Sometimes you have the sense that you are coming from the place of the Self—this place has always guided you and you have followed this voice. But it turns out to not be the Self actually. It’s your version of the Self. The mind’s version. Often this is where other people back off and leave you alone because you say that you’re following your God...but something is smelly. You are taking a kind of comfort from that space which you think of as your pilot, the space you interpret as what keeps you sane. But you have not been checking-in that sometimes it is the mind itself which imitates the beingness. The ego ‘I’ can slip behind the seer and say, ‘Look, there is only emptiness.’ And it’s very subtle, but when you catch him, there is such liberation. Then you are truly confirmed in your beingness.

Sometimes we hold back; something wants to defend a certain thing that looks like it is a spiritual truth, but it is just something you are attached to. It can even just be habit. And you have told yourself that this is your guiding light, but it can become an excuse that actually stops you from going beyond. It’s like your own bodyguard—but it’s not working for the Self. Something is still stopping you from throwing yourself completely in the fire. There is still some holding back.

The ego has many different uniforms. Hesitation is one of its greatest moves—holding back like, ‘I’ve seen this before, done this before. I know what this is all about.’ But you have not taken the darshan of real seeing yet. This hiding out protects a kind of individuality that seems to safeguard your own unique blend of spirituality. But you have to throw that in. Burn the whole lot down. Burn down this house. Burn it down to DNA, and then put the DNA in the fire also!