“Think of Amy!” The insistent voice penetrated Amy’s dream, making her eyes flutter. The voice continued. “You’re bringing a young innocent girl into a rough gold camp. Eli, it’s a mistake, exposing her to that element. You know our mistakes will dog us to the grave.”
“Now, Maude, Amy’s—” came Father’s low voice.
“She’s asleep.”
Amy squinted at the light probing her eyes. Yesterday a sharp branch had poked a hole in the canvas stretched over the Rev. Eli Randolph’s wagon, and Aunt Maude took it as a sign that Satan was marshaling his forces against them. Today a finger of light danced through the hole. With each jolt of the wagon it stabbed her, daring her to shed the dream and listen to the two bent figures as they argued on their wagon seat.
In her dream, Amy’s tight braids had become a floating veil of springy yellow curls; her eyes were daring and brave. Now Amy screwed her blue eyes tight against the light and clung to her dream. A trickle of perspiration beaded on her lip and dropped to the pillow.
With a tiny sigh, Amy wiped her lip and surrendered the dream of the tall young man on horseback. He had come crashing into her life, spilling gold nuggets and sweeping aside Aunt Maude and Father with a smile as he reached for Amy.
Aunt Maude’s voice caught her as it lifted beyond the discontented grumble, stacking the argument to dangerous, dizzy heights. Amy’s ears strained to hear the words. It wasn’t the familiar complaints, but new, strange things that made her uneasy.
“Following a dream you are—a foolish, selfish one. Why can’t you forget her? Risking our lives, threatening your daughter with the very thing you should be fleeing. The taint makes it a bigger fear. Eli, you can’t tempt fate this way and get by with it. We’ve not talked this out, but I know your secret thoughts. Everytime I see you looking toward those places, eyeing those painted faces, I know what ails you.
“’Tis one thing to convert the heathen, ’tis another to not rest easy with one’s lot in life. Are you intending to ever tell her about—”
As Aunt Maude paused, Amy heard the pounding hooves, a shout. Her aunt’s complaint ended in a sob. “Eli, Indians! Oh, the Lord forgive us for this foolishness!”
Amy rolled off the pillows and pushed her face between the two on the seat. Her aunt spoke automatically. “Amy, take your elbow out of my side.”
The horse thundered past, leaving a cloud of dust that slowly settled down over the Randolph team and wagon. Amy coughed and rubbed her watering eyes. The rider circled back. It wasn’t an Indian.
Amy grinned at the dusty young rider. “Are you a cowboy?”
“Naw, I’m heading for the gold mines.” He tipped his hat at Amy’s father and added, “Just wanted to say howdy and I’ll see you in Denver City. Stay on this Smokey Hill road; it’ll take you right into town.” He wheeled his horse and left them to their plodding gait.
The color was seeping back into Aunt Maude’s face. Amy stretched to look after the rider, and her aunt snapped, “And don’t you practice poking your lip out like that and making your eyes like saucers. Eli, these miners will ruin a sweet-faced innocent.”
The whip cracked impatiently over the backs of the team. The mules hurried their gait a bit, and Amy slanted a glance at Aunt Maude, recalling the things she overheard. Taint. Aunt Maude, why didn’t you like my mother? Deep down, you’re really glad she died, aren’t you?
The ugly thoughts pressed against Amy as she settled back on the quilt. The noonday heat poured down on the prairie as the wagon swayed through the ruts. Amy peered out at the barren trail. Slowly she said, “A lonely trail, straight as an arrow to Pikes Peak country.”
She waited for their reply as she studied the sparse gray-green bushes and the poor, pale soil. The heavy silence was broken only by the creaking wagon and the snort from the team. Father’s shoulders moved again, but neither he nor Aunt Maude spoke.
Amy sighed and yanked off her sunbonnet. Trying to break the lonesome silence, she said, “I wish a cool breeze would come up. Just a little one.” Perspiration had darkened her braids to honey color and plastered her hair into shiny corkscrews across her forehead.
She picked the curls away and rubbed her offending elbows, saying, “I wish I didn’t look like a scrawny baby. And I wish I could wear my hair loose and curled.”
Aunt Maude peered over her shoulder. “Tut,” she said uneasily. “You’ll grow up fast enough. Don’t pine for what you don’t have.”
Amy fanned herself briskly with her sunbonnet. With a quick glance at the two, she said, “If the end of May is like this, what’ll summer bring?” No answer. “Father, we’ve been staring at sagebrush forever.”
Her aunt answered. “Not so. You can’t forget the miles of grasslands.” Her tart reply changed to a plaintive murmur as she sank back on the seat, “Not that it matters. It’s the green pastures of Kansas Territory I’m wanting, not those rearing up lands they call the Rocky Mountains. Trying to stick in a wagon when your nose is pointed skyward is enough to scare a person humble in a hurry.”
While Aunt Maude rambled on, Amy studied her father. He was a dark lump of dusty coat and limp black hat. But Amy didn’t need to see his face; it was a copy of Aunt Maude’s long-planed face, with a nose like finely chiseled flint.
Glancing at Aunt Maude she saw the one tear on her pale cheek, but the guilty sympathy Amy felt put her in partnership with her father. With a quick look at him, she began to think out her words carefully. “Aunt Maude, I know you don’t like coming to the Pikes Peak country; I’d rather stay in Kansas too, but I’m not scared by mountains. They’ll be beautiful, all green pines and mirror-like lakes, deer and bighorn sheep—”
Aunt Maude snorted, “You sound just like that guide book. The one by the fellow pushing us to get gold fever and join the wagon train.” She sat up and waved her arm, crying weakly, “Pikes Peak or Bust!”
Amy blinked. Eli nodded, saying, “The pamphlet put out by William Byers. I’ll admit he printed a pretty nice picture of life around Cherry Creek. Made it sound like a growing city with piles of gold in the creeks.”
Straightening on the hard wagon seat, Aunt Maude snorted in disgust. “Last autumn, by snowfall, the greatest share of them had come back to Lawrence, Kansas.
“It wasn’t hard for us to see that they had been humbled—creeping back into the territory and civilization, tail between their legs, their canvas all labeled Busted by God.”
“Now, Maude,” Eli’s voice came from under the hat, “some quotations don’t bear repeating. Besides, you’ve no doubt noticed, we aren’t the gold-seeking crowd.”
Amy knew it was best to keep silent, but the words burst out, “Since church conference time, you knew Father would come. And we knew you didn’t want to come. Father tried to get you to stay with one of the uncles.” Immediately she regretted the words. Aunt Maude dabbed at her eyes.
Father’s shoulders moved uneasily again. Sadly Aunt Maude said, “I couldn’t forget my responsibility. ’Tis bad enough for a widower to be out here alone to fend for himself, but one with a child—that’s out of the question. I know my duty.”
“Child!” Amy exploded. “I suppose I’ll never get a figure, even by eating butter and cream. But on the inside I’m grown up. I’m fifteen. Lots of girls are getting married at sixteen. And what did you mean when you said—”
Amy’s father reached out with a calming touch. Trembling, Amy settled back on the pile of quilts; she had nearly admitted to eavesdropping. She said no more, but concentrated on her keyhole view.
“Look!” Maude pointed. “Isn’t that blue line a river in the patches of trees? Maybe the Platte?”
Eli shook his head. He held up the scrap of paper. “According to this map, it’s Cherry Creek. That means we’re almost there.”
“Thank God.” Aunt Maude breathed out an explosion of relief. “I can say I’ve been worried silly thinking we’d be done in by the Indians any minute. It was hard to see those other folks take off and head north to the Oregon Trail.”
“Almost there?” Amy said slowly. “What do you mean? Those mountains look a long way off.”
“Amy, daughter,” Eli said gently as he continued to flick the reins and study the paper, “we’ll be staying in a little town this side of the Cherry Creek. They call it Denver City. That is, we’ll stay there until the missionaries assign us a place to minister.”
“Missionaries?” Amy questioned. “You mean there aren’t bishops and presiding elders here?”
“No. A conference hasn’t yet been organized. It’ll probably be several years until we’re strong enough. There’s just a few missionaries, come in from the Kansas-Nebraska Conference.”
Studying her father’s weary face, seeing the new lines and the way his shoulders sagged, she bit back the sharp bitter words she wanted to say. But it had always been this way, as far back as she could remember.
Father never had enough money or time for frolic. Amy bitterly reflected on the last parish. They had just made the old house fit to live in before it was time to move on. There was time to make only a few friends before saying goodbye.
“Minister! I doubt there’s even a decent church where we’re going. Besides, what can a spindly fifteen-year-old and a maiden lady do in a mining camp—dig gold?”
He shot a half-grin at her while Aunt Maude groaned. “Eli, mark my words. In another year I’ll remind you I said this would be a mistake.”
He pointed toward the southwest. “That’s our destination. We’ve about a half hour, just enough time to give you the bare facts about the place.”
“I see cabins on each side of the creek,” Amy said.
“Well, the east side is Denver City; on the other side is another small town they’ve named Auraria. I understand the two scrap like litter pups. The fella back in Lawrence told me as of last summer there was just a handful of cabins in each town. I think he said twenty-five on the Denver City side and fifty on the Auraria side. Looks to me like there’s more now. Those bigger places must be hotels.”
He paused, then added, “Even from here it doesn’t look too bad. The line of trees along the creek gives it a homelike touch.
“There must be some pretty good-sized camps in the mountains by now. The young man in Lawrence said fifty thousand men and a few women had moved in last year.”
Amy echoed, “Fifty thousand!” Aunt Maude shook her head.
“Eli, I heard you talking to that man. You didn’t know, but just around the corner another fellow was saying that a good share of the men took one look around, shook a panful of gravel and then high-tailed it back to Kansas.”
“I’ve an idea they were the ones who fell for the story that the gold was lying around waiting to be scooped up by the bucket loads,” Eli replied.
“Or the rumor that you could quarry it like granite,” Amy added.
“Up both branches of Clear Creek,” Eli said, “they’re saying there’s good color showing, but the miners will have to work for it.” He turned to grin at Amy. “See, I’m getting miner’s jargon down pat. Color refers to the presence of gold in the ore.”
In a moment his smile faded into the familiar brooding expression. Aunt Maude began to nod in her corner of the seat, and Amy strained her eyes to pick out the details of the area around the creek.
They dropped down a slight incline and the small settlement stretched out before them, a tiny smear of brown against the overwhelming mountains. For a moment Amy was uneasy. Everything seemed hazy and barren down that line of gray soil and green trees marking the way to Denver City.
Father was talking, his voice moving through the stillness, barely lifting above a murmur. Amy knew he was quoting scripture as he often did while they traveled. She turned to listen to him.
His voice rose and grew strong. “‘Therefore, behold, I will allure her, and bring her into the wilderness, and speak comfortably unto her. And I will give her her vineyards from thence, and the valley of Achor for a door of hope: and she shall sing there, as in the days of her youth, and as in the day when she came up out of the land of Egypt.’”
When he had been silent for a time, Amy asked, “What book are you quoting? It’s pretty, almost like a love story.”
Startled, he cleared his throat. When he spoke his voice was flat. Flipping the reins he said, “Hosea. It is a love story—in a way.” In another moment he pointed. “See that? That’s the south fork of the Platte River. Cuts down Nebraska way. We’ll be living this side of it, but I hear there’s a good ferry close hereabouts. Doesn’t look safe to ford. They say in spring run-off it’s seventy feet wide.”
He paused then added, “One thing, don’t forget, daughter. We’re here to spread the Gospel. That should make us look at circumstances in a totally different light. It matters not whether people find gold, or that the towns be little and shabby. The important part is that we establish the church regardless of anything else.”
The passion in his voice made Amy move impatiently. His words dug down in her, uncovering the uneasy, hidden guilt of questions she felt but dared not ask. This was new—the need to question nearly everything. She looked at him, wondering what he would think of her questions. Did he ever wonder about God? She saw his eyes were troubled.
For a moment she waited, then moved her shoulders impatiently—wanting to hear, yet fearful of all the unsaid things. Why won’t you talk about my mother? Why do my questions make you uneasy? Why do I feel it’s wrong to ask the questions I wonder about most?
The sun was starting to slip behind the jagged peaks to the west as Eli took his team into the streets of Denver City. Although the clamor of the town was beginning to intrude, Amy didn’t notice. She was caught, unable to tear herself away from the view in front of her.
The setting sun outlined the snowcapped peaks with a crown of light and tempered them with peach-hued clouds. Amy watched as the light burst its cloud barriers and became bars of gold slanting down through the mountain gorge.
She shivered with a strange joy as she watched distant winds sweep the clouds. Now they rolled, spilling across the topmost silvered slopes. At the same time the clouds picked up new lights, changing from apricot to rose to lavender.
When Eli hauled in on the reins, Amy turned from the mountains. She blinked and leaned forward on her elbows. “Aunt Maude, look at those clouds! Makes me think life here at the foot of the Rockies has a Midas touch. You know, King Midas—gold!” Her heart quickened with the fairy tale promise. But she buried the thought inside: Just maybe there is something exciting and mysterious about Pikes Peak country. She took a deep shaky breath and glanced at the mountains again.
The wagon stopped. Leaning across the seat, she watched Eli climb out and head for a large structure made of pale logs. He gingerly picked his way to the veranda as Amy murmured, “That building looks like a ship floating on a sea of mud.”
The wide veranda held a row of rail sitters. With unblinking eyes they studied her and Aunt Maude, who was just now stirring and looking around. One shifted a pipe in his mouth and readjusted his muddy boots. “Female,” he said briefly, “but it’s jest a tad.”
Amy peered down the street stretching along the bank of the creek. Where the trees had been hacked out, a building had been erected in their place.
She found she could identify the log buildings. One was obviously a livery stable. The next, tall and rambling, must be a hotel. She watched a woman in a hoop skirt and scoop bonnet being handed from a carriage to the steps.
Beyond the hotel a covey of small cabins huddled, a mixture of sizes and shapes, but all of the same light log.
Aunt Maude fastened her hair more securely and pointed with her chin. “That place is a general store. I saw a man come out with shovel, and the fella behind was carrying a sack of flour. So at least we eat.”
“Doesn’t it smell nice?” Amy asked dreamily. “The fresh wet smell of the rain, the wood smoke and the sage and pine. Aunt Maude, I’m beginnng to think I’d like to live here forever. Maybe Father will stay in Denver City instead of going to the mountains.”
Eli came out of the building. He was wearing a broad smile, and Maude frowned as he said, “The fellow inside pointed me in the direction of a vacant cabin. Says it’s pretty snug. The owner got discouraged and just walked out on it, so it’s ours for now. He also told me how to get in touch with the missionaries. Seems there’s quite a group here.”
The cabin was a steep climb up the next street. Aunt Maude clung to the seat and said, “At least we’re spared the mud they have down below.”
Amy and Aunt Maude were still gingerly stepping through the damp white clay when Eli came back to the wagon for another load. “What a view!” He picked up the table and turned. “Come see.”
Amy went to the stoop and turned to look. On this street the little cabins were set at odd angles, without design or pattern, either to their dooryards or corrals. The road they traveled wound between the buildings and edged down the hill toward the business section of town.
“How come most of the cabins up here are empty?” she asked. “Those down below look full of people.” The rambling log buildings along the creek vibrated with sound and activity.
When Aunt Maude stopped beside her, she added, “We can see the whole of the main street, as well as Cherry Creek and the Platte River.”
Aunt Maude turned into the cabin. “The mountains are pretty tonight. Cabins? I don’t know why the cabins are empty; I’d rather live up here, anyway—there’s a view.”
Inside, Aunt Maude inspected the bunks built into the side of the cabin. Her voice was brisk and determined. “We’ll need new ticks. I’ll not have those things in the house tonight.”
Amy straightened the benches and asked, “Where do we get water?”
“I doubt out of Cherry Creek; looks pretty muddy to me. I’ll go ask.” Eli dumped another load and headed for the door.
“Do more’n ask, sir,” Aunt Maude said scooping up the water pails and following him. “I saw the likes of the fellows lining the rail down there. I’ll not be giving them the least chance to have a thought about our Amy.” She pushed the buckets at him. “While we’re here, you get the water.”
Amy watched her father stride down the hill with the buckets swinging. “Aunt Maude, he’ll be talking until nightfall.”
“That’s just fine. It’ll give us a chance to be having our own little talk. Amy, this isn’t Lawrence, and I don’t want you to be forgetting it for a minute. Back home life was a mite smoother. Refined. There were schools and clean sheets on the lines, garden patches and good solid families.
“I’ve been watching since we started out on this journey. It’s like nothing else I’ve seen. Coarse, dirty men with foul mouths and all eyes. I’ve been around enough to know there’s no trusting that kind. You stay close to your father or me all the time. I heard that piano playing down there. At six in the afternoon, with music coming out of one of those places, there’s nothing good going on.”
“Aunt Maude. I know what you’re hinting. I know the men are rough. I’ve no intention of letting them lead me astray. So please don’t worry.”
“I do worry.” Her eyes brooded over every detail of Amy’s face. “You’re such an innocent, you wouldn’t know a big bad wolf ’til he bit you.”
Amy returned to sorting and folding the jumble of clothing on the table. “What I want isn’t anything like what you are thinking. I want—” She caught sight of the dimming grandeur of the mountains. “Beauty. I want to reach out and capture beauty, something I can keep all for myself.”
“Beauty? What’s beauty?” Aunt Maude was looking around the cabin in the most suspicious manner.
“I don’t know.” Amy pressed her hand against her throat. “I only know the wanting hurts right here. I intend to find out.”
“But what makes you think it’s good?” For a moment they stood looking at each other. Aunt Maude’s eyes were curious and strangely timid.
That expression held Amy. “It’ll be good. If it’s beauty, it’ll be good. Look at the mountains.”