1 The Tavern:

Whoever Brought Me Here Will Have to Take Me Home

ON THE TAVERN

In the tavern are many wines—the wine of delight in color and form and taste, the wine of the intellect’s agility, the fine port of stories, and the cabernet of soul singing. Being human means entering this place where entrancing varieties of desire are served. The grapeskin of ego breaks and a pouring begins. Fermentation is one of the oldest symbols for human transformation. When grapes combine their juice and are closed up together for a time in a dark place, the results are spectacular. This is what lets two drunks meet so that they don’t know who is who. Pronouns no longer apply in the tavern’s mud-world of excited confusion and half-articulated wantings.

But after some time in the tavern, a point comes, a memory of elsewhere, a longing for the source, and the drunks must set off from the tavern and begin the return. The Qur’an says, “We are all returning.” The tavern is a kind of glorious hell that human beings enjoy and suffer and then push off from in their search for truth. The tavern is a dangerous region where sometimes disguises are necessary, but never hide your heart, Rumi urges. Keep open there. A breaking apart, a crying out into the street, begins in the tavern, and the human soul turns to find its way home.

It’s 4 A.M. Nasruddin leaves the tavern and walks the town aimlessly. A policeman stops him. “Why are you out wandering the streets in the middle of the night?” “Sir,” replies Nasruddin, “if I knew the answer to that question, I would have been home hours ago!”

WHO SAYS WORDS WITH MY MOUTH?

All day I think about it, then at night I say it.

Where did I come from, and what am I supposed to be doing?

I have no idea.

My soul is from elsewhere, I’m sure of that,

and I intend to end up there.

This drunkenness began in some other tavern.

When I get back around to that place,

I’ll be completely sober. Meanwhile,

I’m like a bird from another continent, sitting in this aviary.

The day is coming when I fly off,

but who is it now in my ear who hears my voice?

Who says words with my mouth?

Who looks out with my eyes? What is the soul?

I cannot stop asking.

If I could taste one sip of an answer,

I could break out of this prison for drunks.

I didn’t come here of my own accord, and I can’t leave that way.

Whoever brought me here will have to take me home.

This poetry. I never know what I’m going to say.

I don’t plan it.

When I’m outside the saying of it,

I get very quiet and rarely speak at all.

We have a huge barrel of wine, but no cups.

That’s fine with us. Every morning

we glow and in the evening we glow again.

They say there’s no future for us.

They’re right. Which is fine with us.

A COMMUNITY OF THE SPIRIT

There is a community of the spirit.

Join it, and feel the delight

of walking in the noisy street,

and being the noise.

Drink all your passion,

and be a disgrace.

Close both eyes

to see with the other eye.

Open your hands,

if you want to be held.

Sit down in this circle.

Quit acting like a wolf, and feel

the shepherd’s love filling you.

At night, your beloved wanders.

Don’t accept consolations.

Close your mouth against food.

Taste the lover’s mouth in yours.

You moan, “She left me.” “He left me.”

Twenty more will come.

Be empty of worrying.

Think of who created thought!

Why do you stay in prison

when the door is so wide open?

Move outside the tangle of fear-thinking.

Live in silence.

Flow down and down in always

widening rings of being.

There’s a strange frenzy in my head,

of birds flying,

each particle circulating on its own.

Is the one I love everywhere?

Drunks fear the police,

but the police are drunk too.

People in this town love them both

like different chess pieces.

A CHILDREN’S GAME

Listen to the poet Sanai,

who lived secluded: “Don’t wander out on the road

in your ecstasy. Sleep in the tavern.”

When a drunk strays out to the street,

children make fun of him.

He falls down in the mud.

He takes any and every road.

The children follow,

not knowing the taste of wine, or how

his drunkenness feels. All people on the planet

are children, except for a very few.

No one is grown up except those free of desire.

God said,

“The world is a play, a children’s game,

and you are the children.”

God speaks the truth.

If you haven’t left the child’s play,

how can you be an adult?

Without purity of spirit,

if you’re still in the middle of lust and greed

and other wantings, you’re like children

playing at sexual intercourse.

They wrestle

and rub together, but it’s not sex!

The same with the fightings of mankind.

It’s a squabble with play-swords.

No purpose, totally futile.

Like kids on hobby horses, soldiers claim to be riding

Boraq, Muhammad’s night-horse, or Duldul, his mule.

Your actions mean nothing, the sex and war that you do.

You’re holding part of your pants and prancing around,

Dun-da-dun, dun-da-dun.

Don’t wait till you die to see this.

Recognize that your imagination and your thinking

and your sense perception are reed canes

that children cut and pretend are horsies.

The knowing of mystic lovers is different.

The empirical, sensory, sciences

are like a donkey loaded with books,

or like the makeup woman’s makeup.

It washes off.

But if you lift the baggage rightly, it will give joy.

Don’t carry your knowledge-load for some selfish reason.

Deny your desires and willfulness,

and a real mount may appear under you.

Don’t be satisfied with the name of HU,

with just words about it.

Experience that breathing.

From books and words come fantasy,

and sometimes, from fantasy comes union.

Gone, inner and outer,

no moon, no ground or sky.

Don’t hand me another glass of wine.

Pour it in my mouth.

I’ve lost the way to my mouth.

The wine we really drink is our own blood.

Our bodies ferment in these barrels.

We give everything for a glass of this.

We give our minds for a sip.

THE MANY WINES

God has given us a dark wine so potent that,

drinking it, we leave the two worlds.

God has put into the form of hashish a power

to deliver the taster from self-consciousness.

God has made sleep so

that it erases every thought.

God made Majnun love Layla so much that

just her dog would cause confusion in him.

There are thousands of wines

that can take over our minds.

Don’t think all ecstasies

are the same!

Jesus was lost in his love for God.

His donkey was drunk with barley.

Drink from the presence of saints,

not from those other jars.

Every object, every being,

is a jar full of delight.

Be a connoisseur,

and taste with caution.

Any wine will get you high.

Judge like a king, and choose the purest,

the ones unadulterated with fear,

or some urgency about “what’s needed.”

Drink the wine that moves you

as a camel moves when it’s been untied,

and is just ambling about.

SPECIAL PLATES

Notice how each particle moves.

Notice how everyone has just arrived here

from a journey.

Notice how each wants a different food.

Notice how the stars vanish as the sun comes up,

and how all streams stream toward the ocean.

Look at the chefs preparing special plates

for everyone, according to what they need.

Look at this cup that can hold the ocean.

Look at those who see the face.

Look through Shams’ eyes

into the water that is

entirely jewels.

BURNT KABOB

Last year, I admired wines. This,

I’m wandering inside the red world.

Last year, I gazed at the fire.

This year I’m burnt kabob.

Thirst drove me down to the water

where I drank the moon’s reflection.

Now I am a lion staring up totally

lost in love with the thing itself.

Don’t ask questions about longing.

Look in my face.

Soul drunk, body ruined, these two

sit helpless in a wrecked wagon.

Neither knows how to fix it.

And my heart, I’d say it was more

like a donkey sunk in a mudhole,

struggling and miring deeper.

But listen to me: for one moment,

quit being sad. Hear blessings

dropping their blossoms

around you. God.

THE NEW RULE

It’s the old rule that drunks have to argue

and get into fights.

The lover is just as bad. He falls into a hole.

But down in that hole he finds something shining,

worth more than any amount of money or power.

Last night the moon came dropping its clothes in the street.

I took it as a sign to start singing,

falling up into the bowl of sky.

The bowl breaks. Everywhere is falling everywhere.

Nothing else to do.

Here’s the new rule: break the wineglass,

and fall toward the glassblower’s breath.

This that is tormented and very tired,

tortured with restraints like a madman,

this heart.

Still you keep breaking the shell

to get the taste of its kernel!