened down there.”

“He called the play,” she said.

“Way you told it, he had his reasons.”

“Maybe. But they didn’t make much sense to me.”

He unscrewed the tube, slid out the cigar, held it beneath his nose, inhaled. “Been a while since I had one of these. You mind?”

“Go ahead.”

He leaned to one side, took a gold cigar clipper from his pants pocket.

“You’re prepared,” she said.

“I try to be. My age, you take your pleasures where you can.”

He sliced the tip from the cigar, flicked it away, put the clipper back, got a silver lighter from the same pocket. She took it from him, opened it and thumbed the wheel. He leaned forward as she cupped her hands against the wind. He got the cigar lit, puffed. “Thank you.”

He sat back, drew in smoke, held it for a moment, then let it drift back out. “Bellissimo. Grazie.” She set the lighter atop the box.

“It’s none of my business what you do,” he said. “But these days I worry when I don’t hear from you for a while.”

“No need.”

“I do, though. How did things go this time?”

“Not good.”

“Not worth it?”

“The money end was fine. Too much drama getting it, though.”

“What kind of drama?”

“The worst kind.”

“Law?”

She shook her head.

“Someone got greedy,” he said.

“Amateurs. One of them was on the string. He had a partner we didn’t know about. Work went fine. They made their play during the count. The partner was holed up in the house we were using. We walked right into it.”

“You get hurt?”

“No.”

“What happened?”

“It was a four-man string. I knew two of them, had worked with them before. They both went down. I got out of there with my split, but it was a close thing.”

“Then I was right to be worried. Any fallout? Anything you need to worry about going forward?”

“I don’t think so. I think it’s over.”

“I see.” He looked out over the water.

“Go on,” she said. “Say it.”

“Say what?”

“Whatever it is you’re going to say.”

He shrugged. “I’m an old man, lives in a home. Who cares what I think? All my life I minded my own business. Why stop now?”

“I respect you, Jimmy. You know that. If there’s something you want to say to me, you should say it.”

He puffed on the cigar, not looking at her. “That thing with Benny Roth. The money from the airport job. That went well, didn’t it?”

“Yes.”

“Biggest take-home in a while?”

“Ever.”

“Then why’d you go out again so soon?”

She watched plovers walking along the wave line, pecking at the sand. A gull landed, chased them away, flew off with something in its beak.

“Like I said.” He let out smoke. “None of my business.”

“It’s not that. I’m just not sure what the answer is.”

“You have a home now. A real one. Some money put away, too, I’d think. And more set aside for emergencies.”

“I do.” Along with bank accounts and investments, she had cash in safe deposit boxes up and down the East Coast, under different names.

“Then why take unnecessary risks? Why do the work when you don’t need the money?”

“You can’t always control it,” she said. “Sometimes it comes up when you don’t need it. Other times, you need it bad, it’s nowhere to be found. You have to take it as it comes.”

“You believe that?”

She took out her sunglasses. “I don’t know.”

“The money’s supposed to be a means to an end, not the end itself. You keep doing it just to do it—whether you need to or not—it’ll go bad. I’ve seen it happen. Unless you’re telling me you’re in it for the thrill, happy to stick a gun in some liquor store clerk’s face, clean out the register.”

She shook her head.

“Then what?” he said.

“Best I can put it is, early on, I never had much of anything. Always on the move, ripping and running. Bad days. Wayne changed all that. Then suddenly I was on my own again, had to start over without him. So I built something new, worked hard at it. And then I lost it all.”

“I remember.”

“I had to start from scratch. And there’s no telling when that could happen again. A couple bad breaks in a row, I could end up back where I was, with nothing. I need to earn while I can, enough to keep me going if things go bad.”

“There’s no score worth dying for.”

“I know that.”

“You should be on an island somewhere, someplace warm, spending your money slowly. Enjoying life before it’s too late. That’s what I should have done. Too many years, all I was focused on was the next dollar. I look back now, I realize how foolish I was.”

“You did what you had to do.”

“That’s what I told myself back then, yeah. But now I see the big picture. You can always go out and find some more money somewhere. It’s time that runs out. And you can’t get it back.”

“I know.”

“Tell me, though, this other thing. You sure it’s over?”

“For now. Though it’s hard to accept.”

“How so?”

“Two men died back there. Men I trusted, who trusted me. And a couple of amateurs walked away with half the money.”

“Nothing you can do about that now.”

“I could go back there, find them. Kill them.”

“But there’s no percentage in that, is there?” he said.

“No, there isn’t.”

“Keep that in mind.”

They sat in silence for a few moments, watching the water. Then he said, “Before, when I said ‘You’re back,’ you said, ‘For a little while.’ What’s that mean?”

“I need to make another trip soon. But it shouldn’t take long.”

He looked at her.

“It’s not what you’re thinking,” she said. “Just something I need to do.”

“It’s not work.”

“No,” she said. “Just a debt I have to pay.”