HE WAS WOKEN by the roll of the sea. When he opened his eyes, the stowaway perceived a darkness that seemed to stretch into infinity. The swaying of the ship, the stench of salt residue, and the sound of water scratching at the hull reminded him that he was not on dry land. He set aside the sacks that had served him as a bed and stood up slowly, scanning the long line of columns and arches that made up the ship’s hold.
The sight was dreamlike, he thought, a submerged cathedral peopled by what looked like booty taken from a hundred museums and palaces. He noticed the outline of a fleet of luxury cars, covered with semi-transparent cloths, amid a set of sculptures and paintings. Next to a large grandfather clock he spotted a cage containing a splendid parrot. The bird observed him severely, questioning his stowaway status.
A bit farther on he caught sight of a copy of Michelangelo’s David, which some individual on an impulse had crowned with the three-cornered hat of the Civil Guard. Behind it, an army of ghostly dummies, all wearing period dresses, seemed caught in a never-ending Viennese waltz. On one side, leaning against the bodywork of a luxurious hearse with glass sides – coffin included – was a pile of old posters in frames. One of them announced a bullfight at the Arenas ring dating from before the war.
The name of a certain Fermín Romero de Torres appeared among the list of horseback bullfighters. As his eyes stroked the letters, the secret passenger, at the time still known by a name he would soon have to leave behind in the ashes of that war, silently mouthed those words.
FER MÍN
ROMERO DE TORRES
A good name, he told himself. Musical. Operatic. On a par with the epic and harrowing existence of a lifelong stowaway. Fermín Romero de Torres, or the thin little man stuck to a very large nose who was soon to adopt that name, had remained hidden in the bowels of a merchant ship that had left Valencia two nights earlier. Miraculously, he’d managed to slip aboard, hiding in a large trunk full of old rifles that was camouflaged among all kinds of merchandise. Some of the guns were wrapped up in sealed bags with a knot that protected them from the damp, but the rest were uncovered, piled up one on top of the other, and looked more likely to explode in the face of some unfortunate militiaman – or in his own face, if he leaned where he shouldn’t – than to bring down the enemy.
Every half-hour, to stretch his legs and alleviate the numbness caused by the cold and the damp oozing from the walls of the hull, Fermín would venture through the web of containers and supplies in search of something edible, or, failing that, something that would help him kill time. In one of his expeditions he’d befriended a small mouse with long experience of these circumstances. After an initial period of distrust, the mouse began to approach him timidly and, nestling snugly in the warmth of his lap, shared the bits of hard cheese that Fermín had found in one of the food crates. The cheese, or whatever that greasy, leathery substance was, tasted like soap, and as far as Fermín’s gastronomic knowledge went, there was no indication that any cow or other ruminant had had a hand or a hoof in the matter of its production. But a wise man admits there is no accounting for taste, and if there was, the abject poverty of those days clearly altered the saying, so that they both enjoyed the feast with the enthusiasm that comes only from months of accumulated hunger.
“Dear rodent friend, one of the advantages of this war business is that from one day to the next, pigswill can be considered a dish fit for the gods, and even a cleverly skewered piece of shit on a stick begins to give off an exquisite bouquet of Parisian boulangerie. This semi-military diet of soups made with dirty water and breadcrumbs mixed with sawdust hardens the spirit and heightens the sensibility of the palate to such a degree that eventually even a piece of cork can taste of serrano ham if there’s nothing better to eat.”
The mouse listened patiently to Fermín while they devoured the food stolen by the stowaway. Sometimes, feeling satisfied, the rodent would fall asleep at his feet. Fermín gazed at the little creature, guessing that they had made good friends because deep down they resembled one another.
“You and I are two of a kind, mate, enduring the scourge of the erect ape with philosophy, and finding what we can find to survive it. Let’s hope to God that in the not too distant future all primates will be extinguished in one fell swoop and sent to push up daisies with the diplodocus, the mammoth and the dodo, so that you, hardworking, peaceful creatures who are content to eat, fornicate and sleep, can inherit the earth, or at least share it with the cockroach and some other coleopteran.”
If the little mouse disagreed, he showed no signs of it. Theirs was a friendly coexistence, neither of them searching for a dominant role: a gentlemanly agreement. During the day they heard the sound of the sailors’ footsteps and voices reverberating in the bilge. On the rare occasions when a member of the crew ventured down there, normally to steal something, Fermín would hide again in the rifle crate he’d just vacated and, lulled by the sea and the aroma of gunpowder, surrender to a little nap. On his second day on board, while exploring the bazaar of wonders hidden in the stomach of that leviathan, Fermín, a modern Jonah and a free-thinking scholar of the Holy Scriptures during his spare time, discovered a box full of beautifully bound Bibles. The discovery struck him as daring and colourful, to put it mildly, but since there was no other literary menu to choose from, he borrowed a copy and, with the help of a candle also on loan from the cargo, read aloud to himself and his travelling companion, highlighting hand-picked fragments, especially from the juicier Old Testament, which he had always considered far more entertaining and gruesome than the New.
“Pay attention, sir, for now cometh an ineffable parable of deep symbolism, spiced up with enough cases of incest and mutilation to scare the faeces out of the Brothers Grimm themselves.”
The two whiled away the hours and the days sheltered by the sea until, at dawn on March 17, 1938, Fermín opened his eyes and discovered that his friend the rodent was gone. Perhaps listening to a few episodes of the Revelation of Saint John on the previous night had frightened the little mouse, or maybe he could sense that the journey was coming to an end and it was advisable to make oneself scarce. Feeling stiff after another night encased in the icy cold that drilled into his bones, Fermín staggered over to the viewpoint provided by one of the portholes, through which poured the breath of a scarlet dawn. The circular window was only about a foot and a half above the waterline, and Fermín could see the sun rising over a wine-coloured sea. He walked across the hold, dodging crates of munitions and a pile of rusty bicycles tied together with ropes, until he reached the opposite side and had a look. The hazy beam of the harbour’s lighthouse swept across the ship’s hull, projecting momentary flashes of light through all the portholes in the hold. Farther on lay the city of Barcelona, enveloped in a halo of mist that crept between watchtowers, domes and spires. Fermín smiled to himself, briefly forgetting the cold, as well as the bruises covering his body, a consequence of brawls and misfortunes experienced in his previous port of call.
“Lucía . . .” he murmured, recalling the face whose memory had kept him alive during the worst predicaments.
He pulled out the envelope he’d carried in the inside pocket of his jacket since he left Valencia and sighed. The daydreaming vanished almost instantly. The ship was much closer to the port than he’d imagined. Any self-respecting stowaway knows that the hardest part isn’t smuggling oneself on board: what is difficult is getting out of the situation safe and sound and abandoning the boat without being seen. If he held out any hopes of treading land with his own two feet and with all his bones in the right place, he’d better start formulating an escape strategy. While he listened to the footsteps and the increasing activity of the crew on deck, Fermín could feel the ship beginning to veer and the engines reduce speed as they entered the mouth of the harbour. He put the letter back in his pocket and quickly removed all signs of his presence, hiding the remains of the used candles, the sacks that had served as bedding, the Bible of his contemplative readings, and the leftover bits of cheese substitute and rancid biscuits. He then did his best to close the boxes he’d opened in search of sustenance, hammering back the nails with the heels of his worn-out boots. As he looked at his meagre footwear, Fermín told himself that as soon as he’d reached dry land and kept his promise, his next objective would be to get hold of a pair of shoes that didn’t look as if they’d been filched from a morgue. While he busied himself in the hold, the stowaway peered through the portholes and saw the vessel moving ever closer to the port of Barcelona. He pressed his nose against the glass one last time, feeling a shiver when he noticed the silhouette of Montjuïc Castle with its military prison on the top of the hill, presiding over the city like a bird of prey.
“If you’re not careful, you’ll end up there,” he whispered.
In the distance, he could see the needle-like profile of the monument to Christopher Columbus, who, as usual, was pointing the wrong way, mistaking the Balearic archipelago for the American continent. Behind the confused discoverer was the entrance to the Ramblas that rose towards the heart of the old town, where Lucía awaited. For a moment he imagined her scented presence between the sheets. A feeling of guilt and shame removed that image from his thoughts. He had betrayed his promise.
“You wretch,” he muttered.
Thirteen months and seven days had passed since he’d last seen her, thirteen months that weighed on him like thirteen years. The last image he was able to steal before returning to his hiding place was the outline of Our Lady of Mercy, the city’s patron saint, standing on the dome of her basilica opposite the port, looking as if she were about to fly off over the rooftops of Barcelona. He commended his soul and his miserable body to her, for although he hadn’t set foot in a church since he was nine, when he’d mistaken the chapel of his native village for the public library, Fermín swore to whoever could and wished to listen to him that if the Virgin Mary – or any representative with leverage in heavenly matters – interceded on his behalf and led him to safe harbour without suffering any serious mishaps or fatal injuries, he would redirect his life towards spiritual contemplation and become a regular customer of the prayer-book industry. Having concluded his promise, he crossed himself twice and rushed back to hide again in the rifle crate, lying on the bed of arms like a corpse in a coffin. Just before closing the lid, Fermín caught sight of his companion, the little mouse, observing him from the top of a pile of boxes that rose to the ceiling of the hold.
“Bonne chance, mon ami,” he whispered.
A second later he plunged into the darkness that smelled of gunpowder, the cold metal of the rifles touching his skin, the die already cast.