i woke up Saturday night

because the light coming through

my bedroom window changed.

on the hill across the valley

i saw

a flame

rising.

but it was

no wild fire. it

was a

cross,

burning.

silently,

silently,

i crept down the hall,

into the closet

where,

at the back,

mamma’s cotton dress

still dangled over her shoes,

and the walls smelled of hair oil and oranges.

in that dark and narrow place,

i opened a hole for myself

but no matter how i turned,

the light from the cross

curled its bright claws under the door.