I see that I am already here
I am already naked
I have already said yes to
this thing women who’ve come
of age must do
before we can waste
any more time
she is already two gloved fingers inside me
probing for anything
abnormal
I have already tightened
my fist, purpling the nurse’s fingers
a little girl who lives inside me
is demanding that this stops
feels knives clawing at her middle
is wondering if it will always
feel like the first time
someone touched me
inside