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remained in the back of my head. It made me self-conscious during sex, so I used drinking as a way to relax into my partner. She eventually pointed out my drinking habit and asked me to stop. There was nowhere else to hide. I opted to try sex without alcohol again, but because I didn’t know how to prepare for this, things did not go well.

We did manage to have sex on a few occasions without alcohol, and these sessions were great. However, on one instance, we were about to have sex when I