24 Wished-For Song:
Secret Practices

ON SECRECY

The egg is Rumi’s image for the private place where each individual globe of soul fruit becomes elaborately unique. Incubation in secret practices produces the lovely differences. Out of one leathery egg, a sparrow, out of a similar one, a snake. Transformations that happen on retreat, the forty-day chilla, are comparable to the changes that come during nine months in a human womb. Meditation, or any solitary practice (a walk before dawn, a poem every morning, sitting on the roof at sunset), gives depth and expands the soul’s action.

A man in prison is sent a prayer rug by his friend. What he had wanted, of course, was a file or a crowbar or a key! But he began using the rug, doing five-times prayer before dawn, at noon, mid-afternoon, after sunset, and before sleep. Bowing, sitting up, bowing again, he notices an odd pattern in the weave of the rug, just at the qibla, the point, where his head touches. He studies and meditates on that pattern, gradually discovering that it is a diagram of the lock that confines him in his cell and how it works. He’s able to escape. Anything you do every day can open into the deepest spiritual place, which is freedom.

A WISHED-FOR SONG

You’re song,

a wished-for song.

Go through the ear to the center

where sky is, where wind,

where silent knowing.

Put seeds and cover them.

Blades will sprout

where you do your work.

A BASKET OF FRESH BREAD

The Prophet Muhammad said,

“There is no better companion

on this way than what you do. Your actions will be

your best friend, or if you’re cruel and selfish,

your actions will be a poisonous snake

that lives in your grave.”

But tell me,

can you do the good work without a teacher?

Can you even know what it is without the presence

of a Master? Notice how the lowest livelihood

requires some instruction.

First comes knowledge,

then the doing of the job. And much later,

perhaps after you’re dead, something grows

from what you’ve done.

Look for help and guidance

in whatever craft you’re learning. Look for a generous

teacher, one who has absorbed the tradition he’s in.

Look for pearls in oyster shells.

Learn technical skill from a craftsman.

Whenever you meet genuine spiritual teachers,

be gentle and polite and fair with them.

Ask them questions, and be eager

for answers. Never condescend.

If a master tanner wears an old, threadbare smock,

that doesn’t diminish his mastery.

If a fine blacksmith works at the bellows

in a patched apron, it doesn’t affect

how he bends the iron.

Strip away your pride,

and put on humble clothes.

If you want to learn theory,

talk with theoreticians. That way is oral.

When you learn a craft, practice it.

That learning comes through the hands.

If you want dervishhood, spiritual poverty,

and emptiness, you must be friends with a sheikh.

Talking about it, reading books, and doing practices

don’t help. Soul receives from soul that knowing.

The mystery of spiritual emptiness

may be living in a pilgrim’s heart, and yet

the knowing of it may not yet be his.

Wait for the illuminating openness,

as though your chest were filling with light,

as when God said,

Did We not expand you?

(Qur’an 94:1)

Don’t look for it outside yourself.

You are the source of milk. Don’t milk others!

There is a milk fountain inside you.

Don’t walk around with an empty bucket.

You have a channel into the ocean, and yet

you ask for water from a little pool.

Beg for that love expansion. Meditate only

on THAT. The Qur’an says,

And He is with you

(57:4).

There is a basket of fresh bread on your head,

and yet you go door to door asking for crusts.

Knock on your inner door. No other.

Sloshing knee-deep in fresh riverwater, yet

you keep wanting a drink from other people’s waterbags.

Water is everywhere around you, but you see only

barriers that keep you from water.

The horse is beneath the rider’s thighs, and still

he asks, “Where’s my horse?”

Right there, under you!

“Yes, this is a horse, but where’s the horse?”

Can’t you see!

“Yes, I can see, but whoever saw such a horse?”

Mad with thirst, he can’t drink from the stream

running so close by his face. He’s like a pearl

on the deep bottom, wondering, inside his shell,

Where’s the ocean?

His mental questionings

form the barrier. His physical eyesight

bandages his knowing. Self-consciousness

plugs his ears.

Stay bewildered in God,

and only that.

Those of you who are scattered,

simplify your worrying lives. There is one

righteousness: Water the fruit trees,

and don’t water the thorns. Be generous

to what nurtures the spirit and God’s luminous

reason-light. Don’t honor what causes

dysentery and knotted-up tumors.

Don’t feed both sides of yourself equally.

The spirit and the body carry different loads

and require different attentions.

Too often

we put saddlebags on Jesus and let the donkey

run loose in the pasture.

Don’t make the body do

what the spirit does best, and don’t put a big load

on the spirit that the body could carry easily.

WHEN WE PRAY ALONE

We are brought thick desserts, and we rarely refuse them.

We worship devoutly when we’re with others.

Hours we sit, though we get up quickly

after a few minutes, when we pray alone.

We hurry down the gullet of our wantings.

But these qualities can change,

as minerals in the ground rise inside trees

and become tree, as a plant faces an animal

and enters the animal, so a human

can put down the heavy

body baggage and

be light.

ONE WHO WRAPS HIMSELF

God called the Prophet Muhammad Muzzammil,

“The One Who Wraps Himself,”

and said,

“Come out from under your cloak, you so fond

of hiding and running away.

Don’t cover your face.

The world is a reeling, drunken body, and you

are its intelligent head.

Don’t hide the candle

of your clarity. Stand up and burn

through the night, my prince.

Without your light

a great lion is held captive by a rabbit!

Be the captain of the ship

Mustafa, my chosen one,

my expert guide.

Look how the caravan of civilization

has been ambushed.

Fools are everywhere in charge.

Do not practice solitude like Jesus. Be in

the assembly,

and take charge of it.

As the bearded griffin,

the Humay, lives on Mt. Qaf because he’s native to it,

so you should live most naturally out in public

and be a communal teacher of souls.”

DELIBERATION

A friend remarks to the Prophet, “Why is it

I get screwed in business deals?

It’s like a spell. I become distracted

by business talk and make wrong decisions.”

Muhammad replies, “Stipulate with every transaction

that you need three days to make sure.”

Deliberation is one of the qualities of God.

Throw a dog a bit of something.

He sniffs to see if he wants it.

Be that careful.

Sniff with your wisdom-nose.

Get clear. Then decide.

The universe came into being gradually

over six days. God could have just commanded,

Be!

Little by little a person reaches forty and fifty

and sixty, and feels more complete. God could have thrown

full-blown prophets flying through the cosmos in an instant.

Jesus said one word, and a dead man sat up,

but creation usually unfolds,

like calm breakers.

Constant, slow movement teaches us to keep working

like a small creek that stays clear,

that doesn’t stagnate, but finds a way

through numerous details, deliberately.

Deliberation is born of joy,

like a bird from an egg.

Birds don’t resemble eggs!

Think how different the hatching out is.

A white leathery snake egg, a sparrow’s egg;

a quince seed, an apple seed: very different things

look similar at one stage.

These leaves, our bodily personalities, seem identical,

but the globe of soul fruit

we make,

each is elaborately

unique.

THE PRIVATE BANQUET

Muhammad, in the presence of Gabriel,

“Friend,

let me see you as you really are. Let me look

as an interested observer looks at his interest.”

“You could not endure it. The sense of sight

is too weak to take in this reality.”

“But show yourself

anyway, that I can understand what may not be known

with the senses.”

The body senses are wavering and blurry,

but there is a clear fire inside,

a flame like Abraham,

that is Alpha and Omega. Human beings seem to be derived,

evolved, from this planet, but essentially,

humanity is the origin of the world.

Remember this!

A tiny gnat’s outward form flies around and around

in pain and wanting, while the gnat’s inward nature

includes the entire galactic whirling of the universe!

Muhammad persisted in his request,

and Gabriel revealed a single feather

that reached from the East to the West,

a glimpse that would have instantly crumbled

to powder a mountain range.

Muhammad stared, senseless.

Gabriel came and held him in his arms.

Awe serves

for strangers. This close-hugging love

is for friends.

Kings have formidable guards around them

with swords drawn, a public show of power

that keeps order and reduces arrogance and mischief

and other disasters.

But when the king comes

to the private banquet with his friends,

there’s harp music and the flute.

No kettledrums.

And no keeping accounts,

no judging behavior, no helmets, no armor.

Just silk and music and beautiful women bringing cups.

You know how it is, but who can say it!

Conclude this part, my friend,

and lead us the way we should go.

We are the night ocean filled

with glints of light. We are the space

between the fish and the moon,

while we sit here together.

Which is worth more, a crowd of thousands,

or your own genuine solitude?

Freedom, or power over an entire nation?

A little while alone in your room

will prove more valuable than anything else

that could ever be given you.