I locked on to her signals which then stopped

& which I probably imagined in

the first & second places where we met

every time I see her knocks more bright cliffs

off of the wet end of my glacier

& having no access to replacements

my being diminishes & dribbles

like some run-over ice pop in the sun

outside her garage if you look closer

it’s easy to trace the tracks of her tyres

if there’s a smile on my face it’s because

of the music clearly & a gladness

she exists though unavailable to

me gladness a bright buoy in a grey sea

ice water whispering interiors

threatening to overcome settlement

agriculture & civilisation

I especially remember the speed

& dexterity of her thumbs as well

as several things I used to do with mine

as she flew over into the darkness

of our deactivated purposes

& the shacks of her own expectations

& the desolation of this sentence

my gladness she exists a high harmonic

on the complex chord of what is this thing

although it doesn’t matter what it’s called

now the low-lying meadows are flooded

where we once walked through unexpectedness

on a morning she may not remember

all the places where nothing now may grow