Chapter Eight
Danielle awoke to the warm glow of sunrise on the horizon. She stretched out her legs and wiggled her toes. It was going to be another beautiful Wyoming day. Her mind drifted to thoughts of Cody. Last evening at dinner she had trusted him with a tiny piece of her heart. He had proven tender, caring, and, if she was any judge of body language, a smidgeon protective. Eager to discover what lay in store today, she squirmed out of the warm cocoon of her sleeping bag, feeling a lightness of spirit she had not experienced in years.
As well as providing breakfast, Gus fixed everyone a brown-bag lunch for the road. Before the sun had climbed a quarter of the sky, the wagon train was well under way. Two hours later they arrived at a still-functioning gold mine on the outskirts of South Pass. It was run on a part-time basis by an older retired couple. Sarah and Homer Levin spent the cold winters in Arizona but during the summers chipped away at their claim, clinging to the hope that they might strike the mother lode that some maintained was yet to be discovered. Danielle found that pretty hard to imagine considering the fact that the mine had been open since the mid-1860s.
Almost before she knew what was happening, Danielle found herself two hundred feet below the valley floor touring the old mine. An ancient-looking lightbulb provided dim, flickering illumination. The narrow underway passages made her claustrophobic, and she reached for Cody’s hand in the darkness. The warm, reassuring squeeze he gave her chased the fear from her bones. How gentle the big hand that enveloped hers. Such were the hands that helped little girls across creeks and big girls across fears. The thought made her heart swell, and she returned Cody’s squeeze.
Grateful for his steadying presence next to her, she listened to Homer explain the dangers and the drudgery of turn-of the-century mining. Danielle was as fascinated to discover the meanings behind such colorful phrases as “Fire in the hole” and “Eureka” as she was appalled to hear of the owners’ greed and enslavement of the poor.
Blinking like moles as they at last emerged from the bowels of the earth, she thanked God for the sunlight and the good luck of not being born a century earlier.
Just over the hill, the proprietors of the South Pass Historic Site had prepared a multitude of gala festivities for the wagon train’s arrival. Those hearty souls in charge of maintaining the gold mining town had tried to preserve the integrity of the Old West in their plans. First on the list was a demonstration of panning for gold. The girls were issued large tin pans and instructed on the finer points of separating silt from gold. Since they were short on equipment, Cody offered to partner up with Danielle. Bending next to her beside a trickle of water dubbed Willow Creek, he slipped his arms around her and grabbed hold of the pan with both hands.
Danielle found herself enveloped in liquid fire. Knowing that the blazing sun overhead wasn’t what was making her feel so woozy, she took comfort in the knowledge that if she were to faint, the iron arms around her would at least keep her from falling into the water. Leaning against Cody’s chest was like resting against the trunk of an old cottonwood, sturdy, immobile, rooted deep in the soil of the windswept land that had nurtured it
Their instructor was a grizzled old man who looked like he had just stepped off a mountain man movie set. He directed them to, “Gently scoop some of the creek bottom mud into the pan with a little bit of water and swish it about.”
Around and around Danielle’s head spun. Cody’s breath, warm and sweet against the back of her neck, stirred all her senses, making it useless to remind herself that only last night she had sworn herself to nothing more than friendship. Begrudging the quickening of her heartbeat, she cursed her body’s traitorous reaction and attempted to focus her attention on the man’s instructions.
“Gold’s heavy so it’ll settle to the bottom of the pan as you wash away the sediments and impurities.”
His words buzzed inside Danielle’s head like bees swarming a hive. Surely Cody knew as well as she that it wasn’t the cold, high, country water sloshing over her wrists making her hands tremble so. Swallowing hard, she stared into the tin platter. There, glittering in the remaining sludge, was a scattering of brilliant flecks.
“Gold!” Her voice was squeaky with the excitement of her discovery.
“Of sorts,” Cody replied with a grin. “It’s fool’s gold—iron pyrite.”
“You mean, it’s worthless?”
The disappointment evident in the tone of Danielle’s voice made him wish he would have thought to sneak a golden nugget or two into her pan. The sheer pleasure of watching her face light up with excitement would have more than been worth the out-of-pocket cash.
Calling the girls over to have a look, Cody explained the distinction between pyrite and the real thing.
“History’s full of people who’ve been fooled by this pretty yellow imitation.”
Lost in the depths of Cody’s eyes, Danielle found herself thinking that they truly were the most incredible shade of blue, highlighted with bright bits of gold—perfect replicas of the ones in floating in her pan.
Fool’s gold.
Warning lights went off in her head. Surely only a fool would fall for a man without knowing anything about his background, without being able to pin down exactly what it was about him that didn’t seem quite right.
Shaking off the thought, Danielle handed her pan back to their instructor and suggested they check out the rest of the old ghost town.
Looking like ghosts themselves in their old-time garb, they wandered in and around the historic buildings that comprised South Pass. It was here in this all-but-forgotten landmark community that Esther Hobart Morris led her suffragettes to victory, bringing Wyoming fame and infamy.
Left to explore on their own, the girls canvased such spots as the Carissa Saloon where a bawdy painting of a naked woman still adorned the bar, a bank, a butcher shop, a pesthouse where Calamity Jane earned her nickname, and the infamous South Pass Hotel. Though the cramped, musty rooms were a far cry from the elegant quarters portrayed in movies, all the signs assured visitors that this establishment was one of the finest hotels of its time.
Littered with mining paraphernalia and buckboards, South Pass came alive with the hauntings of bonneted beauties not so unlike those who had trodden the quaint board sidewalks of days long gone. Trailing a stream of white against an azure sky, a jet plane lent a surrealistic touch to the scene.
Lynn and Mollie proved insistent about their parents accompanying them to the town jail. Having already perused the joint themselves, they had hatched an ingenuous plan to throw Danielle and Cody together for a private moment alone.
“Slow down,” Cody grumbled as his daughter dragged him by the arm across a wooden bridge toward the somberlooking structure.
Previously educating themselves via signposts, the girls explained how in this oldest jail in Wyoming the infamous Polly Bartlett, The Murderess of Slaughterhouse Gulch, was shot point-blank and killed. Supposedly before the law caught up with her, the ambitious Miss Polly had poisoned and robbed more than twenty miners at her family’s way station south of town.
Lynn opened one of the three cell doors and bade them, “Go on inside.”
Feeling her skin crawl, Danielle assured them all that she had little desire to do so, but Mollie’s rallying cry of “Chicken!” ultimately hastened her compliance.
With a gentle shove to the middle of his back, Cody joined Danielle. He had barely stepped inside the cell when the door slammed shut and the bolt slid tight into its steel fastening.
“Very funny,” Danielle commented dryly.
But the instant the girls’ giggles and the soft sound of their footsteps on the dirt floor died away, their little practical joke didn’t seem in the least bit humorous to her. Danielle suffered from a mild case of claustrophobia, and the eeriness of confinement in a closed jail cell that had no windows, no light at all—save a solitary jagged hole cut into the bottom of the door through which to shove food to the prisoners—was quite overpowering.
“It’s no wonder so many men went mad in places like this,” she said, all too aware of the telltale quiver in her voice.
“Don’t worry, they’ll be back in a minute to let us out,” Cody assured her with a patience born of years of parental experience.
He was far less perturbed by the girls’ prank than Danielle was. Knowing full well the intention behind the stunt was to cast them together for a few stolen moments away from prying eyes, he was more than willing to go along with the girls’ shenanigans. Rare were the times when he found himself completely alone with this lovely woman, and the opportunity to respond to her on a purely physical level was quite appealing. Despite his determination to outwit his daughter’s matchmaking, Danielle had indeed gotten under his skin.
Raising a child by herself, chaperoning a troop of troubled adolescent girls, tackling the asperity of the Oregon Trail with grit and humor, she had impressed him as an uncommonly strong woman. It surprised him how truly unnerved Danielle was by this harmless prank.
Wrapping his arms around her, Cody pulled her close. “There’s nothing to be frightened of,” he murmured in her ear.
Nothing but me, he amended silently, succumbing to all of his senses. The woman in his arms felt too good to be true, so soft and warm, with the smell of wildflowers caught in her hair. Danielle shivered, and a surge of protectiveness shot through his veins. Even in the midst of summer, it was unbelievably cold inside the dank cell. But it wasn’t the thought of warming her up that caused Cody to lower his head and cover her mouth with his own.
He devoured her. Nibbling, stroking, teasing, evoking feelings that had been so long asleep, Cody felt the pull of passion released. Danielle arched her back, making him excruciatingly aware of the full firmness of her breasts pressed against his chest. However prim and proper this woman was in front of a troop of Prairie Scouts, behind closed doors she was a hot-blooded vixen, intent on giving as good as she got.
The lady was pure nitroglycerin. Blindsided, Cody was unprepared for the heat shuddering through his body, pooling in his loins, clouding his mind. Urgency pumped through his veins. Tangling his fingers in the soft fire of her hair, he deepened the kiss as if to prove beyond any doubt that he could make her melt like warm chocolate in his mouth.
Had Danielle wanted to lie to herself, she could have said later that she hadn’t known Cody was going to kiss her, but she never had been much of a liar. Instinctively she had understood that this incarceration would lead to the kind of kiss that made a woman’s knees grow wobbly. The kind that made a grown, intelligent woman sweep aside any rational thought about the uncertain future and abandon herself to the sheer sensual delight of stolen pleasures.
Danielle indulged in the heavenly taste that was uniquely Cody’s. She wound her arms around the solid column of his neck and hung on for dear life. How long that hot, soulwrenching kiss lasted, Danielle couldn’t say. A minute. A lifetime. She only knew that when it ended, she found herself clinging to him, unable to remember who or where she was.
The sound of approaching footsteps compelled them both to rein in their thundering heartbeats. Leaving a soft caress of his hand, a burning brand, upon Danielle’s cheek, Cody took a steadying step back.
A squeaky voice called from the other side of the door. “The games are about to start.”
“We knew you wouldn’t want to miss out,” Lynn added in a nervous rush.
The hesitancy in their voices confirmed the fact that both knew they were in trouble. Hearing the bolt slide free, Danielle and Cody patiently waited for the heavy door to swing open.
It didn’t. Leaving their parents to free themselves, the girls took off running in hopes that a good start and time would lessen the severity of any impending punishment. Loping away toward the Main Street where their friends were lining up for races, Mollie and Lynn exchanged knowing glances.
A few minutes later their parents joined the assembled crowd. All thoughts of retribution vanished as Danielle watched her troop of hard, city-wise adolescents struggle in their long skirts to win such long-forgotten competitions as the three-legged and burlap-sack races. A couple of weeks ago she couldn’t have imagined that the same girls who whined over broken fingernails and petty disagreements would have ever engaged in such simple games with such gusto. Somewhere along the trail, those snobby “material girls” had been transformed into a real troop, able to appreciate the meaning of friendship and self-respect. That which could not be bought at a store or learned from a book had been obtained through hard work and some pretty terrific role-modeling by a wagon master who assured them they were as capable as males of doing whatever they set their minds to.
Despite the addition of a multitude of freckles on the bridge of her nose, countless blisters on her feet, and aches too numerous to mention from sleeping on the hard ground, just watching her girls compete with such childish lack of restraint made the entire journey worthwhile. So many good things had come from this difficult journey. Like her girls, Danielle, too, had discovered unknown depth to herself. Somewhere beneath that vast canvas of a blue Wyoming sky, she had made peace with her past and rediscovered a very special bond with her daughter. In the face of shared adversity, their differences had been swept away with the current of the treacherous Sweetwater River.
Danielle could think of but one negative aspect to their pilgrimage. She had fallen hopelessly in love with Cody Walker, and there wasn’t a single thing she could do to keep him from walking out of her life in less than five days. As impenetrable as the jail in which she had been so recently imprisoned, Danielle’s heart was held captive in a cage of unalterable circumstance.
The highlight of their visit to South Pass was the street dance to be held that night. Danielle chided herself for being more excited than she should be at the prospect of dancing beneath the stars with a man who was more committed to his old beat-up guitar than to her. Having agreed to meet him on the boardwalk in front of the general store after dinner, she hoped to avoid giving the girls any more ammunition with which to plot their parents’ wedded bliss.
“You’re not Hayley Mills, and this isn’t The Parent Trap,” Danielle admonished her daughter as they both made preparation for the dance. “I suppose you thought it was funny to lock us in that jail cell, but it wasn’t. It was just embarrassing. I felt like the last old maid on the face of the earth in desperate need of her daughter’s help to catch a man.”
“No way, Mom,” Lynn countered with a frank appraisal. “You look better than I’ve ever seen you. Honest.”
Danielle was disarmed by the compliment. Without Scott’s constant zingers about her fading looks and lack of marketable skills, she had in fact been feeling rather pretty lately. Something about a handsome man stealing kisses at every turn was doing wonders for her tenuous self-esteem.
Sternly she reminded herself that this was a fleeting thing. In less than a week Cody Walker and his lovable little girl were going to ride out of her life without so much as a backward glance. Danielle was determined not to let him, or anyone else for that matter, see a single tear from the buckets she was certain to shed. Refusing to let the thought ruin her night, Danielle told herself that there was sure to be time enough for heartache later. Tonight she was going to dance all night with the best-looking man in the country. And she was going to enjoy every second of it.
By the time Lynn and her mother arrived in front of the General Store, the boardwalk was lined with an eager array of young cowboys hoping to coax some pretty girl in an old-fashioned pinafore into a dance. A chubby fellow with a microphone and a ten-gallon hat advanced the cause by instructing everyone to find a partner, promising to walk them through the first square dance of the evening with minimal amount of embarrassment.
A lump lodged itself in Danielle’s throat as she watched a strapping lad of fifteen shyly coax her daughter into the street. Watching the two awkwardly shuffling in the dust to the beat of the music, Danielle realized that her little girl was growing up. Soon Lynn would fly the nest, and where, Danielle wondered dismally, would that leave her?
Alone and miserable, she supposed, with a cheap bottle of henna as her only consolation.
Slipping silently beside her, Cody’s very presence jolted her out of such dreary thoughts. “Would you do me the honor of this dance, Red?”
“When are you going to stop calling me that?” she chided with an exasperated sigh.
“Whenever it stops making you bristle.”
Cody’s grin was so disarming it should have been registered as a lethal weapon.
“I’ve never square-danced in my life,” she warned him.
“It’s easy,” Cody assured her. “Just do what the man calls out and follow my lead.”
Feeling as awkward as a schoolgirl herself, Danielle allowed Cody to guide her into the street among the younger crowd. Luckily square-dancing relied as much on active listening as it did on any previous experience, and soon Danielle was caught up in the merriment of the moment, kicking up her heels beside her daughter.
Cody had never seen Danielle look more beautiful. Like the shawl she had draped over the hitching rack, Danielle had shed her worries tonight to indulge in a rare bit of fun. He couldn’t take his eyes off of her. The sparkle in her eyes rivaled the stars overhead, and had Cody believed himself a romantic, he would have said that the aura surrounding her was charged with diamonds. Her cheeks were flushed with excitement, her lips turned up in a tempting, sensual smile that drew his eyes like a magnet. Even with the distance between partners befitting an old-fashioned square dance, Cody could feel a fireball unfurling low in his gut.
Danielle wondered if the request he mouthed over his shoulder to the stout announcer had anything to do with the next selection, a slow waltz. The steady rhythm of Cody’s heartbeat next to hers stirred her blood with scorching urgency. Her knees grew as wobbly as those of a newborn fawn. Beneath the star-studded sky, enveloped in the arms of a sexy, rugged man touched with the hint of mystery, Danielle admitted to herself that she was a goner. The protective shield behind which she had hid her heart for so very long lay in the dust, no more than a twisted piece of tin.
She was unaware the music had stopped until she realized Barbara Matson was tapping insistently on Cody’s shoulder. To add insult to the fact that the woman was so brazenly cutting in, the other den mother had donned the absolute tightest pair of jeans Danielle had ever seen. It was a wonder she could move in them at all, let alone sashay a perfumed swatch through the next number.
With a heavy heart, Danielle retrieved her shawl and watched the other female chaperons line up for a dance with their dashing wagon master.
It was a scenario with which she was all too familiar. It had been the same with Scott. At company functions, it seemed other women simply couldn’t keep their hands off her husband. Nor, unfortunately, he off them. All his rhetoric about how she shouldn’t be so insecure had been nothing more than a convincing pack of lies.
Danielle wanted to believe that Cody Walker was different, that beneath all that fetching Western charm was a man as genuine as the land he loved so dearly. Still, there was no denying he was a hot-blooded man, and as such was not immune to the flirtations of women such as Barbara Matson, women blatantly eager to give a man whatever he wanted with no strings attached.
Glancing around, it seemed that everyone but herself had found a partner. Even Ray Anne Pettijohn, looking rather like a pinafored Cabbage Patch doll, was mincing her way through a complicated step. Danielle slipped around the corner of the mercantile and sought out a solitary sorry patch of grass graced by a single bench. Wrapping her shawl around her like a security blanket, she gazed into the legion of stars overhead, searching for answers.
“How about a sarsaparilla, Red?”
Startled by intrusion of the deep voice she had come to know and secretly cherish, Danielle did not bristle at the questionable endearment this time.
“What’s the matter, sweetheart?”
“Nothing,” she mumbled unconvincingly. They had mutually agreed that neither was looking for a long-term relationship, and the last thing Danielle wanted to admit to was feelings of jealousy. Cody had his own life and she a very different one waiting for her back in Denver. Still the dulcet sound of the word “sweetheart” had a soothing effect upon her bewildered state of mind. There was comfort, too, in the fact that Cody had left behind a bevy of attractive, available women to seek her out.
Taking a seat beside her, he handed her a dark-colored bottle. “Wanna tell me about it?”
“You wouldn’t understand.”
“What makes you so sure?”
The note of defensiveness in the question did not escape Danielle’s notice, but how could she ever explain to a man so obviously committed to the memory of his dead wife the guilt she felt about her inability to make her own marriage work? How could she ever hope to explain to a man so completely enamored by his daughter how a man like Scott considered parenting a duty to be bought off as cheaply as possible?
Instead Danielle answered Cody with a question born of bitter recall. “Did Rachael ever flaunt other men in front of you?”
“Of course not!”
It was a ridiculous thought. Even if she would have, Cody would have broken any sorry son of a gun’s neck who tried to cozy up to his wife.
“Then you couldn’t understand.”
But all of a sudden Cody found he did. Without meaning to, he had somehow caused the tears glistening in those big, beautiful eyes. He found it hard to believe that a woman as attractive and self-sufficient as Danielle could be made to feel insecure by the passing attention Barbara Matson had demanded, but it was the only explanation that made any kind of sense.
Damn it, just because Scott Herte was scum didn’t mean that every relationship should be based on distrust. Didn’t Danielle know that he had no more interest in Barbara Matson than he did in tying himself onto the back of a wild, bucking bronco? Thankfully those years of self-destruction were over. Women like Barbara, out to do no more than scratch an itch, were a dime a dozen in his business. Women like Danielle were as rare as the aquamarine jewels of the haunted eyes searching his for answers. As lovely on the inside as out, she was sweet, sincere, and sexy. How he had ever stumbled upon the genuine article along the Oregon Trail of all places was beyond him, but had he been particularly religious, he’d have to lay odds on his mother’s prayers having a hand in it.
Cody realized that it must have taken a deliberate act of sabotage to leave such an innately strong woman so wounded and distrustful of the opposite sex. If he ever had the opportunity to lay his hands on Scott Herte’s scrawny neck, he wouldn’t hesitate to wring it like the miserable, little chicken he was.
Taking her into his arms, Cody encouraged Danielle to let the poison drain from her soul. A painful sob racked her body. She spared no quarter for herself in the retelling of those terrible years that had robbed her of her dignity and her faith in herself. Rationally, she may have known that she was not to blame for her ex-husband’s infidelity, but that didn’t keep the self-doubt from leaking into her voice as she shared the pain that. had been locked away for so very long. Just laying voice to Scott’s exploits made Danielle feel totally undesirable all over again.
“You’ve been good for me,” Danielle murmured as Cody dabbed away her tears with his handkerchief. “Because of you, I no longer believe all men are liars.”
Danielle had no idea how her words twisted inside him like a double-edged blade. What would she think if she were to somehow discover he wasn’t the man she thought him to be?
“Tell me about Rachael,” she entreated with a sniffle. Her voice was liquid balm, drawing the words from his inner depths of their own volition. Perhaps frightened that like his own daughter he would eventually lose his most cherished memories, Cody described the girl he had married in terms redolent of youthful ardor. His words carried a nostalgic sweetness that for the first time since her death was not choked out by the anguish of his loss.
“And the accident?”
The arms entwined around Danielle immediately turned to stone. As much as she wanted to save him from the agony that played across his chiseled features, she knew catharsis was necessary if there was ever to be any hope of a future for him with another woman.
In halting phrases, Cody relived the worst day in his life. “It was the final night of the Cheyenne Frontier Days Rodeo. Rachael was in the running for state barrel racing champ. She was in the lead coming into the third barrel... The horse stumbled and tossed her...Snapped her neck...”
His fragmented thoughts ended with that gruesome image. What else was there to tell? Of the interminable days in the hospital waiting for news that if his wife pulled through, the best they could hope for was that she would live out the rest of her life as a paraplegic? Of the miracle that God failed to provide despite his attempt to storm the gates of heaven with his petitions?
What more was there to say but that his beloved was dead at the age of twenty and he had been left with but a miniature replica of her in the form of a motherless tot?
Danielle’s voice was a whisper caught on the breeze like a dying leaf. “I’m sorry.”
Cody turned pain-filled eyes toward her.
“It was a long time ago. A man has to move on with his life.”
Only in that very moment was he truly able to weigh those simple words. It was true. He had grieved far too long.
The sweet sounds of a timeless country waltz floated down the street. Unremittingly sad, it was one of his favorites.
“The time to dance is when the music is playing,” Cody murmured, meaning so much more by the statement.
He opened his arms and his heart to Danielle. Glistening in her luminous eyes was an open invitation to make love to her. It was useless denying the fact that they both wanted each other so much that they ached every waking and sleeping moment. Cody knew that his love for his child-bride had been colored by the innocence of youth. Their lovemaking had been sweet and pure in its timidity. What he felt for Danielle was more mature and intense. He was certain that when he made love to this woman she would be anything but shy and bashful.
Suddenly Cody wanted nothing more than to steal away and give this woman the pleasure they had both been denying themselves for so very long. There was only one thing stopping him. Cody like to think of himself as an honorable man. Danielle might accept him as nothing more than a drifter with little more to his name than a saddle and a daughter, but he could not ask her to accept him as anything but himself.
The knowledge that he cared so deeply for this woman was as swift and dangerous as white-water rapids. He needed time to adjust to his feelings, to read them, and chart his course accordingly. He would tell her the truth about himself soon.
Very soon.
Tonight it was enough to hold her in his arms and dance beneath a night sky illuminated by constellations and the full globe of the moon to the rhythms of a sweet, hurting country song.