The sun sank slowly behind the mountains, and the shadows began to stretch long across the valley. As they reached towards the darker horizon, they seemed to carry with them a kind of music. It was a strange tune—or would have sounded so to most folks, low and deep on the edge of human hearing, undoubtedly wild. Chaotic, it would have seemed, to those who could hear all the notes. Impossible to predict, with few repeating motifs, yet somehow harmonious and evoking of a deep sense of rightness, like after rubbing the smudges from glass and seeing an image in focus for the first time. The song crept through the trees on the lower slopes of the mountains, as if it knew it had wandered too far.
It had come along the wide river, drifted through the trees, and flowed down, down from a mountain peak. It had started, hours ago, in a pan-flute. Not a small dainty flute of shined-silver as a glittering musician might play for a queen, nor a rough bound flute of reeds, as a satyr might hold in a Greek sculpture. No, the flute that played these great notes was a great flute, a very large flute, as wide across as three men are tall, twice as long, and several layers deep. The pipes were made from tree-trunks, carefully hollowed, and bound with a darker, harder leather than any merchant could trade for down in the valley. The beast the leather came from was not one men hunted often.
Bihotzengoizargi played the flute.
Bihotz was a giant, of the line of Goizargena, and she loved few things as well as she loved to play.
Bihotz had loved another giant many years before, Itxaro, and had thought to turn mate and make a new clan, but Itxaro had died dragon-wounded before any bonds became solid. When it happened, Bihotz could not even go to her own clan-mother for consoling. Her mother had been killed the season before, as she fished in the great water, by humans with spears and swords. Bihotz had no grandparents. All had died of illness or misfortune farther back than Bihotz could well remember. With the death of the Goizargijuan, and no mated pair to step in, the clan had slowly scattered to their own mountains, and for a time it had been just her and her father Sendoa. But a decade past, Sendoa had become tired. He had become so tired, so weary of a world gone orderly and known, a world losing all it’s magic, that one day he had finally given up, laid down, and slept stone-sleep, becoming part of the mountain.
There were no other giants left to hear Bihotz play.
Bihotz played anyway.
In the mornings, Bihotz often played a lively tune, with unexpected adagio sections and sudden runs of trills, falling off and picking up, gaining speed before crescendoing into her favorite major chords. She had many times been rewarded with laughter from stone, or heard an old friend’s tune. And for a day, a morning, a song, it was good.
Bihotz paused to listen, but the evening was quiet. It had been many seasons since she had played and received an answer.
She put her flute to her great mouth.
Alas for the world, her song seemed to say. Minor keys softly played, alas for me. Alas that I should have no accompaniment, that none can play my music, nor want to learn. Alas that my song soars not to the sky and sinks not to the ground and is too wild for the living things in between. Alas that all is tamed but me, and I sing solo.
Bihotz loved to play, but she too was getting tired. As the pinks and oranges of the dying sun muted to purple and black, Bihotz thought of sleep. The moon was at its fullness, and there was plenty of light to play by (though she could play just as well without sight at all), but the day had been long. All days lately seemed long, though fall was well headed for winter.
Bihotz knew she was almost ready to lay down her flute, once and for all, and seek her own stone-sleep. Even melodies as full and adventuresome as hers could lack for harmony. And there was none left, not in the whole of the world that she could hear.
Alas for night, her song seemed to say, for ending and sleep. For the longest sleep with no waking until the seas rise and the mountains burn and the world begins anew. Alas to be here, alas for one more note, for one more breath—
And a far-distant howl cut the night.
Bihotz was startled into silence for a moment, certain that she had imagined the voice. She knew of no packs denning close enough to be heard, so perhaps a solitary creature …. But why would such a one call to her?
She resumed her song, and soon the wolf joined in again. The lupine voice was as wild as could be wished, effortlessly rising and falling in pitch, with beautiful sustained notes, filling holes in her own song, and creating artful pauses as the singer presumably drew breath. Bihotz would have been filled with joy except …
Except.
The single wolf howling from a distant hill was just that. Just one. And the wolf’s song was as desolate and lonely and heartsick as her own.
Perhaps more.
But now Bihotz could not sleep. She could not bring herself to be the first to lay her instrument down. She could not abandon another like that. She could not let another musician carry on alone until the silence cut them off.
She suddenly found she had more energy than she had thought. Perhaps the day had not been so long after all.
She tucked her great feet underneath her body and pushed, levering herself up and up, until she was tall enough to break the profile of the mountain.
As she began her descent, heading towards her new partner, she continued to play. Her song was still arrhythmic, still in minor keys full of accidentals, and still so very mournful … but it was suddenly fuller, somehow, and no longer trailing off.
Oh, it seemed to say, alas for all poor creatures. How unhappy are we who are alone. But here, sad creature, for this night, let us share our woe.
As she drew closer, she became more certain from which peak the wolf howled. She found herself breaking into a run, causing trees and boulders to tremble with the thunder, yet her breath came no harder for the pace. She was a giant. Her strength was great, and her stamina was unparalleled. Her breathing did not falter and neither did her song.
Oh please, it seemed to cry, let us mourn together. Let our songs mingle and our hearts weep. Let us grieve all the lost and lonely together. Let us sing together—
The moon was high by the time Bihotz found the wolf, and so she had no difficulty seeing the trouble. She slowed as she approached, though she knew he would not run. If her eyes could not have told her, her nose would have.
The dire wolf (for that was what he was, immense and black, and with a voice to match) lay on a ledge, under an overhang. It was a smallish space, certainly smaller than a creature of his size might normally seek out, but if the blood still slowly dripping down the rock face didn’t tell the story, then the scorch marks and ash stretching for feet and feet in every direction did.
The wolf had been pursued by a dragon, and being smart enough to avoid being pinned in burning tree line, had sought less flammable shelter.
But dire wolves were hardy creatures, many able to heal extremely rapidly from the most grievous of injuries. That this one was alive and not healing was a curious situation.
And then the wind shifted, and Bihotz could smell death.
The wolf must not have run very far. Bihotz could pick up the scent of the dragon’s other victims near enough down the other side of the peak, though no active scent of a dragon. And there was another such scent, much closer at hand …
Bihotz finally drew close enough that she hardly needed to exhale to make her song heard. And the wolf, too, sang quiet from where it curled around the last pup.
There were many, the wolf seemed to sing, and then just us. We ran so fast we thought we could almost fly, but we could not. And we hid and listened, and the enemy listened too, and we could not come down.
I have failed, the wolf seemed to sing, I am not my mate. She is good at food and warm. She is good at life. I am built for hunting and defending and killing. I have failed. I could not feed my young, and I could not defend my den, and I could not kill the enemy.
I am done, the wolf sang, I am tired. I am alone, and I bleed, and I go soon to the place my mate and young went. I go to earth and sky. I sleep.
Bihotz blew a staccato burst of sharp denial.
Do not, she pleaded, do not yet. You yet breathe, and you sing!
I sing death-song, the wolf crooned, low and quiet, I sing last-song.
Please, Bihotz played, a note so sweet it was sticky and grasping. Please. Tonight you are not alone. Tonight we are a duet!
The wolf tilted his great head on his great paws and looked at the tiny bundle by his side. It was still.
You are not pack. You are not wolf, he whined, no others and now none ever. Enemy takes all.
He laid his head back down. None to mate, none to feed, none to protect. Enemy takes all. No pack to sing with. Soon no song.
The blood continued to drip.
Bihotz sat down on an outcropping, keeping her head near the tiny alcove.
Alas for no pack, she played, alas for no clan. Alas to be the only ones left. A curse on dragons and mate-takers. Alas for us. Alas for the last, weakest, and fading.
The silence stretched for a moment, but Bihotz could not let it take.
I sang of sleep tonight, and I sang of stone-sleep too. When you sang, I was not tired. When you sang, I was not alone.
The dire wolf’s reply came almost hesitantly.
You were not alone. I sing with you. I don’t sleep alone. That is good.
That is not good enough! Bihotz cut in. Why must you sleep at all?
Enemy has taken—
Dragon has not taken you! Why do you give yourself to him? Has not he taken his share?
The wolf was silent for a long moment, and then his soft howl rose interrogative.
Enemy took your mate? And you were not there?
Bihotz pulled up the hem of her tunic to display the wide scars that started under her arm and traveled down, across ribs and belly, and ended at contrary hip.
Dragon wanted me, too. She played, dropping her hem. I would not go then. I was not ready. I had many songs still to play, even if the chords were simpler.
The wolf whined again, no meaning to it but misery. The night was quiet a moment, but he would not let the silence take either.
You are strong to fight enemy. You are strong to be here.
The notes from her flute were bitter laughter. I am a giant. We are strong. We are like rock.
I was strong too, the wolf argued, but not strong enough. Could not defend. What you defend? Enemy will take you next time.
Maybe, Bihotz agreed, or maybe I will sleep stone-sleep. Or maybe I will find a spear in my belly. Or maybe many things. But none of those are tonight. I will play tonight, and in the morning, and maybe the next night too. And maybe all winter until it is spring.
This time Bihotz let the silence take. She could hear, faintly, a rustling down below in the foliage. She could hear the stream running wide and smooth at the bottom of the valley. The occasional hoot or squeak of the night going about its business kept the silence from consuming.
Gradually, she realized the dripping had stopped. She turned her head, and the dire wolf met her gaze.
I bleed no more, he sang, but have little blood. I may still sleep.
You will not, Bihotz informed him, before sliding off her outcropping and laying down her flute.
She tore a strip from her tunic as she went down to the stream. She soaked the strip and draped it over her arm before filling her cupped hands with water. She offered the water to the wolf, who was soon quenched, and she washed blood from his pelt and bound his wounds with more strips from her tunic. She brought him more water and then offered him some of the dried bear meat she carried. While he replenished himself, she took the sad little bundle from his side and laid it further back in the alcove.
By the time all was finished, and the wolf once more resting, the moon sat low against the mountains.
My mate and pack feed scavengers tomorrow, but I don’t sleep yet. Still I am strong.
Bihotz played an answering note.
My father is stone, but I still have strength. I still sing.
I sing too, the wolf agreed, and in harmony, they watched an unexpected dawn break.