Dear Sunshine,
I wanted to write to you one last time to tell you I’ve changed. In spite of you, thanks to you, I’ve grown. Without you, without all the sorrow, the joy, the rituals, the silver and gold. Without the secrets, the lies, the silence, and the wrenching heartbreak, I wouldn’t be living consciously.
And now I know, I’m not innocent. I’m not a victim of you or of circumstance or chance. I wasn’t born into anything I didn’t have a responsibility to. I had a choice, and I accept the consequences.
But you know what? I made it, and I’m fine. I guess what I’m trying to say is, I don’t blame you anymore.
I know, I’m just as surprised as you.
Love,
G