Lost Countryside

A springtime of rain and not much sun, one

death amid thoughts of death, grief a constant

ache in the throat, the word sing, prefix of

single, and the walnut in the cracked shell.

I pry it open with a knife. Hemi-

spheres. Two halves of something adored for its

wholeness. Hawk overhead quite curious.

I taste the crumbs of white flesh, familiar,

yes, I’ve been here before. The black walnut

and guardian woodpecker watched me crouch

to collect nuts while guiding the mower

with one hand. I filled my pockets each fall.

A cloud climbs the sky and someone down

the valley blows a muffler. You know, a thing

of importance will never end, never

be final. I forgot the nuts till one

rolled out of my summer trousers, hung on

the line at the start of spring.