Suicide-soldier

Carp-eyed Selvi,

you are about to cast aside your own clothes

and lock them away, as if they are your body.

The mirror sets to right your nakedness

which you wear as your dress. You proceed

to assemble your uniform; your weapons

and suicide belt become your body now.

Only fifteen minutes left

on life’s crawling palanquin.

The leaders command

made your heart a bomb

caught, swinging, in the web

held between his two hands.

You enter the wedding hall.

They are all changing places,

restless.

Into the last quarter-minute in the map

of each person’s life there, you step.

Holding your breath, you scream.

Before you yourself are aware, the shock

of that blast photographs your blue face

for a blinding minute. Then, roaring,

your body bursts apart, Selvi.

Thirty people were sacrificed,

it was reported.