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ERIC
I’ve never gone to bed at 10pm before completely sober.
But looking down at Alexa, sleeping peacefully with her body entwined around mine, I wouldn’t want to be anywhere else.
Her soft, regular breathing is soothing as I feel her rib cage expand and contract underneath the arm I have wrapped around her to keep her close, her light breaths grazing softly over my skin.
I try to push away the feeling that I’m falling for her...
But when it comes to tempering my feelings for Alexa, I fail.
It was disconcerting to contemplate because I never before wanted anyone like Alexa in my life. Feeling this way was entirely new to me, and while it was terrifying, I also knew that being away from her wasn’t an option.
It was also disconcerting because I still wasn’t sure of everything going on in her life. She has still kept a part of her life from me and I sense deep down that Alexa was still learning to trust me.
I finally understand her, and I now know that her trust doesn’t come easily.
Finding out about Jenny had been a shock but I understand now why she kept her a secret from me. She knew I never wanted kids myself, and that Jenny would be a tough pill for me to swallow and she knew I’d run away. By running, I’d proven to her that I was the man she suspected I was all along.
But I’d been unable to stay away.
Convincing Alexa to take me back, accepting her stated demands that I was to wait for her to come to me, had been impossible for me to stick to. With every passing day, I found myself wanting more of her.
More from her than an occasional night of the hottest sex of my life.
It’s why I’d come back here tonight.
I had felt the need to be with Alexa, to just be able to see her, touch her...hold her.
To try to penetrate through the wall she kept between me and all of her deepest, darkest fears and secrets. I sensed, like me, she had many.
Arriving to find her so clearly exhausted had at first alarmed me but then something inside of me took over as I responded to her needs.
Not mine.
That was a first for me as well.
Making her feel better by just simply massaging her tired and aching muscles, hearing her sigh in contentment had been more than enough for me. Hearing those soft sighs turn to deep and even breaths as she slipped into a deep sleep had been so very rewarding.
When I’d gently rolled her onto her side, had then laid down next to her to pull her back into me, to feel her snuggling her body into mine, her head coming to rest on my chest as one arm wrapped tight around my torso, had caused my heart to beat in triple time. Not because I was aroused...
But because I was able to bring her such simple joy tonight just by my touch.
It was a potent feeling.
Wrapping my free arm around her, I gently squeeze her tightly and place a kiss on the top of her head.
Relaxing my head back onto her pillow, I listen to her even breaths.
I know if I allow myself to get further involved, I’m taking on Jenny too.
But it very strangely, no longer seems so scary.
It’s not like Jenny was a terror or anything. No, if anything, she was becoming as potent as her mother.
My mind slips back to the day when I came back, of how Jenny had so easily slipped her hand into mine.
I feel myself grin sleepily.
Yeah, I’m sure I could do this, - is my last thought before I drift off, never feeling so content and wanted in my life.
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I’m awakened some time in the early morning by the feeling of Alexa’s soft lips pressed to my neck, her heart beat against my chest.
Opening my eyes, loving this feeling of being awakened slowly like this, I stare up at the ceiling as I accept that this feels like I’m falling in love.
Her lips move from my neck as she lifts her head to stare into my eyes.
Lifting my hand to softly glide over her hair, I silently beg Alexa, - Kiss me...like you love me too.
I see something change in her eyes as she seems to understand what I’m silently begging her to do.
Slowly, she lowers her lips to mine and my hands tighten in her hair as I cling to her, trying not to be terrified about all of these newly found feelings.
I groan into her mouth as I feel her breasts swelling against my chest.
Unable to stop myself, an overwhelming need to possess her, make her mine and mine only, I break our kiss. Remembering how she looked crawling onto the bed last night with just her underwear on, I know exactly how I want to take her – make love to her.
Moving my body to flip us so that she is now underneath me, staring up at me, showing me that she wants me as much as I want her, I prop myself up on my arms as I place a kiss to her neck, followed by a soft bite, before doing the same to her jawline. Reaching down, I slip my hand into her underwear and find her wet and ready.
Unable to wait any longer, I withdraw my hand before I kneel, her legs between mine as I grasp her waist and quickly flip her over. Grasping her tiny waist, I prompt her to come up onto all fours. Lust snakes heavily through my body, through my brain, as I look at her arching her back, silently begging for me to take her as she flips her hair over her shoulder, her eyes looking back at me, her expression clearly showing how much she wants me.
Roughly, I pull her underwear down and off. Wanting her to be wide and ready, I use one knee to prompt her to open herself for me. As she once again does as I command, I feel like I’m watching a porn movie as my cock jumps, anxious.
All I can think about is sinking myself so deep inside of her...
That she would never know where I ended.
And she began.
Leaning over her, my cock grazing her entrance, I whisper an admission into her ear, “You’re the only woman who has ever made me feel this way. I want to possess you, keep you only for myself.”
I hear her shocked inhale of breath, feel it beneath my hands and I straighten and wrap both of my hands around her tiny waist as I plunge forward.
My hands tighten further around her waist as I hear her exhale, feel her completely stretch - so tight and warm - around my heavily pulsating cock. I watch as her hands tighten in the bed clothes, loving that I can make her feel such intense pleasure as her head falls forward to hang between her outstretched arms.
Pulling out, I watch as her back now moves into a concave, and I absorb how all her movements feel underneath my hands, as she tries to push herself back onto my cock.
But I hold her waist firmly and she’s unable to move.
Knowing what she wants, I thrust my hips, pushing back into her as my eyes now go down to watch as the globes of her ass jiggle from my quick thrust.
Lust penetrates every cell of my body as I look at her, so small, delicate, and strong, with my large hands completely enveloping her tiny waist, as she easily accepts – begs – for every inch of me.
Unable to hold back any further, I tighten my hands further as I continue to watch her ass jiggle for a few more thrusts and then I’m throwing my head back as I lose all control. Using my hands to pull her back, while pushing my hips forward, the slapping of our bodies only adding to the eroticism of the moment, I close my eyes as I concentrate on one feeling only...
This beautiful woman squeezing me tight inside of her, inviting me to lose myself in her.
Just simply wanting me.
I begin spurting, my breath catching as I feel her response shimmer uncontrollably through her body at the same time, my jaw clenching as I push forward one more time, the sensation in my cock overtaking any other thought.
Falling forward onto my hands, my body easily arching over hers, breathless, I whisper, “I’m never letting you go.”
I feel her core react first, squeezing tight around my cock, before I hear her inhaled, shocked breath. I push my hips forward, reiterating my feelings with my body.
But her next reaction isn’t one that I was expecting as she quickly disconnects from me, my cock still yearning to be inside of her, now shocked to be so suddenly disconnected from the heat of her body. Before I have time to react, to comprehend what’s going on, Alexa scoots out from underneath me from where I’m still on all fours, arched over her.
Surprised, I automatically reach out for her, grasping her arm just as she’s about to bolt from the bed.
Her eyes come to me and I see panic there.
“Let me go,” she says heatedly and with a warning in her voice, trying and failing to escape my grasp.
Completely blindsided by her reaction, I whisper, “Alexa...” as a plea.
I see her body shudder and I know it’s an involuntary response, so this time when she tugs once again for me to release her arm, I reluctantly let her go.
I watch, feeling helpless, as she quickly begins pulling her discarded clothes from last night on.
“What did I do?” I ask on a whisper.
She shakes her head, her blond hair falling all around her, hiding her face from me as she whispers, “Nothing. It’s just time for you to go.”
Now it’s my turn to reel as my brain fumbles for some sort of explanation as to why I’m being kicked out.
Suddenly, a horrifying feeling washes over me.
“Alexa...” I begin.
“It’s nothing, Eric. Can you please just go now?” I hear her whisper and I realize she’s crying.
Feeling desperate, not wanting to leave, now knowing for certain that I never want to leave her, I whisper, “Please Alexa...”
I watch helplessly, so god damn scared, as her shoulders shudder but then her hands come up to push her hair back away from her face before she brings it up into a pony tail.
Then holding her chin high, she turns to me and for the first time, I see Alexa as a woman who’s been broken...
Completely terrified.
“Eric, I can’t do this,” she says, forcing a note of firmness in her tone even as a tear escapes down her cheek.
I don’t say anything, but I don’t make a move to leave either.
Because I’m not going anywhere.
Not after what I just experienced with her.
So, I just wait for her to realize that I’m here and I’m not moving.
That it’s me, and that I’ll never leave her.
I watch as frustration now replaces the broken and terrified expressions and I’m thankful.
Frustration I could deal with.
Seeing her broken had left me feeling helpless.
Seeing her terrified of me had shattered me. I never wanted her to be afraid of me.
Slowly, I extend my hand to her and then I just wait patiently.