b. 1961–2007
With all due respect, you staying alive for me
was a lousy reason to live. I kept only a bit:
the rubber fish, a few chicken feathers,
your lips hardly moving when you spoke.
Victims die, that’s their main verb.
Also: how to love a man. I kept that too.
Bright silhouette, you were lovely
as the landscape curved past our
understanding—it was there to crack us
open, across. A curve: any straight line
broken at every point. Doomable
dad, hour of the world! I understand now
why you stayed and why you left.
But I did love you here, hour of the world.
—from BOOKOFMARTYRS.docx by Cyrus Shams