you’ve been sad
what do you like
to do when you feel sad
I want to tell him
that I like to play
and that I can’t
get to the other toys
when he is sitting
in front of me asking
questions
my left hand squeezes
the roof of the yellow truck
pushes it hard and lets it fly
crashing hard into the wall past
Doctor Matthew’s leg
my right hand shoves
the beads I was gliding
to the other side of the maze
and the loud smack
makes me laugh from my belly
Daddy’s face twists curiously hearing it
I want to keep laughing
like this, close my eyes
and picture someone else
coming to play with me
picture Doctor Matthew
not being so close