On the cold and dreary evening of November 15, 1858, Edward Alcott’s life turned gray. The only thing that saved it from going completely black was Albert. At the age of seven, older than Edward by only an hour, his twin had become the Earl of Greyling that night when their parents were killed in a horrific railway accident.
Days later, Albert held Edward’s hand as they sat dutifully in front of the caskets that contained whatever remained of their parents. During the evening of the day their parents were buried, Albert crept into Edward’s bed so neither of them would feel so lost and alone. While they traveled to Havisham Hall, where they became the wards of the Marquess of Marsden, Albert unwittingly offered a distraction, providing a place for Edward to vent his anger and frustration over life’s unfairness. They constantly shoved and slapped at each other until the solicitor traveling with them separated the boys. After they were abandoned so far from home, left in the marquess’s keeping, Albert assured Edward all would be well, that they began life together in the womb and, therefore, would always remain together. Albert had been his anchor, his solace, his one constant in all matters, all things.
And now she was stealing him away—with her silken black hair and her startling blue eyes and her sweet laughter and her gentle smile. Lady Julia Kenney. Albert was blinded by her beauty, her grace, and her attentions, allowing her to take up far too much of his time with rides in the park, rowing on the Thames, theater, dinners, and—God forbid—poetry readings. She was pulling him away from those closest to him, causing him to put aside his love for drinking, whoring, gambling, and traveling. In six weeks the Duke of Ashebury, Viscount Locksley, and Edward were going on a trek through the Far East. As far as Edward was concerned Albert should be going with them. He had been planning to go with them until Lady Julia asked him not to leave. Without so much as the blink of an eye, Albert had adhered to her wishes and cancelled his plans to travel with them.
She had managed to effectively wrap his brother around her littlest finger without much more than an occasional batting of her eyelashes and a fluttering of her fan. It was not to be tolerated. A woman should not have so much influence and control over a man’s life.
Edward wasn’t certain why he’d followed her out of the festive ballroom and into the quiet shadows of the garden, why he’d stopped to watch as she left the path and disappeared into the thicket of rose-adorned trellises and boughs. He knew only that he couldn’t lose Albert to her.
He hesitated but a minute before darting into an area where the shadows were heavier, the glow from the gaslights lining the path held at bay. Proceeding cautiously until his eyes adjusted to the gloom, he finally saw her leaning back against the brick wall. Her lips slowly curled up to reveal her winsome smile. She looked so bloody glad to see him.
In spite of the gray darkness, as he stepped nearer he could see the adoration in her eyes. No other woman had ever looked at him as though every breath she took was for him and him alone, as though she existed only for him and his pleasures. It caused a tightening in his gut, a heady sensation of supremacy and purpose.
“I thought you’d never get here,” she said in a whispered voice that belonged to angels.
Temptation such as he’d never known tore through him, leaving him powerless against her siren’s call. He didn’t understand it. In all of his twenty-three years, he’d never had a woman create such a maelstrom of confusing and uncomfortable emotions. He should leave now while he could, but she drew him in as though she had been created by the gods for him and no other.
With one hand, he cradled her face, felt the rapid thrum of her pulse against his fingers, and stroked his thumb along her smooth cheek. She released a soft sigh; her eyes turned languid.
He knew it was wrong, knew he would regret it, but he seemed incapable of rational thought or action. Leaning in, he took what he had no right to possess; he claimed her mouth as though it belonged to him, always had and always would belong to him.
She sighed again, a softer, warmer mewl that traveled through him, caused him to harden with such desire that he nearly doubled over. Drawing her in closer, he angled his head, took the kiss deeper, sweeping his tongue through her luscious mouth. She tasted of rich champagne with a hint of strawberries. Her slender arms came around his neck; her gloved fingers plowed through his thick blond curls. Her sigh this time turned into a welcoming moan. The passage of time seemed to come to a standstill like the clocks at Havisham Hall. No ticking, no movement of the hands, no tolling of the chimes.
He wanted to stay here forever. Wanted the night, and every night that followed, to belong only to them.
Drawing back, he held her languorous gaze. She touched her fingers to the wisps of hair at his temple, such a soft caress. It almost wasn’t one at all. She smiled tenderly. “I love you so much, Albert.”
His brother’s name on her lips was a punch to the gut that nearly took him to his knees. Her welcome hadn’t been for him. Her passion, her spark, her desire, hadn’t been for him. What a colossal fool he was to have imagined, even for a second, that they had been. Not that he was going to reveal to her exactly how she affected him, how badly he wanted her.
He forced himself to grin devilishly, triumphantly. “If you really loved him, wouldn’t you be able to tell us apart?” Ashe and Locke could. Even the mad Marquess of Marsden, who had served as their guardian, could distinguish them.
“Edward?” she rasped, looking as though her dinner would soon be making a second appearance.
Her obvious revulsion delivered a hard blow to his pride, but keeping his expression impassive, he offered an exaggerated bow. “At your service.”
“You beast.” Her gloved hand met his cheek with such unexpected force that he staggered back.
He regained his footing, cocked his head. “You enjoyed it, Julia.”
“It’s Lady Julia. When I marry Albert, it’ll be Lady Greyling. I shall insist you address me properly. And I most certainly did not enjoy it.”
“Liar.”
“Why would you do such a horrid thing, take such advantage? How could you be so cruel and deceitful?”
Because he’d never been able to deny himself anything he wanted, and he’d quite suddenly wanted her. Desperately.
“What’s going on here?” a deep voice asked.
Edward spun around to see Albert standing a few feet away, a quizzical look on his face. Not angry, but with an almost innocent expression, as though it would never occur to him that Edward would do something as dastardly as kiss his betrothed.
“I was waiting for you as we planned,” Julia said sweetly, moving in against Albert’s side, looking up at him with complete adoration that merely served to grind salt into Edward’s wounded self-esteem. “Edward happened along, began telling me more details about the journey to the Far East that he and the others have constantly been discussing. It sounds as though it’ll be the adventure of a lifetime. He’d so like for you to go.”
Edward hated being grateful for the lie she spun, but he knew that Albert would never forgive him if he learned how he had taken advantage of Julia. He wondered why she hadn’t confessed the truth, why she hadn’t taken the opportunity to create a chasm between the brothers that nothing on heaven or earth would have ever breeched. But more, why was she now encouraging Albert to go with him?
“You’re adventure enough for me.” Albert shifted his gaze to Edward. “I’ve told you that I have no interest any longer in traveling. I don’t appreciate you going behind my back to use Julia to try to persuade me to change my mind. Now I’d welcome your taking your leave so my little tryst in the garden with Julia can continue as intended.”
“Albert—”
“Be on your way, Edward.”
The impatience mirrored in his twin’s voice warned Edward that if he continued on this course, he would gain nothing except distancing himself from his brother. After giving them a slight bow, he strode away from the couple, the roses, the shadows.
He needed a glass of scotch. A bottle would be better. He needed to drink himself into oblivion until he could no longer remember the warmth of Julia in his arms or recall how glorious it had felt to have her mouth moving beneath his. He needed to forget that he had ever—for the briefest of moments—wanted her for himself.