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Holding Cass's eyes, I watch as she nods, accepting my stated demand.
That she’s now mine...
And only mine.
Leaning forward, I place a soft kiss on her mouth, then keeping our lips touching, I inhale her exhaled breath. Euphoria sweeps though my entire body.
Keeping her legs tightly wrapped around my hips, I place her bottom on the countertop for support. Reluctantly disconnecting our lips, I lean my upper body slightly away from her, to allow enough room so that I can grasp her t-shirt to pull it up and over her head.
Having her here, in front of me with her chest heaving, is a dream that I’ve been having over and over since the day I met her. Unable to help myself, I watch as her breasts strain against her sexy, white bra and a pulse begins in my head...
My heart.
Which only beats for her.
Reaching behind her, I quickly undo the clasp. As the bra slips away from her, revealing her firm, perfectly formed breasts, I feel my cock swell further, pulsating against the zipper of my jeans.
But I force my attention away from it.
Because I need to take this slow.
It has been so long since I had Cass and I needed to savor our reunion.
To savor every inch of her.
Slowly, I begin to undo the buttons of my shirt, raising my eyes to hers, watching how her eyes change, softening as she lets all of her defenses down. I watch as she bites her lip and my cock twitches, wanting to know how her mouth would feel around me. The thought makes me swell - impossibly - even more, driving me mad.
Soon, - I silently promise myself.
As the last button is undone, I allow my shirt to fall to the floor. Cass's eyes zero in on my chest, her fingers coming up to trace the Ferris wheel tattoo that I’d placed over my heart after meeting her because I’d needed something of her that could never be taken away from me.
As her fingers touch me, I suck in my breath, my eyes closing from the sensation of finally feeling her touch me again.
I feel her lips lightly touch my tattoo and my eyes open, my hands coming up to grasp her hips, digging my fingers in.
My heart feels as if it will beat from my chest as she raises her eyes to connect with mine.
"I never got over you, Cass," I whisper truthfully.
I watch her bite her lip again as a tear hovers on the edge of her eye.
Releasing one of her hips, I bring my hand up to cup her face, wiping away the sole tear as I murmur, "Shhhh. Tonight is not about being sad because I’m incredibly happy that you’re here with me now."
She nods her head and unable to keep from tasting her lips again, I lean forward and gently kiss her.
"Your simple kiss has my head swirling," I murmur against her lips, breathing in the air expelled from her lips, wanting everything that she can give me, even the light, sweet taste of her breath.
Opening my eyes, I watch as Cass’s slide open, and keeping my lips in light contact with hers so that she can feel as well as hear my words, I whisper softly against her lips, "I'm in over my head with you. I have been ever since I met you. I struggled so much when I couldn’t find you, Cass. You have no idea what that one night with you did to me."
I feel her arms come up around me and it feels too good that I can't wait any longer.
Wrapping my arms tightly around her waist, I lift her with the intentions of bringing her to the bedroom and making use of that king size bed. I feel the hard tips of her nipples on my chest and my entire body coils with desire, and I now feel as if I will explode any minute. Bringing my hand up to her hair, I wrap my fingers tightly through the strands and deepen my kiss. My intentions to take her to the bedroom fly out the window as she returns my kiss just as feverishly. I turn and blindly finding the kitchen island, I carefully place Cass on top, before I disentangle myself from her and step away.
The vision of her sitting on the kitchen island in only her tight pants, her naked breasts trembling as she bites her lip with an anxiousness to have me fuck her so very evident in her eyes...
It sears my brain – my soul.
“I feel like I’m dreaming," I whisper.
She smiles softly as she shakes her head, causing a few tendrils of her hair to fall forward and to curl softly around the tip of one of her nipples.
“You’re not dreaming,” she whispers.
Reaching my hand out, I gently place my hand over her heart, savoring the erratic beat – for me – only for me, as I gently guide her to lie flat on her back onto the top of the counter.
Inevitably, my eyes come to the juncture between her legs. Lightly, I run the tip of my forefinger over where her clit is, the tight fabric of her yoga pants not hiding her response as I watch the muscles of her inner thighs clench.
"Borden..." she whispers.
I bring my eyes up to hers and leaning forward over her, I place each of my hands on either side of her head, to place a kiss just underneath her ear, allowing only the very tips of her nipples to touch my chest.
It’s electric...
Searing straight through me.
Her arms come up around me, trying to pull me closer but I grasp both of her hands, bringing them up over her head, holding them as I stare into her eyes.
She stares back into mine and I know resolutely at this very moment that this woman was forever to be mine. I will somehow convince her to stay with me forever.
"You know you are meant to be with me," I murmur. "This," I whisper as I gyrate my hips into her, "what we have between us, was never going to be avoided."
I feel her gyrate back against me in response. I clearly know what her body wants but I need her to say it.
"Borden..." she pleads against my lips as she tries to tug her hands from mine that are still trapped tightly in mine over her head.
"Say it, Cass," I whisper.
"Borden..." she whispers in a plea again.
Grinding my hips into hers, I whisper heatedly, "I've already had one-night, Cass. I want more. So much more. You have to give me more."
I feel her chest heave, and then I hear the words, "I was meant to be with you. I want to be with you, only you."
Satisfied, I drop my lips to her neck as I move both her hands, to tightly clasp them in one of mine. Slowly, I kiss my way down from her neck, to her collarbone and then down over the swell of her breast until I am circling her nipple with my tongue. Cass's body shakes with a small tremor and I open my mouth to take her nipple between my teeth, tugging it inside gently as I close my mouth, suckling her perfect mound.
I hear Cass moan my name and my heart sprouts wings. I release her breast, release her hands as I stand and begin roughly tugging her pants down her legs, my desire thickening as I realize that she has no underwear on.
And then finally, she’s naked before me, fulfilling the dream I had of her only last night. I lift one leg up onto my shoulder and then the other, splaying her open before me. My gaze centers on the apex of her thighs, focusing on the perfect, pink and glistening opening. Leaning forward, I place my mouth on her, tasting her for the first time.
She’s heaven on my lips, her taste filling my mouth.
"Borden..." she whimpers again, her back arching against the countertop.
Yes, keep saying my name, forget about everyone, everything, but me, - I silently encourage her as I swirl my tongue inside of her.
Cass's hands come to my hair, wrapping her fingers tightly through the strands as she tries to tug me closer. She raises her head, staring down at me, her eyes telling me how much she wants me.
I pull away, her fluid - the sweet, heady taste of her - on my lips driving me mad as I stand. I ignore her protests as I undo my jeans quickly and push them, along with my underwear, to the floor. My cock pops free, eager as I hastily kick my clothes away from me.
Now propped up on her elbows, Cass bites her lip again, driving me even wilder.
I desperately needed to make her mine.
Grasping my cock, I stroke it, as I murmur, "I can't wait any longer, Cass."
Cass doesn't say anything as she widens her legs, silently inviting me in.
All blood leaves my body, filling my cock as I step over to her, precum leaking heavily from the tip as I begin to slowly slide it up and down her wet and perfect opening.
"You're so god damn beautiful," I whisper just before I finally allow myself to slowly push inside. As Cass surrounds me, completing me like no one else ever has, I close my eyes as my breath hisses, savoring this moment.
Opening my eyes, I glance to where we are – finally - joined, before looking up to Cass's face.
"You’re never getting away from me again," I whisper, and watch as she nods her head, accepting easily what I’ve stated.
Grasping both of her hips, I pull out and slam myself in again, watching how her breasts shake from my force, the erotic sight filling my brain, taking over my body as I pull out again quickly and roughly take her again.
It's not enough.
Grasping one of her hands, I pull her into a seated position while tugging her more fully onto my plunging cock. Releasing her hand, I slide both of my hands to her ass, gripping tightly as I lift her from the counter so that I completely impale her...
Wanting her to feel deeply and wholly penetrated by me.
And only me.
My actions become rougher as I lose control of them, spearing up and into her, her moans, hearing her chant my name, feeling her hands on my own ass spurring me on, encouraging me to go even deeper. I feel her orgasm shudder through her and I can't hold back any longer as I erupt, my head falling backwards as I shout, "Fuck!"
My legs feel weak, my chest is heaving like I have run a marathon and I feel as if I may collapse.
Trembling, I gently place Cass’s bottom back on the counter and keep my arms tight around her upper body as I wait for some of my strength to return.
As she clings to me, recovering from her own orgasm, I know reality is possibly starting to weigh heavily on her shoulders.
Squeezing her, I silently try to let her know that I’m here for whatever is ahead.
And that I’m here to stay.
There’s no possible way that I will ever let her go again, not after that. Almost five years and the electricity between us is just as strong - even stronger now that we know each other.
Because now I know that I love all aspects of Cass.
I feel her head move and I lean back slightly to look into her face.
Relief sweeps through me as she smiles softly, her hand coming up to brush her hair back over her shoulder before reaching out to trace one of her fingers over my lips, her smile widening.
I open my mouth and gently bite the tip of her finger.
"So that's what it's like sleeping with a rock star," she gently teases as her gaze drops to watching her finger go back to tracing my mouth.
Matching her mood, I reply teasingly, "I think you had a taste of it before."
Her face sobers, and I feel the teasing mood change between us and a spear of fear snakes through me.
"Cass..." I whisper as I kiss her forehead. I leave my lips there, looking over the top of her head into the open layout of the living room to the snow rapidly falling outside. Right now, it feels as if it’s only the two of us in the world. But I know reality is waiting for her.
"I haven't been with Tyler since that weekend we went to the beach house," I hear her murmured admittance.
I squeeze my eyes shut, so deeply grateful for her confession.
"I couldn't let him touch me after that. I knew it would be wrong because all I could think about was you," I hear her continue.
Opening my eyes, I lean back to look into hers.
"Thank you," I say simply.
She nods her head, as she replies, "After I told Tyler about you that weekend, he begged me to stay with him. He tried to convince me that this attraction between you and I would fade once we stopped working together." She sighs heavily before continuing, "I admit I almost believed him and it’s why it had taken me so long to realize it’s you that I want. I also have to admit that I had hoped a little that maybe he was right because with him I had a sure thing. But with you..." she trails off as her eyes shift from mine.
Releasing her, with my heart beating erratically, I grasp her face in each of my hands as I hold her eyes so she can see the truth, I whisper, "I'm your sure thing, Cass."
She bites her lip, trying to remove her face from my hands, wanting to avoid my eyes but I don't release her.
"What Cass? What is it?" I ask softly, my thumb stroking her cheek, encouraging her to tell me what is on her mind.
"Borden..." she says, then stops, seeming to assess her words before she speaks them. I wait patiently. There is nothing more important in my world than Cass and if she needs a few minutes to form her words, to let me know what is on her mind, I'll wait those few minutes.
Finally, she holds my eyes steadily as she confesses, "I'm still so scared of being with you. You consume me in ways that no one else ever has. I know if I become heavily involved with you, I'll lose my heart, my soul to you. And with your rock star status, you can have anyone. If you ever chose anyone else over me, I don't know if I would ever survive because that would completely break me."
Holding her eyes, I open my mouth to soothe her fears, but I immediately snap my mouth shut. Instead, I do as she did and take a moment to consider my words.
Finally, I respond.
"I may never live a normal life because of my job. But Cass, I spent the last five years without you. After only being with you for one night, you changed me, made me yearn for things that I never thought I could have because I couldn't find you. You have haunted me in my entirety over the past five years. And during those five years, I played the field, meeting many women, always searching for a connection like I had with you. I even lost myself completely for a while and turned to drugs to try to forget you because every interaction I had, I felt something was missing and didn’t know how to make myself whole again. But the ghost of you followed me no matter what. No one consumed me, captivated me, like you did. You had me from the moment I saw you standing at the entrance to that Ferris wheel. It's why I got the tattoo. It's why it’s placed where it is. You changed my heart, my soul...me, from that moment on. I want only you, Cass. I’ve had what the rest of life has to offer, and nothing compares to you. I want only you. And since I have been back in your life, watching you work, spending small amounts of time with you while maintaining my distance, I have completely fallen in love with everything that is you."
Releasing her face, I grasp both of her hands in mine, threading each of my fingers through hers, as I lean my forehead against hers, willing her to calm her fears.
"I just don't know how we can make this work," I hear her confess softly.
"We will make it work," I murmur, completely sure in my words because I'd give up everything to be with Cass. I wasn't happy without her when I had everything that money and success could buy. I’ve worked hard over the past five years. I could easily not tour and retire as a musician and still live quite comfortably. I also had many other options open to me. I could still write and record my music but stop the touring. There have been many requests from other artists to write songs for them to record. I’ve also had movie producers asking me to consider acting. So many options.
But none of those options will be ever allowing what Cass and I have to fall apart.
Not ever.
“Let’s worry about all this tomorrow,” I soothe, and forcing a lightness into my tone, I continue, “Right now, I think we should check out that hot tub together and forget about the rest of the world until we have to face it again.” Wrapping my arms around her waist, I lift Cass, absorb the feeling of her legs wrapping tightly around my waist as I carry her back to her room. She kisses my neck the entire way, sometimes suckling at my sensitive skin...
Her sighs whispering over my ear bringing me such simple peace and happiness.
I don’t put her down when I reach the sliding glass doors which lead to the balcony. Instead, I hold her tighter with one arm as I unlock the door and slide it softly open. Walking through, I continue to the hot tub where I climb the steps with her still in my arms, her naked body wrapped completely around me. I’ve never felt so whole as I submerge our bodies beneath the water. My eyes drop to her breasts, my eyes watching as the bubbles from the water cause them to jiggle. Grasping Cass’s hair in one hand, I gently tug until she arches her neck and I trail my lips over the steady, but fast, beat of her pulse before sliding my mouth down to take one of her jiggling nipples into my mouth. Nothing has ever given me such an explosion of sensation like tasting Cass’s skin does.
I move my hand to cup her ass, squeezing the perfect globe before continuing, slipping my middle finger inside of her. I feel the remnants from our previous round of lovemaking and a deep possession settles over me.
“I’ll never let you go again,” I whisper against her breast before taking the nipple between my teeth and gently biting.
I hear Cass’s breath hitch and I know she wants more.
Sliding my middle finger out, I slide my forefinger and middle in together in the next stroke before quickly withdrawing and plunging my two fingers deep inside her again.
I feel Cass move, trying to wriggle herself down, harder and harder onto my thrusting fingers and I grin.
She’s so completely uninhibited in her desire with me.
“Borden...” I hear her pant, her hands coming up to my hair, tugging, wanting me to go faster...deeper.
Placing my thumb on her clit, I suck her breast into my mouth at the same time I place light pressure on her most sensitive area. Cass’s body becomes more forceful in her grinding against my fingers. Then I hear her gasp my name, tugging on my hair as I feel her orgasm start deep inside of her body.
She collapses against me and as I slowly slide my fingers out, she says something that makes my heart take flight...
That I have been wanting to hear since the day I met her.
“I love you.”
Chapter 5