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The drive home is quiet, I can tell that she is waiting for me to tell her how she totally fucked up. Well, she did but I don’t think me reminding her of her fuck up is the right direction to go. Just like a cop has a discretion when he goes to issue a ticket to a person, I am using my discretion to let her realize how she fucked up and not do it again. I’ve decided that I’m not going to ask her for sex again. I’ll keep telling her how beautiful I find her and show her my love for her, but she is going to have to tell me that she wants sex before I make another move like the other night.
We’ve picked lunch at my favorite burger joint and I find a parking lot to park at that’s got some shade and isn’t too busy, so we’ve got some privacy. I’m not the kind of guy that likes to drive while I eat. I watch her eat her burger, she takes small bites of it. I know she’s expecting a conversation on her actions, but it’s not what I’m going to say.
“I’m sorry Lillybear, I didn’t mean for my plans of taking you on a romantic get away to make you feel that you were just my sex toy. The truth is Lilly, that was the only day I could get the judge and the lawyers together to get the paperwork signed. I had booked the Vegas trip and the rental car weeks ago. I love you and I just wanted you to see how much. You don’t get to get out by yourself anymore, and I wanted you to have fun. If we had sex it was up to you.” She can only stare at me in disbelief, apparently even her first husband never told her anything like this.
“Look hun, I know this whole relationship is kinda strange to you, there is a lot we haven’t talked about where we are concerned. I want you to feel safe, something my mother never got a chance for. I was lucky my grandfather took me in after my father murdered her. He treated me like a man should treat his son. I only had four years with my dad, but from what my grandparents said it was a rough four years. When I met Luke my heart hurt for him, and then to find you in my best friends house almost dead something just snapped in my brain. I couldn’t just let you go...” she’s got tears in her eyes, but I’m pouring my heart out to her. “I have fallen madly in love with you and I don’t want to lose it. I was beside myself when I got out of the shower and you were gone. I have to admit that at first I thought you went out for air, which I could understand, but when you didn’t come back I about lost you. I called Chris to see if you had called Kathy to tell her about your plans, but you hadn’t you just left and disappeared into the night. No one knew where you would go.”
We get home just before dinner time, and I call ahead and pick us up some steak dinners for the two of us. I turn the car towards home and drive, I’ve managed to hold her hand most of the ride home, but now she has to hold the dinner bag. We pull up to the house and I help her inside.
Chris has dropped off the luggage that I brought back from Vegas with me. I suggest that Lilly go and take a shower while I put dinner on plates. I listen to the shower running as I grab the plates from the cabinet and place the steaks on each plate. I grab a few bowls and place the salads that we’d ordered in them and grab a couple of different dressings so that we have a choice. I’m a thousand island man, but I’ve got her pegged for ranch or Italian dressing.
I hear the shower stop and I know she’ll be out here in just a few minutes. The doctors had to pull a piece of a tree branch out of her foot, she didn’t need stitches, but they did tell her to keep it cleaned. I head to the bathroom to help her to the table since she is walking a little tenderly on her sore foot. I help her to the table and then take the seat across from her.
We eat dinner in almost total silence and it is killing me. I want to tell her how bad I felt for those hours that we were apart. I want her to know how much I care for her, but I’ve got to let her make the first move. Tomorrow I’ll return the Rolls, and have Luke dropped off at the house so that he and Lilly can catch up.
The weeks go by slowly, I’ve been working most of the time and school is about to release for the summer. Lilly is going to have Luke for the summer, I’m wondering if she’s going to stay, or go since the summer is coming and she won’t have anything tying her to the area.
I get the news today that Jeff was found guilty of the attempted murder of Lilly and his sentencing is in two weeks. I’m hoping he gets the max. I’ve heard some rumors from county jail that the other inmates have found out he’s a cop as well as a rapist. His buddies are in the Houston jail awaiting trial for multiple rapes on women during traffic stops. The rangers are going to wait until Jeff’s sentencing is handed down before they have him moved to the Houston jail to stand trial for the rapes on the other women during traffic stops.
Since Jeff’s crimes were committed in two areas when they hand down his sentence the state can make the charges in the highway rape cases be served either at the same time as his attempted murder or they can wait to have his time in the state penitentiary start when he’s released from the attempted murder sentence.
Lilly received her first check for her stipend. She went out and bought Luke as well as herself some clothes. She’s been working hard the last few weeks trying to get finished up with some projects so that she can have a few weeks without work for her and Luke special time. This makes me wonder if she’s going to pull up and leave and never come back. I don’t think she will, because she knows she has to go into surgery to have her colostomy bag and port removed in another month and a half. She has already scheduled the appointment day and as long as she’s still getting good reports from the surgeon she’ll go in for surgery in August just after school starts back. I’m really thinking that this is why she’s working so hard, so that she can focus on recovering.