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Damn I’d wanted to kiss her in the bathroom at the hospital. I found myself picturing her walking out without a shirt on and I couldn’t keep my cock from swelling with a want. I’d been so into her at that moment I’d forgotten for a moment about how hideous my back looks to people. I’d stripped of my tee-shirt in a heartbeat and she was staring at me, appreciating me. I’d caught her staring at my chest. I’d realized that she was more than likely doing the same thing I was fantasizing about making love. Nobody stays once they see my scars and hear about how I got them. That’s why I’m not going to get involved with her, I can’t take another crushing heartbreak.
I’d brought her home and showed her around my mini mansion, she seemed to think that I was going to ask for something in return for her staying at my place for an undetermined amount of time. I had hoped I’d made it clear that was not my intention. When she’d asked my permission to work I was both shocked and stunned to the fact that she was asking my permission and I didn’t even know she worked. When she’d explained what she did I was happy that she’d found something that she could do if she was on her own with Luke. She wouldn’t have to leave him at home alone or at a daycare while she worked hoping that nothing happened to him.
When she’d asked about her laptop it had broken my heart to have to tell her that it wasn’t usable anymore. I could see her breaking again, that defeated look came over her face again and I couldn’t take it anymore. I excused myself and made a few phone calls one to a friend of mine that works in the IT department on the force and another to see if the computer she had was available.
Great news for me was that it wasn’t a hot selling laptop since it was a little pricey. Thankfully no one here knows how much I’m worth. I buy the computer and head over to the IT department with both computers thankfully Jay can clone the two computers into one, the only problem is that it takes quite a bit of time to accomplish this task and that’s time I don’t want her to be alone. I look on the feed of my homes’ security system and see that her sister is there hopefully they are chatting and relaxing some. She really needs it. When Jay finishes with the cloning it’s getting near dinner time, so I call my favorite Chinese restaurant and order some food for us to eat. I only hope that she didn’t try to make dinner tonight and exhaust herself.
I arrive home and bring in the dinner thankfully her sister just left. We eat and while she puts Luke down for bed I go to my room and change into a set of sweats and go workout for a bit. When I’m done working out some of the frustration that I feel about this whole situation. I hate seeing any woman that’s in a domestic situation especially when they try to leave the situation and the person doesn’t want them to. It hits way too close to home, I pump some more iron as the images from years ago flash in my mind except this time the beautiful woman who is in my den is the person who’s lying dead on the floor of the house. Shit I’m getting too close to this, it’s becoming personal.
I finish exhausting myself on the weights and shower quickly. I figure the laptop should be charged by now and I pull on a tee-shirt and some flannel pants that I reserve for when I have guests. I prefer to walk around in my boxers unless it’s cold. I grab the laptop and head to the den. When I sit down next to her I can smell her, it’s a combination of honey and lemons, I bet it has a sweet and tangy taste to it. I show her the laptop and she immediately threw her arms around me in a hug, which I could deal with. It’s when she kisses me I’m gone; my dick is standing at attention wanting it’s share of the attention, and my heart is pounding. I remind myself that a woman that has dealt with what she has over the last few years is going to expect me to want something in return.
I broke the kiss, although I was enjoying it, and immediately excuse myself to the kitchen where I grab a glass of water and try to calm down my dick. I really wanted to know what her mouth tasted like, but would I have been able to restrain myself from going too far and becoming the asshole she’d just left. After I’ve paced for what seems like forever I excuse myself to my room for the night. Thankfully she’s engrossed in something on her computer and only sort of grunts at the fact I’m going to bed.
I don’t go immediately to bed. I head to the bathroom to ease the tension in my balls. I can still smell her scent on my shirt, she smells so good, she’s going to drive me crazy if I’m not careful. After I release I clean myself up and head over to the bedroom where I climb in bed and am greeted with dreams of her. Some of them are good and some make me feel frantic. I wake at two thirty in the morning and am greeted by my dick standing at attention, again. I try to rub one out, but this time my hand just isn’t doing the job my dick is being stubborn and wants to feel something of her around it. It’s not going to be picky, mouth, hand or even her lady bits, just not me. Ugh. I’ve got to somehow tell it that isn’t happening for a while, if ever.
I mean I am a man and she is fucking attractive as all hell. She’s got the deepest reddish-brown hair and she keeps it up most of the time in a bun, and her eyes are the prettiest emerald green. The bun is sometimes on top of her head, sometimes on the back, and a time or two I’ve seen her do her hair up like princess Leia, but I think that was to help Luke relax since it was dress up day at school and he’d dressed up as Luke Skywalker. She’s got a nice full hourglass figure. She’s not the typical thirty-six, twenty-four, thirty-six. If I had to guess she’d be about a forty, thirty-four, forty. But it’s only a guess, all I know is my hands would be filled with her breasts and her ass. As for numbers they can take a flying leap. She’s healthy to me.
I spend the next few days taking Luke to and from school, and otherwise I’m home with her fighting my urges. I have lifted more weights and whack-um-tom-tommed more than I think I have done since high school. On Saturday I take them to the local fun house. It’s a pay to enter thing so unless Jeff the asshole has a kid he won’t be getting in. I also drop the idea on Lilly that she let me drop Luke off at school and pick him up after school. I don’t tell her that I’m paying for the after school daycare, because I know she’ll think I want something back, and I don’t. She agrees to a temporary pick up and drop off schedule. It makes my day a bit since she’s willing to consider letting me take care of him some.
Valentine’s day is around the corner and I’m trying to figure something out to show her how much I like her. It’s hard since I can’t figure out how to get her to talk about her past. I don’t want to screw this up, but I’ve got to have her I’ve gotten worse I can’t stop thinking about her. Hopefully getting back to work will make me more exhausted and I’ll sleep better.
Monday comes, and I take Luke to school and talk to the principal after school about the arrangement for me to pick Luke up for Lilly for the next little while. Lilly had written a note and I give it to them; the permission ends at the end of February. It gives me just over a month to get her to consider letting me show her how a real man treats a woman.
Work isn’t helping, I think about her being alone more and more. I also dream about her both bad and good, well sort of good if you consider waking up with Mr. Stiffy multiple times a night good dreams. Luke has become more open with me and we talk each morning on the way to school. He knows his mom is afraid of cops because of the way her ex treated her. He’s explained to me about her trying a few times to leave, but Jeff found her. He described hearing her crying the last time she left him. He’d been put in his room, but he’d gotten out of the room and heard Jeff and her locked in the bedroom he describes her cries as if she was in pain, he’d heard her beg him not to do whatever he was doing. This new light on things confirms what the doctor had told me, and I am even more pissed at him. I drop Luke off at the school and do my work until lunch time. I’ve called Chris and we meet for a lunch conversation.
When Chris meets me at our favorite pizza joint he’s trying to joke around with me that he can’t watch Luke for Valentines day. Valentine’s day can go out the window right now I have murder on the brain. I need him to talk me down before I do something stupid. When I tell him, what Luke told me this morning he confirms that he’d been suspicious the day Lilly and Luke showed up about the violence. He also reminds me that without Lilly pressing charges against Jeff there’s nothing we can do. Lilly can still press charges about the attack in Chris’s house, however little Luke’s hearing of abuse and not seeing it is only hearsay, if we were to press charges. By the time lunch is over I have calmed down some, but I need to get Lilly to get a restraining order against Jeff and to press charges for the attack on her a few weeks ago. I leave work early saying I’m feeling sick, not a lie, I can only imagine what that fucker did to my Lilly.
The days before Valentine’s fly by and Lilly still has to press charges about the assault, the lead detective has called me asking if I know how to contact our victim. I tell her that I’ll get in touch with the victim and see what the hold up is. Its two days until Valentines and I’m going to be a bit lame and ask her to be my girlfriend at a family dinner out.
I pick up Luke and take him home after my after school duties are done. When we enter the house, I tell Luke to go play in his room since I need to talk to his mom. I knock on her bedroom door since she’s not in the den, her door is open but she’s not in the bedroom. I notice the bed is unmade and the sheets look like a crime scene they are bloody. I hear crying coming from the bathroom and I walk to the door and gently knock. She only sobs and I hear sniffling. I turn the knob on the door and open it just a crack, she’s sitting on the toilet. I ask her, “Are you ok in there, do I need to call for assistance?”
“I’m fine she bites out, the only assistance you can call for me is a pad delivery service.” I can’t help but chuckle a bit as I realize that the crime scene on the bed is from her, but it’s her period. And worst of all is the fact that she’s not prepared. Apparently, her sister forgot to bring those with her when she brought the few things that she had over at her house.
I think quickly and ask her “What kind do you need?” I’m a seasoned cop and not afraid to go to the store for my woman and get her the supplies she needs.
She laughs at my question and says, “Sending a man to the woman’s needs aisle is like sending a woman to the motor oil aisle.” At least she has some humor in the situation. However, I’m not going to let her go out and be embarrassed.
I ask her “Can I call your sister and have her bring you some?” This time I get a long silence which concerns me some.
Finally, she breaks the silence and says, “I’ll figure out how to buy you a new mattress and sheets.” She isn’t answering my question she’s more concerned over a set of sheets and a stain on the mattress, really. What has this fucker done to her brain she should be more concerned about getting the supplies that she needs. It should be about her and not the price of replacing stuff.
Once again, I ask her what she needs and tell her not to worry about the other stuff. She finally gives in and tells me what she uses and asks me for some specialty pain pills since her periods come with some intense pain. I agree and write down everything she needs I tell her that Luke is in his room playing and I’ll be back in a few minutes. I tell her to get a warm or hot shower to help ease the pain and I’ll help her clean up the sheets when I get back.
I return from the store with a few extra things in hand for her. I’ve had a few girlfriends over the years and know some of what to expect when it comes to that time of the month. I pop my head in the bedroom and hear the shower still running, good she took my advice. I knock so that she knows that I’m there and ask permission before I enter the bathroom. She gives me permission as she turns the water off. I hand her a towel so that she can cover herself up and keep my eyes on the sink as I unpack the bag of supplies. I open the bottle of specialty pain pills and pull two out for her. When I turn around to hand her the pills and some water she’s toweling dry, bent over drying her feet before she steps out of the shower. My dick gets hard immediately.
She stands up and takes the pills and water from me. She’s completely naked and I can’t help but to take in her beauty. At least I have the common sense to let her put on her underwear before I gently take her wrist and kiss her lips. She doesn’t fight me she opens her mouth and moans quietly as I kiss her lips. I let my tongue explore her lips gently before I delve it barely into her parted lips. When I know she’s not going to fight I release her wrists and gently drag my fingers up her arms to her shoulders. When I break the kiss, I can see the shock in her eyes. I press our foreheads together and breathe in more of her scent. I kiss her temple and tell her “You’re beautiful, and I want you to know it. Now get dressed in something comfortable for you and I’ll take care of Luke and dinner.”
When I leave the bathroom, I adjust myself relieving some of my discomfort. I quickly strip and remake the bed for her, and then go into the kitchen and make a small salad and spaghetti dinner for us. I’ve learned over the last few weeks that she loves her pasta. When she comes out of the bedroom in a pair of pajama bottoms and a loose-fitting tee-shirt, damn she looks sexy in that. We eat dinner quietly, and I suggest that she lies down since it looks like the medicine is starting to work. She doesn’t argue she gets up from the table and kisses Luke goodnight and goes to her room to lie down.
After I lay Luke down and make sure he’s asleep I go into Lilly’s room. This time I don’t knock since I know she’s more than likely asleep. I climb into the bed still dressed in my clothes and cuddle up to Lilly’s back side. She moans like she’s in pain, so I start gently rubbing on her lower back which rewards me with her adjusting her position slightly. She’s unaware of the fact that her shifting is rubbing her ass on my crotch. Once she seems to have relaxed some I place my warm hand between her hip bones where I can feel the muscles tensed. I fall asleep holding her close to me, I’d wanted to talk to her about pressing charges against Jeff and getting a restraining order placed, but I will settle for a little snuggle.