Contents

Part I: Impact

1 Sunday, 27 December 2009

2 The second-best blanket

3 Shavasana

4 The torture booties

5 The crazy lady in ward four

6 Frida and me

7 Tabloid tragedy

8 Permission to bend

Part II: Re-entry

9 Zombieland

10 The ‘born alive’ rule

11 Sun salute with bedpan

12 The posthumous godfather

13 Matryoshka

14 Histopathology

15 Proof

16 Scar tissue

17 Funeral appreciation

18 I have a dark-haired daughter

19 Dr No-Sperm-for-You

20 Heartbeat

21 Making the judge cry

22 Close up with hope

23 The charnel ground

24 Fat Tuesday

25 Undone

26 Tsunami

27 Earth and sun

Part III: Ripples

28 Both my babies

29 Zoe’s Law

30 Holding the torch

Acknowledgements

Notes