Saturday, October 12 2013
As I leave Paul´s apartment, I find myself feeling guilty, which is unusual. I like to flirt. I like sex, I accept that. It´s the first time I´ve been unfaithful to Matthew; but he has been unfaithful too. I feel enraged just thinking about him in bed with Joana. Who else could he be with?
But Paul is the detective in charge of the murder case, and I realize that it might not have been a good idea to get drunk and have sex with him.
From the look on his face, it seems he couldn´t remember a thing... what a shame, considering it´s been one of the best lays in my life. My God! I can´t believe I´m thinking this way.
I open the door to my apartment, scrutinizing every corner, just in case Matthew has been here. There is no trace. Not even a note or message in the answering machine. Once again, I sniff the air, the scent is too familiar. As if a woman wearing a different perfume from the one I use had been there.
I run to the closet in the bedroom to check if Matthew has been by to pick up some things. Everything is just as I left it. Everything is just as he left it before taking off. Where the hell is he?
I call his cell phone, but it´s either out of range or turned off.
I need to see him. I want to hug him and have things go back to what they were. I cry until my tears run out and look at the clock. It´s noon and there is a voice message on my cell phone.
«Hey sweetie, how are you? Do you know anything about Matthew? We know he´s really busy and hates talking on the phone, but it´s been over a month since he gave any signs of life. I look forward to you call, honey. Big kiss! »
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It´s Matthew´s mom and I totally break down when I hear her voice. She knows her son doesn´t like to talk on the phone, that´s why she usually communicates via e-mail. Quick, comfortable and efficient; those were Matthew´s words.
I don´t feel I have the strength to talk to her. I didn´t know it had been a whole month since Matthew hadn´t been in touch with his parents. I begin to worry. Could something have happened to him? What if he had serious trouble he didn´t want to share with me