VUKOVAR’S GHOSTS
November 20, 1991
If you’re looking for ghosts,
just raise your eyes
towards the rusty top
of this water tower;
we’re all there, sitting
around invisible tables
of an abandoned restaurant
floating above the city
and the red dust
which shows, intermittently,
the bunch of Arkan’s tigers
with their all black stripes.
First, they came for our women—
we even knew some of them,
and screamed out their names
to tone deaf ears and feral eyes.
They took our daughters,
then mothers the same, making all watch,
over and over until they were tired,
blood from between so many legs
staining the pavements
in an unholy menstruation.
Among the living is a woman
who testifies how she asked her husband to leave,
but he would not go, though he knew
what had been done to her,
scarring her soul as it had her body,
emptying her of passion,
useless as our water tower.
In front of our mouths
there is a dish of grenades
with a side of back bacon,
gunpowder and fresh memories
just juiced from hundred of heads.
—so clear and exquisite—
You can join us,
we’re drinking bourbon
distilled from boiled blood
and we’re still waiting for the dessert,
tha armistice, the silence
and a fat sunset.
We are all twins, born at the same time
in the Ovčara farm
six miles away from here,
into shouting’s storage hangars,
thanks to a bullet in the head
rabid, rapid, cold as the mud
which is watertight in the ditches,
all round, where the frogs sing
the Death March,
giving the illusion of being in a dream,
perhaps in a forest in Madagascar,
—all those camouflage suits—
—and the choir of the amphibians—
and still be alive, definitely,
with a loaf of bread between the teeth
instead of a tongue frozen by fear.
Join us as we toast
the living and the dead
with our special bourbon,
floating high above the city
and the red, red dust.