I did well yesterday, but last night, I just started crying doing the damn dishes. I felt like I couldn’t deal with everything, but I did! I just washed my face, finished the dishes, bathed Deig and put her in bed. Then I smoked a joint and calmed down a little. I organized Deig’s dolls in the toy box and then went to sleep. You know how people will say somebody slept “the sleep of the dead?” That’s how I was sleeping. Woke up exhausted anyway.