“Did he tell you what he wanted?” Davy asks.
“When would I have talked to him when you weren’t there?” I say.
“Duh, pigpiss, you live in the same building.”
We’re riding to the Office of the Ask, the sun setting on the end of our day. Two hundred more women labelled. It goes faster with Mr. Hammar watching over it all with a gun. With the other teams around town led by Mr. Morgan and Mr. O’Hare, word is we’ve got nearly every one of ’em, tho the bands don’t seem to be healing as fast on women as they do on sheep or Spackle.
I look up at the dusky sky as we move along the road and I realize something. “Where do you live?”
“Oh, now he asks.” Davy slaps the reins on Deadfall/Acorn, causing him to canter for about two steps and then drop back into a trot. “Five months we’re working together almost.”
“I’m asking now.”
Davy’s Noise is buzzing a little. He don’t wanna answer, I can tell.
“You don’t have to–”
“Above the stables,” he says. “Little room. Mattress on a floor. Smells like horseshit.”
We keep on riding. “Forward,” Angharrad nickers. “Forward,” Deadfall nickers back. Todd, Angharrad thinks. “Angharrad,” I say.
Davy and I ain’t talked about my ma’s book since he brought it to me four nights back. Not a word. And any sign of it in either of our Noises gets ignored.
But we’re talking more.
I begin to wonder what sort of man I’d be if I’d had the Mayor as a father. I begin to wonder what sort of man I’d be if I’d had the Mayor as a father and wasn’t the son he wanted. I wonder if I’d be sleeping in a room over the stables.
“I try,” Davy says, quiet. “But who knows what he effing wants?”
I don’t know so I don’t say nothing.
We tie up our horses at the front gates. Ivan tries to catch my eye again as I go inside but I don’t let him.
“Todd,” he says as we pass, trying harder.
“That’s Mr. Hewitt to you, Private,” Davy spits at him.
I keep on walking. We take the short path from the gates to the front doors of the Office of the Ask building. Soldiers guard those doors, too, but we walk on past ’em into the entryway, across the cold concrete floor, still uncovered, still unheated, and go into the same viewing room as before.
“Ah, boys, welcome,” the Mayor says, turning away from the mirror to greet us.
Behind him, in the Arena of the Ask, is Mr. Hammar, wearing a rubber apron. Seated in front of him, a naked man is screaming.
The Mayor presses a button, cutting off the sound mid-cry.
“I understand the identification scheme is complete?” he asks, bright and clear.
“As far as we know,” I say.
“Who’s that?” Davy asks, pointing at the man.
“Son of the exploded terrorist,” the Mayor says. “Didn’t run when his mother did, foolish man. Now we’re seeing what he knows.”
Davy curls his lip. “But if he didn’t run off when she did–”
“You both have done a tremendous job for me,” the Mayor says, clasping his hands behind his back. “I’m very pleased.”
Davy smiles and the pink rush fills his Noise.
“But the threat is finally upon us,” the Mayor continues. “One of the original terrorists caught in the prison attack finally told us something useful.” He looks back thru the mirror. Mr. Hammar is blocking most of the view but the man’s bare feet are curling tightly against whatever Mr. Hammar’s doing to him. “Before she unfortunately passed away, she was able to tell us that, based on the patterns of the recent bombings, we can almost certainly expect a major move by the Answer within days, perhaps as soon as tomorrow.”
Davy glances over to me. I keep looking at a middle point beyond the Mayor on the blank wall behind.
“They’ll be defeated, of course,” says the Mayor. “Easily. Their force is so much smaller than ours that I can’t see it lasting more than a day at most.”
“Let us fight, Pa,” Davy says eagerly. “You know we’re ready.”
The Mayor smiles, smiles at his own son. Davy’s Noise goes so pink you can’t hardly look at it.
“You’re being promoted, David,” the Mayor says. “Into an army position. You will be Sergeant Prentiss.”
Davy’s smile almost explodes off his face in a little boom of pleased Noise. “Hot damn,” he says, as if we weren’t there.
“You will be at Captain Hammar’s side as he rides into battle at the front of the first wave,” the Mayor says. “You will get your fight exactly as you want.”
Davy’s practically glowing. “Aw, man, thanks, Pa!”
The Mayor turns to me. “I’m making you Lieutenant Hewitt.”
Davy’s Noise gives a sharp change. “Lieutenant?”
“You will be my personal bodyguard from the moment the fighting starts,” the Mayor goes on. “You will remain by my side, protecting me from any threats that may approach while I superintend the battle.”
I don’t say nothing, just keep my eyes on the blank wall.
I am the Circle and the Circle is me.
“And this is how the Circle turns, Todd,” says the Mayor.
“Why does he get to be a lieutenant?” Davy asks, Noise crackling.
“Lieutenant isn’t a battle rank,” the Mayor says smoothly. “Sergeant is. If you weren’t a sergeant, you wouldn’t be able to fight.”
“Oh,” Davy says, looking back and forth to each of us to see if he’s being made a fool of. I don’t think nothing about that.
“There’s no need to thank me, Lieutenant,” the Mayor teases.
“Thank you,” I say, my eyes still on the wall.
“It keeps you from doing what you don’t want,” he says. “It keeps you from having to kill.”
“Unless someone comes after you,” I say.
“Unless someone comes after me, yes. Will that be a problem for you, Todd?”
“No,” I say. “No, sir.”
“Good,” says the Mayor.
I look back thru the mirror. The naked man’s head has lolled lifelessly onto his chest, drool dripping from his slack jaw. Mr. Hammar is angrily taking off his gloves and slapping them on a table.
“I am very blessed,” the Mayor says warmly. “I have achieved my ambition to put this planet back on track. Within days, maybe even hours, I will crush the terrorists. And when the new settlers come, it will be me who puts out a proud and peaceful hand to welcome them.”
He raises his hands, like he can’t wait to start putting ’em out. “And who will be right beside me?” He holds his hands out to the two of us. “Both of you.”
Davy, buzzing pink all over, reaches out and takes his pa’s hand.
“I came into this town with one son,” the Mayor says still holding out his hand to me, “but it has blessed me with another.”
And his hand is out, waiting for me to take it.
Waiting for his second son to shake his hand.
“Congrats, Lieutenant Pigpiss,” Davy says, hopping back into Deadfall’s saddle.
“Todd?” Ivan says, stepping away from his post as I climb onto Angharrad. “Can I have a word?”
“He outranks you now,” Davy says to him. “You’ll address him as Lieutenant if you don’t want to be digging bogs on the front lines.”
Ivan takes in a deep breath, as if to calm himself. “Very well, Lieutenant, may I have a word with you?”
I look down on him from Angharrad’s back. Ivan’s Noise is busting with violence and the gunshot to his leg and conspiracies and resentments and ways to get back at the Mayor, openly thought, as if to impress me.
“You should keep that quiet,” I say. “You never know who might hear.”
I slap Angharrad’s reins and off we go back down the road. Ivan’s Noise follows me as I go. I ignore it.
Feeling nothing, taking nothing in.
“He called you son,” Davy says, looking ahead as the sun disappears behind the falls. “Guess that makes us brothers.”
I don’t say nothing.
“We should do something to celebrate,” Davy says.
“Where?” I say. “How?”
“Well, we’re officers now, ain’t we, brother? It’s my understanding officers get privileges.” He looks over at me sideways, his Noise bright as a flare, filled with things I used to see all the time in old Prentisstown.
Pictures of women with no clothes.
I frown and send him back a picture of a woman with no clothes and a band on her arm.
“So?” Davy says.
“Yer sick.”
“No, brother, yer talking to Sergeant Prentiss. I may finally be well.”
He laughs and laughs. He feels so good some of it actually touches my own Noise, brightening it whether I want it brightened or not.
“Oh, come on, Lieutenant Pigpiss, you ain’t still pining for yer girl, are ya? She left you months ago. We need to get you someone new.”
“Shut up, Davy.”
“Shut up, Sergeant Davy.” And he laughs again. “Fine, fine, you just stay at home, read yer book–”
He stops himself suddenly. “Oh, damn, sorry, no, I didn’t mean that. I forgot.”
And the weird thing is, he seems sincere.
There’s a moment of quiet where his Noise pulses again with that strong feeling he’s hiding–
That something he’s trying to bury that makes him feel–
And then he says, “You know . . .” and I can see the offer coming and I don’t think I can bear it, I don’t think I could live another minute if he says it out loud. “If you ever wanted me to read it for–”
“No, Davy,” I say quickly. “No, thanks, no.”
“You sure?”
“Yes.”
“Well, the offer’s there.” His Noise goes bright again, blooming as he thinks about his new title, about women, about me and him as brothers.
And he whistles happily all the way back to town.
I lay on my bed with my back turned to Mayor Ledger, who’s chomping down his dinner as usual. I’m eating, too, but I’ve also got my ma’s book out, just looking at it, lying on the blankets.
“People are wondering when the big attack’s gonna happen,” Mayor Ledger says.
I don’t answer him. I run my hand over the cover of the book like I do every night, feeling the leather, touching the tear where the knife went in with the tips of my fingers.
“People are saying it’ll be soon.”
“Whatever you say.” I open the cover. Ben’s folded map is still inside, still where I stashed it. It don’t even look like Davy bothered to open the book, not once in the whole time he had it. It smells a bit like stables, now that I know where it’s been, but it’s still the book, still her book.
My ma. My ma’s words.
Look what’s become of yer son.
Mayor Ledger sighs loudly. “They’re going to attack here, you know,” he says. “You’ll have to let me out if that happens.”
“Can’t you keep quiet for five seconds?” I turn to the first page, the first entry my ma wrote on the day I was born. A page full of words I once heard read out.
(read out by–)
“No gun, no weapon.” Mayor Ledger’s standing now, looking out the windows again. “I’m defenceless.”
“I’ll take care of you,” I say, “now shut the hell up.”
I’m still not turned to him. I’m looking at my ma’s first words, the ones written in her hand. I know what they say but I try to sound them out across the page.
Muh-y. My. It’s My. I take a deep breath. Dee. Dee-arr. Dee-arr-ess. Dee-arr-ess-tuh. Which is Dearest, which seems mostly right. My Dearest. And the last word is Son, which I know, having heard it so clearly today.
I think about his outstretched hand.
I think about when I took it.
My Dearest Son.
“I’ve offered to read that for you,” Mayor Ledger says, not able to hide his groan at the sound of my reading Noise.
I turn round to him, looking fierce. “I said, shut up!”
He holds his hands up. “Fine, fine, whatever you say.” He sits back down and adds a last sarcastic word under his breath. “Lieutenant.”
I sit up. Then I sit up higher. “What did you say?”
“Nothing.” He won’t meet my eye.
“I didn’t tell you that,” I say. “I didn’t say a word.”
“It was in your Noise.”
“No, it wasn’t.” I’m getting to my feet now. Cuz I’m right. I ain’t been thinking bout nothing since I came in for dinner except my ma’s book. “How did you know?”
He looks up at me but there ain’t no words coming outta his mouth and his Noise is scrambling for something to say.
And it’s failing.
I take a step towards him.
There’s a ker-thunk at the door and Mr. Collins lets himself in. “There’s someone here for you,” he says to me, then he notices my Noise. “What’s going on?”
“I ain’t expecting no one,” I say, still staring at Mayor Ledger.
“It’s a girl,” Mr. Collins says. “She says Davy sent her.”
“Dammit,” I say. “I told him.”
“Whatever,” he says. “Says she won’t talk to no one but you.” He chuckles. “Pretty little piece, too.”
I turn at the tone of his voice. “Leave her alone, whoever she is. That ain’t right.”
“Best not take too long up here then.” He’s laughing as he shuts the door.
I stare back at Mayor Ledger, my Noise still high. “I ain’t thru with you.”
“It was in your Noise,” he says, but I’m already out the door and locking it behind me. Ker-thunk.
I stomp my way down the stairs, thinking of ways to get the girl away without Mr. Collins bothering her, without her having to go thru any of that for any reason, and my Noise is boiling with suspishuns and wonderings about Mayor Ledger and things beginning to come clear when I get to the bottom of the steps.
Mr. Collins is waiting, leaning against the wall of the lobby with his legs crossed, all relaxed and smiling. He points with his thumb.
I look over.
And there she is.