JANUARY 12, 1986

I am so used to withholding.

I am so used to the silences.

I am so used to hearing my words thrown back at me; against me.

I am so used to not trusting.

I am so used to not opening my mouth, my hands, my heart.

I am so used to running and trembling.

I want to let the silence go. I want to let the tears go. I want to let the fear go.

It’s time for a change!