The lady doth protest too much, methinks.
WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE
Hamlet (Act 3, Scene 2)
KATE
“Hello, my name is Kate Monrovi and I’m your student escort. Welcome to Gaitlin Academy—a school for tomorrow today.” I make myself smile, practicing this in my head, trying to decide if I should use it. Perhaps it will make him laugh and forget about last night’s conversation.
“Hello, student escort Kate Monrovi, at your service.” Every one of my practiced lines sounds cheesier than the last. I’m trying to get from cheese to cuteness, and it’s definitely not working.
I’m a little unsure if I should make it obvious that I’m waiting for him. But Ms. Liberty gave me the assignment of student escort, so I am seeing it through.
I try about five ways of doing my hair and finally just leave it down. We’re supposed to meet at the quad. It’s strange that when I was at school on Friday, I caught that glimpse of Caleb and now it feels like I know him and he knows me. We don’t . . . we can’t know each other, right?
The idea of Caleb at school doesn’t work in my head. Every time I’m with him, reality disappears. Everyone will be talking about Caleb soon. He’s the new guy that all the girls are waiting to see. The intrigue over him has only increased since Friday when Alicia took the blurred photo of him—was that really only last Friday? Now they’re talking about how he rescued Katherine and then disappeared. And as soon as he arrives, it’ll all begin.
I sit casually in the quad, act like I’m looking for something in my book bag. I say hello but don’t follow my friends toward class. “I’ll be right there,” I say.
Oliver walks by with a shake of his head. He knows exactly what I’m up to. Jessica is hanging by my side, gushing about how amazing the prom was, when I hear the arrival of a motorcycle. Again I’m surprised at the reaction of my body—heart racing—and I can’t concentrate on Jessica at all. It’s a good thing Monica isn’t here yet.
Gaitlin Academy is a small, private preparatory day school for kids from the Pacific Northwest. We are the children of politicians and the ultrarich. It’s said that Bill and Melinda Gates have considered GA for their children. Most of our alumni head off to Ivy League schools or some (those with former hippie grandparents or parents) may end up at UC Berkeley or University of Oregon in Eugene.
We are less formal than prep schools on the East Coast; New York parents think that out West we lack tradition and structure, and their children think we live in the backwoods. On the West Coast, Gaitlin Academy is considered elitist, academically excellent, with a tuition that often exceeds the average local income. Local high schoolers mostly revile us as wealthy snobs. News stories have blasted Gaitlin as discriminatory at times, to which the school responds with its record of scholarships and minority students. Since my father was elected to the school board, I’ve heard more than I’d care to hear about my school.
Ted spots me and starts walking like he’s the coolest guy on the planet. Sometimes I envision Ted plotting and practicing in the mirror every look and movement that he makes. He’s too smooth—like an actor playing a part. I don’t think anyone has seen the real Ted. Now he’s chatting with several underclass girls as he works his way over.
I set my purse on the bench and dig through it like I’m searching for something again. When I do a quick glance to see where he is, Ted smiles and raises his chin in a hello. Mr. Ego probably believes I’m playing hard to get.
“Hey, Kate,” Ted says, leaving the two freshman girls to wander off with disappointed expressions.
“Hey, Ted.”
“I’ll walk with you. I wanted to ask you anyway if—”
“Oh, sorry, can’t,” I interrupt, not wanting him to ask me anything. “I’ve been given a special mission by Ms. Liberty.”
“Special, not secret? No instructions exploding in thirty seconds?”
“Nope. I’ll catch you later.”
“Sure. No problem.” He nods his head like he’s some rapper or something. “I’ll see you at lunch.”
I give a quick nod, hoping that will get rid of him quickly. Ted studies me for a moment then turns away.
Caleb comes up the walkway, helmet in one hand, backpack on his shoulder. I try not to smile at him in his Gaitlin uniform with his striped tie, button-up shirt, blue sports jacket, and slacks. Somehow he still manages to pull off looking casual. He walks in his easy-going way that reminds me of someone who has lived most of his life on a beach—which, of course, he has, unlike, say, Ted, who tries hard to emulate such a walk. Caleb’s got a relaxed, unhurried way about him that I guess many people from the islands exhibit.
Ted has disappeared into the crowd of students. Caleb sees me, and our eyes hold each other as he moves toward me.
“Morning?” Caleb says, like it’s a question.
“Hi.” I stare at him a moment, coming to terms with Caleb and Gaitlin Academy. It’s like water and oil, but there it is.
People turn as they pass us by. I feel heads turning our way across the quad. This isn’t the most inconspicuous place to meet.
“I thought I might be on my own today,” he says with not one hint of a smile.
“You should be, after what you said yesterday.”
He looks at the ground with a smirk on his face and then up to me. I’m lost in those ridiculously deep brown eyes of his.
“I apologize,” he says and seems to mean it.
I don’t know what to say and find myself muttering a simple, “K.”
We have an awkward moment, or rather I’m awkward while he continues to watch me, raising an eyebrow like I’m interesting to study.
“So you have your class schedule?”
“Right here.” He taps his forehead. “First period, Calculus in room 205.”
“You’re in Calculus?”
“That’s what the paper said.”
I wouldn’t have guessed that. I’m still in pre-calc, but I don’t mention it.
Caleb recites the rest of his schedule, including room numbers. Walking by us, Alicia says hello to Caleb as she passes then smiles at me. Caleb’s eyes follow her with a frown on his face.
“I think that girl took a picture of me when I was enrolling.”
“Very likely,” I say. “We have social studies together fourth period. Mr. Beemer—it’s one of the more interesting classes.”
“Great. Will you sit by me?” he asks, and I almost say yes before catching on that he’s teasing me.
“Do you have a map of the campus?”
“I thought that’s what you’re for?” He’s in quite a humorous mood. Then he shrugs. “I’m pretty good with directions.”
“Isn’t that what all men say?” I bite my lip, trying to get over my discomfort. Why is Caleb so at ease while my hands are shaky?
He smiles. “Not to brag, but I’m exceptional with directions.”
The clock chimes in the tower. School starts at 8:05 AM.
“Not to brag, huh? How can you be so sure? You lived on an island—every direction eventually ends at the ocean, right?”
“I was lost in the mountains when I was seven. And when I was twelve, a friend and I were lost between Maui and Oahu on a little homemade sailboat we made. I navigated my way out of both.”
As I get to know Caleb, he becomes more intriguing instead of less. “Okay, so you don’t need a map, then. But here is your first class. We don’t have the same lunch, so I won’t see you except in fourth period. You have my cell number?”
“Yes,” he says and whips out his dinosaur of a cell phone.
“Is that an antique?” I hope he doesn’t flash that around in front of other people. A protective instinct rises in me. People here can be vicious behind their perfect, bleached-white smiles. This isn’t the right place for him, and I fear what the mob might do to him, despite how he appears to be able to handle anything.
“Classic 2006 Nokia,” he says with a laugh. “This phone has survived falling off my motorcycle, being lost at the beach, and many other adventures. Everyone ridicules it, but an iPhone would’ve never survived. I’ll keep this till it dies.”
“I doubt you’ll need to wait long.”
“Funny. You wait and see.”
Glancing around, I realize I’ve again forgotten everything outside of us. Talking to Caleb is like being bubbled in our own private world.
After we say good-bye, I watch the door long after he disappears into class—until I realize I’m late. I nearly run toward my New Media class, which isn’t easy in a skirt. It’s not easy to read texts with my phone bouncing in my hand, either. The in-box is full.
MONICA SAYS: That didn’t look like any student escort I’ve seen before. Remember once a cabana boy always a cabana boy.
OLIVER: Whatever Monica just texted u, ignore and have fun. KERI: Hello! Introduce him to the rest of us?
MICHELLE: Boy hog!
TED: Just heard about ur “special mission.” After school, coffee?
ALICIA: I saw him first! J
Sometimes I really hate school.
CALEB
Only two months until school is out for the summer. I can do that, I can do that here. I keep telling myself this as I go through my first classes. The advanced courses are nothing new or overly challenging. The most challenging part of school is concentrating. The walled-in rooms, the closed windows and doors suffocate me. Some classes in Hawaii were held outside or in classrooms that didn’t have walls. The rooms and this monkey suit box me in, tighten around me, make it hard for me to breathe.
The Advanced English teacher sends me to the library to check out the class reading list. I want to kiss Ms. Landreth for letting me out, and I breathe the cool, wet air as if my life depends on it.
I pass students at first lunch, eating outside on benches or inside the glass-walled cafeteria. I have second lunch, but my stomach growls at the scent of pizza and turkey burgers. What I wouldn’t give for my surfboard, the North Shore, and my favorite plate lunch in a Styrofoam box.
It’s now common for eyes to turn toward me, hands to reach for cell phones, people to lean toward each other to comment. A few people have been friendly, but most Gaitlin Academy students just like to stare at the new guy.
I spot Kate sitting at a table, reading a book and breaking off pieces from a giant cookie. She has a forlorn expression that weighs her face and eyes downward.
“Hey,” I say, taking a few steps out of my course. I ignore the other people at her table, except for the guy across from her. I’ve seen this guy before, and my usual instinct for spotting danger has identified this one as a potential nuisance. Dad reminded me that I can’t fight here.
“Hi,” she says, brightening. Then she glances around, her movements showing her discomfort. “How is class going?”
I’m not expecting anything from her. Seemed the right thing to do was to come over and say hello. With the stares and awkwardness at the table, I’m regretting that. I should have kept walking.
“Fine. On my way to the library.”
She hops up fast, hitting her knee on the table. “I’ll show you where it is.”
“Aloha,” a red-headed girl at the table says with a wide smile. “Aloha?”
The girl leans forward and there’s a straight shot down her shirt. I look at Kate, who frowns at the girl.
“Do you really use the word aloha in Hawaii? It’s not just for the tourists?”
I nod and try to keep a condescending tone from creeping in. “Yes, we actually do.”
“Kate, you haven’t introduced us.” It’s the nuisance, of course.
“I’m Caleb,” I say, reaching my hand across the table. He perks up further, and he shakes with a firm grip that I increase as we stare into each other’s eyes. The girls around us are oblivious to the sizing up and challenges interplaying between us. He’s not a wimp, but he’s weaker than he wants to admit, even to himself.
“Ted Brackinton.”
I guess he thinks his name should mean something to me, but I nod as if he just said Smith. This irritates him, and I enjoy his irritation.
The girls at the table now state their names, though I immediately forget them. The aloha girl reaches out to shake my hand, holding on longer than necessary.
I sense tension in Kate’s body. There’s a stiffness in her posture, and she watches without a smile, studying the faces around her. She doesn’t want me here among her friends.
I make a slight bow and say, “Nice to meet each of you. Kate, I can find the library just fine. See you later.”
I’m about to turn when the one guy—Ted—decides to speak again. Not a good idea, buddy.
“So you’re on a first-name basis with Kate. Surprising. I thought maybe you’d call her Ms. Monrovi, since you do work for her, right? The handyman?”
“Ted, good grief,” Kate says, taking a quick step away from him and closer to me.
“I work for her father, whom I do call Mr. Monrovi. If Kate wants me to be her handyman, I can do that.”
Ted’s eyes narrow with anger, and Kate doesn’t seem sure whether to be offended by what I say or to find it funny.
“Do you like construction? Handyman things?” I say innocently.
Ted scoffs. “I believe the house manager takes care of calling in the help.”
After this, I can’t resist. “Between you, me, and the rest of us, Ted, it’s starting to show. You’d better work out, or getting fat off Daddy might be harder to hide.”
The girls gasp. Kate bites her lip to keep from smiling. I see this from my peripheral vision, but my eyes remain locked on Ted. This clown thinks I don’t know exactly who he is. I’ve met his type a thousand times before.
Ted’s eyes blaze. I guess I’ve touched on a sensitive area of ol’ Ted’s psyche.
“I could grind your poor butt into the ground.”
“Who said I’m poor? Just because I work doesn’t mean I’m poor.”
“Please, Ted, stop this,” Kate says, moving in front of me.
I gently take her arms—her skin distracts me briefly—then I carefully guide her out of the way. She stares at me with a combination of surprise and frustration.
“Listen, Ted.” I say Ted like it’s the most ridiculous name ever, which it almost is. “I don’t know exactly how things work here, but I can show you how we settle things where I come from.”
Ted is not a fighter. He’s a bully, but he’s not a fighter. He glances at Kate and then hops up. So he’s doing all this to impress Kate—that’s interesting. “I have a future beyond making repairs at some hotel.” He looks me up and down like I’m nothing, which is typical and rather funny to me.
He walks off as if he’s not trying to get away fast, though I know that’s exactly what he’s doing. Women do not understand the inner workings of men. But then Kate goes after him, leaving me there with the pack of girls. What is she doing? Is she concerned about Ted being upset? What’s her problem—is she embarrassed to be around me?
I turn away from them then. Adrenaline pumps through me, the urge to hit something pulses in my veins, but I keep it contained. I want nothing more than my motorcycle and miles of empty road.
“He can be my handyman,” one of the girls says as I walk away.
KATE
“Pull!” Rachel yells as I pull the oars in unison with the other girls in the boat. Our arms move forward and back down as Rachel yells again. “Pull!”
The shell glides swiftly across the lake. All thoughts are gone, just the steady rhythm of our hands on the oars, the back-and-forth motion of our bodies as we pull against the water. We strain and I feel sweat in my hair, while my cheeks are cold from the chill off the river.
Practice has begun in my second year on Gaitlin’s women’s rowing team. Here on the water I at last found my passion— after years of pursuing other things, including dance and worthless music lessons. Much to the disappointment of my mother, I have no musical ability. I could practice and perform to a decent degree, but I was never going to be a professional singer, violinist, pianist, or conductor. Mom has a not-so-secret dream for one of her children to be a musician, and now those hopes are focused on Jake.
Moving from music into sports, I dabbled again. Dad believes that organized sports instill the life skills of discipline and teamwork. I burned out on basketball and rugby pretty fast, and for a time I believed everyone was off my case about being “involved.” Dad said as long as I didn’t get into trouble, I could choose what I wanted to do in my spare time. Now I was on crew. With my love of water, it seemed the perfect choice.
The precision was hard to adjust to. It’s one thing to run around a court or a field and work as a team. It’s quite another to cause every movement—even the inhaling and exhaling of my breath—to be in unison with eight other girls. Over time, we feel when someone is dragging or distracted.
Someone will yell, “Stop thinking about your boyfriend, Michaela!” which sends a snicker through the crew because it was probably true.
I force Caleb from my thoughts and after a while, it works. My body moves and I do the counts, keeping focused on our rhythm and the perfection of my pulls.
There’s something just a little off, and Rachel, our crew leader, yells, “Katherine, get your head into it.”
“Sorry,” she calls, and the boat cruises along stronger and faster. It’s exhilarating how we speed across the water; our pace increases and the boat appears to glide with simple stealth down the wide river.
I focus, clear away everything else. No more jumble of emotions toward Caleb or rehashing the incident with Ted. No more thoughts about . . . love.
“Pull!” Rachel yells.
We fly across the finish buoy and cheer, knowing our time was great today.
“Excellent, girls!” Coach Katner yells from the dock, her stopwatch in hand.
“That could’ve been a contender for nationals,” Rachel says, looking up from her wristwatch.
Caleb.
That fast and he’s back. It’s taken such effort for me to keep him out of my head that I’m suddenly exhausted.
I wonder where he is.
Caleb didn’t show up for fourth period. I sent him a text asking where he was. He didn’t answer my first one.
MY SECOND SAID: I’ll be held responsible if u are missing.
CALEB RESPONDED: So I could get you in trouble?
ME: Ms. Liberty will have my head. I’m already on student probation, remember. Nearly finished with it.
CALEB: So I would have completed that probation. But if you fail at escorting this student, then you’re back on?
ME: You sound like you’re enjoying this.
CALEB: Yes. Immensely. Had appointment.
ME: A dentist appointment? I thought Christians don’t lie?
CALEB: Wasn’t a lie.
ME: Then why don’t I believe you?
CALEB: Really did have appointment. On my way back, I missed my exit, sort of.
ME: Should I come looking for you?
CALEB: Too far away. I’m eating fish & chips in some town in Washington.
ME: You ditched school? On the first day?
CALEB: Didn’t ditch, appointment and exit, like I said.
There’s not much I could say to that.
ME: Sounds suspicious. And I’m jealous. I’m sorry about Ted today.
CALEB: No problem. What happened last year that got you on probation?
I hesitated before answering.
ME: I went to a party with Oliver. It was his first day with new Porsche. I didn’t have my license, just permit. Party was out of my league, his too. He was loaded, and I got scared. So I drove us home. We got caught. We’d left a school dance to go to the party and I was on leadership team. Supposed to be responsible.
CALEB: You and Oliver got caught?
ME: Ms. Liberty doesn’t know about Oliver. Only his parents. I couldn’t cover him with them, so he’s grounded from his Porsche till eighteen.
He didn’t respond for a bit.
CALEB: Sounds honorable to me.
I couldn’t think how to respond, when he sent another text that saved me.
CALEB: Gotta run, miles to go before I sleep.
I spent the rest of the school day thinking of him riding along some coastal road, wishing I could talk to him again . . . but I no longer had an excuse.
“Get some sleep,” Coach Katner calls as we carry our oars toward the equipment room.
I race up the docks toward the women’s locker room, passing Katherine, who bends down to tie her shoe. I notice how thin she looks through her T-shirt. I haven’t talked to Katherine much since Saturday night, but Anne told me she has a new crush on Caleb after his rescue. She was talking to him in Spanish III and avoiding Blake. Katherine’s erratic behavior is starting to concern me, and now she’s crossed that line between thin and too thin. We all know she’s bulimic, but half the girls at school are to some extent, trying to manage it, keep it from taking an obvious toll. Now Katherine’s behavior is out of control. Last year, a senior went down a path like this and it supposedly ended with her disappearance into rehab or some kind of hospitalization— I’m never sure if these are real stories or just rampant gossip.
After a quick shower, I turn the corner to the row with my locker and hear Emily say, “He’s really good-looking. You don’t see guys like him around here.”
When she sees me, Emily asks, “Kate, what do you know about him?”
I shrug my shoulders. “I hardly know him.”
“It didn’t look like that at prom,” Susanna says. The other girls laugh as Emily continues her questions.
“He works at your hotel, for real?”
I open my locker as the girls press closer. “Yep, he does.”
“That’s crazy. A Gaitlin guy working a job like that.”
Emily again, “So what’s going on between the two of you?” I knew this was coming. It always irritates me when the mob of girls demands information like this. “Nothing.”
They look at me doubtfully as I quickly dress, knowing their eyes are sizing me up and down.
Micheala actually laughs. “I told you she’d say that.”
“There really is nothing to say.”
“You don’t meet him in the utility closet at the hotel?”
Michaela asks. Now the other girls laugh.
“Funny.”
“After seeing him, I might just get a room and have him deliver my bags. I’ll give him a very nice tip too,” Natasha says with a sly smile on her lips.
“So he’s fair game?” Emily asks.
I shrug my shoulders. What do I say to that?
“Aren’t all guys fair game to you, Em?”
The girls laugh at that, and Emily isn’t even offended.
“That would be a true statement. But the Hawaiian cabana boy—he’s definitely on my radar.”
I sling my book bag over my shoulder and slide my feet into my shoes. “Cabana boy may not be interested in a Gaitlin girl.” It’s so irritating that they call him that. Thank you, Monica.
“If he’s not interested in a Gaitlin girl yet, we’ll have to make some progress in that direction.” The other girls agree as I say good-bye.
Oliver is reclined against a row of benches outside the marina gate, smoking a cigarette. “I thought you’d never get here,” he says drolly, opening his eyes.
“I knew you wouldn’t quit.”
He sits up, leaning his arms on his knees. “What else was I supposed to do? My ride was taking her sweet time.”
“I didn’t take my sweet time, it’s called practice. And I’m not the only ride on the planet.”
“Wow, testy today aren’t we? Rowing go poorly, love?”
I shake my head and walk up the stairs; he has to hurry to catch up with me.
“No. The locker room went poorly. But I don’t want to talk about it.”
He pauses at a trash can, crushing his cigarette on the side and dropping it in.
“You should’ve skipped out of practice, like I told you.”
“I can’t miss it, and it’s part of your penance that you have to wait for me.”
He shakes his head. “When is my penance paid for?”
“Yours must last at least as long as mine does. It’s your fault that I got into trouble.”
“I wish I’d just gotten caught, then I’d have paid the price up front and normal like.”
“Yes, jail is exactly like that. You should have gone to jail instead of having to wait by a lake on a spring evening, smoking cigarettes and watching a bunch of seventeen-year-old girls sweating and rowing across a lake. Jail and a roommate named Bubba would’ve been much better.”
“Okay, you have made your point.”
I bite my lower lip to keep from laughing.
“Bubba? Where did you come up with that one?”
“It was in a movie, I think.”
We both smile.
“Hey, I’m going to warn you right now. Ted has set his sights directly on you, my dear.”
“Well, that isn’t news. It’s only because he can’t have me, and he’s threatened by Caleb.”
“I really think the guy is in love with you.”
I laugh.
“He could make life for your surfer guy miserable. Might become one of those if I can’t have you no one can.”
“So Ted is now a crazy stalker guy who will kill me in my sleep.”
“No, it’s more like Ted, the practicing politician, could get your man kicked out of school, which would mess with his college acceptance, and the snowball starts rolling.”
We reach the school parking lot. I click the doors to unlock and the engine purrs to life from my handheld remote.
“He’s not my man, by the way.”
“I give you both a month. Just be careful. You don’t want to ruin the guy’s heart and his life over this.”