Bucky pedalled Nashville back to the PMO as the sun rose over the fishing fleet and speckled the harbour in silver. Nashville dropped for ten minutes on his bunk, before he woke to the angry percussion of Eagle beating on his door and hollering that his partner was waiting at the gate. Nashville stumbled outside, nauseous in the morning light. The jeep was a vague shape in the sandy lot, with Shorty crawling over it like a long, green worm.
‘I think Adams might’ve fixed the radio,’ said Shorty.
Nashville leaned into the jeep, took hold of a dial between his thumb and forefinger, and snapped it off.
‘Nope,’ said Nashville, dropping the broken control into his pocket.
He drove to his favourite shade tree and went back to sleep.
Half an hour later, Nashville’s sleep was interrupted again, this time by the hoarse, unfamiliar sound of static, and Hauser barking for ‘car one’. He lunged at the radio and turned it off, which was more difficult since he’d removed the dial.
‘Who’s car one?’ asked Shorty.
‘We are,’ said Nashville. ‘Why they hell did you turn on the radio?’
‘I was bored,’ said Shorty.
Nashville put his feet back on the dashboard and pulled his helmet over his eyes. As soon as he began to doze, Shorty jumped on the radio.
‘This is car one,’ said Shorty to the radio.
‘Car one, signal one hundred, Long Tâm Thu, code three,’ said the operator.
Nashville grabbed the receiver.
‘Ten-oh-one,’ he shouted. ‘Unable to copy, signal bad.’
Shorty tried to wrestle the receiver from him, but Nashville pushed him away with the flat of his palm.
‘Ten-one-two, proceeding!’ Shorty called out.
The radio belched, satisfied.
‘I ought to fucking shoot you,’ said Nashville to Shorty.
Shorty put up his hands. Nashville turned off the radio and spat over the side of the jeep.
‘Which way is Long Tâm Thu?’ asked Shorty.
‘Who gives a fuck?’ said Nashville. ‘We ain’t going.’ He wiped his mouth.
‘I just told them we would,’ said Shorty.
‘Then catch a fucking bus,’ said Nashville.
Shorty slumped into his seat and frowned.
‘I don’t think it’s right,’ said Shorty. ‘What if we had to call for help and nobody came to save us?’
‘Jesus fuck!’ snapped Nashville, and slammed his hand on the dashboard.
He started up the jeep. It grumbled and lurched.
‘Signal one hundred,’ said Nashville, ‘it’s an emergency. Code three, lights and sirens. What a steaming heap of ass chocolate.’
The road whined with scooters and choleric army trucks, but the sounds of traffic were drowned by clattering cymbals and screaming flutes, as four men wearing white headbands crossed the road carrying a monk on a chair. Soft clouds of incense masked the smell of gasoline.
Nashville stopped the jeep to let the procession pass. Behind the monk wailed a line of mama-sans, scattering bank notes of no earthly currency, then men waving Chinese banners, like students protesting against a war. An altar came next, then a surprised and disappointed cooked pig. It looked like a fat pink snake because, Nashville realised, somebody had cut off its ears.
A carved and painted casket was carried behind on the bed of a truck. A dance of junior monks, drowning in their robes, made up the lashing tail of the parade. Most of the mourners ignored the military traffic, encased in their own cacophonous grief, but the younger men paused to glare at Shorty, and point to their ears and scowl.
‘What’s going on?’ Shorty asked Nashville.
‘I’d guess,’ said Nashville, ‘that we’re watching the second funeral of the late Nguyễn Van Tran.’
As the procession passed towards the edge of town, firecrackers blew in barrages, as if there had been an explosion at an ammo dump.
‘Do you think the Mamasan organised it?’ asked Shorty.
‘No,’ said Nashville. ‘This is a political demonstration. The Mamasan don’t take sides. She’s neutral in this war.’
‘Like you,’ said Shorty.
Nashville looked at him with mild surprise. ‘Yeah,’ he said. ‘That’s right. Like me.’
Nashville hadn’t realised it was so obvious.
Since the emergency was supposed to be in a village, Nashville and Shorty were expected to take along an officer of the South Vietnamese Military Police. Nashville held a low opinion of both military and police generally, but saved his deepest mistrust for the local MPs in Vung Tau. While they were indolent and ineffectual – two qualities of which Nashville broadly approved – they also tended to be brutal, corrupt and stupid. The exception was a shy, serious young conscript the boys called Mickey – because he had once been slipped a Mickey Finn – who loved to ride with the Americans because it gave him a chance to practise his English. As a treat today, Nashville let Mickey hold the siren, which wailed indignantly as the vehicle forced a route between cyclists and cyclomen but was ignored by every person and animal on the road.
The jeep found the hamlet of Long Tâm Thu, a flowering of leaf huts on the stem of a sandy path. Small children waving palm fronds chased cockerels in the dust, under ragged flags of laundry drying on bamboo frames.
The MPs and Mickey were met by the village headman, a gaunt, shirtless elder with teeth the colour of plums. He beckoned them to follow him into his hut, where they sat beside a bamboo screen on a bare floor, while the headman’s toothless wife poured hot water from a thermos into an earthen teapot. Nashville leaned against a hammock as the headman told his story to Mickey.
‘There was a foreigner sleeping in the whore’s hut,’ Mickey translated. ‘He came in before the roosters rose. Only the children saw him. They say he was white, like a ghost.’
‘When did he leave?’ asked Nashville.
‘At dawn,’ said Mickey, ‘after he shot the rooster and two hens.’
Nashville tapped his notepad with his pen. ‘Why exactly is this a fucking emergency?’
The headman nodded robustly at the word ‘emergency’.
‘The ghost of the foreigner killed three chickens,’ said Mickey. ‘This is small to the US Army, but not to a village like this one, where all the men are away.’
‘Where are all the men?’ asked Nashville.
‘Fighting for the government,’ replied the headman and Mickey simultaneously, in Vietnamese and English.
Nashville dug into his pocket. ‘Here,’ he said to the headman, handing him two dollars. ‘Buy yourself your sister.’
The chief took his money, pressed his palms together and dipped his head.
‘Claim assessed,’ said Nashville to Shorty, ‘compensation paid. No need to write it up.’
Nashville, Shorty and Mickey climbed back into the jeep.
‘You’re not going to report this?’ asked Shorty.
‘Hell no,’ said Nashville. ‘I hate fucking paperwork more than . . .’
‘Other types of work?’ suggested Shorty.
Nashville scowled.
‘All we’ve got here,’ said Nashville, ‘is the shooting of three chickens.’ He mimed the massacre with his gun hand. ‘It’s a tragedy, maybe, from the point of view of poultry, but I predict it will have only a minor effect on the course of the war. Will the chicken stage a “coop”?’ Nashville asked the sky. ‘Will poultry “flock” to join the VC? I believe fucking not.’
They passed a hut at the edge of the village. A collage of blood and feathers lay on the porch.
‘I think the ghost was Sergeant Caution,’ said Shorty to Nashville.
‘Could be,’ said Nashville, ‘since we’ve been reliably told he’s dead.’
Shorty pointed to the hut. ‘We should take a look around.’
‘Nah,’ said Nashville. ‘Even if it was TJ, he’d be long gone by now. And sure, we should do our best to find that sorely unmissed piece of uniformed dogshit – but not if it interferes with our other cases.’
‘But we haven’t got any other cases,’ said Shorty.
‘Jesus, Shorty!’ cried Nashville. ‘What do you want to me do?’
‘Police work,’ mumbled Shorty.
Mickey lay down across the back seat.
‘You’ve got police work on the fucking brain,’ said Nashville to Shorty.
He stopped the jeep, and reversed through the sand to the hut. Shorty clambered out and paced around the leaf shack, as if he were patrolling its perimeter. He prodded the remains of the chickens with a stick, as if the answer lay in the entrails. Nashville watched him, hot and bored, until he lost patience.
‘Okay,’ said Nashville, ‘here we are, at a fucking crime scene. Why don’t you tape it off, Shorty? Why don’t you dust it for prints?’
Shorty smiled tightly.
‘Or you could take a crime-scene photograph,’ said Nashville. ‘They might print it in the Geese Gazette.’
‘I’m sorry for wanting to do my job,’ said Shorty.
He threw his stick into the scrub.
Nashville led Shorty back to the jeep. He shook his head at the strangeness of the morning, trapped a pair of Marlboros between his lips, lit them both and passed one towards his partner.
‘I don’t smoke,’ said Shorty.
Nashville shrugged, as if the world were full of wonders. He fixed one cigarette in his left hand and the other in his right, and sucked on each in turn.
‘I don’t like this,’ he said, eventually. ‘Cowboys dancing on police vehicles, ears going missing from heads, ghosts massacring chickens, cops greasing zipperheads who’re already dead. There’s been a change in the atmosphere of this town, a wave of unmotivated, profitless, pointless crimes.’
Nashville looked hard at Shorty.
‘Things like this never happened before you came to Vung Tau,’ he said.
The helicopter’s rotors beat the air with savage determination, like if they hit it fast enough, hard enough and often enough, it might stay down. Tommy Callaghan looked out from the passenger bay, over the shoulder of the port-side gunner, and studied the tree line as a relief map below him. He turned his head to see Mike Gordon’s fly-catcher mouth and exhausted, tearless eyes, and Paddy Newell’s lips drooping over devastated gums. Callaghan leaned back against the webbing and tried to ask the medic for water, but he had no voice.
There was a field dressing wrapped around the stump of his left elbow. He imagined his hand trying to claw after him as the medics loaded him onto the chopper. He knew it still wanted to be a part of him.
He was surprised he had been mutilated, because he had known he would be safe. That’s why he had made plans. Otherwise, there would have been no point.
Tommy Callaghan’s platoon had been on patrol in the bush, five days out of Nui Dat, setting up night ambushes that caught nobody. He had been alert but preoccupied, building a hut in the mountains, a hunting cabin to use with his butter-skinned son. All the time, he looked ahead to the forward scout, mindful of his step, the turn of his head, the perch of his Armalite.
Today the scout was Reffo, who’d been with him since recruit training. There was something temporary about Reffo, something unfixed. He liked to go crazy in the bars.
Reffo stopped suddenly and stood still, a statue of an Anzac on a plinth. He had heard something, or felt it, in the ground beneath his feet. He looked over his shoulder at Callaghan and giggled.
A Claymore mine jumped out of the long grass and tore away the legs that had carried Reffo with grace and speed through early-morning runs at Kapooka and Singleton, as cockatiels sang marching songs from the branches of stringybark trees.
Callaghan had thought legs were more firmly attached than that. They shouldn’t just come away, as if at the twist of a key. He raised his own left hand, to guard his face from flying steel, and his arm was taken off at the elbow and carried into the trees.
Callaghan was smiling as he strode confidently towards Reffo to pick up his legs – with his right hand – and put him back together. A dozen voices yelled, ordering him to get down or roll up or stand-to or dance, but all he could hear were fragments, the shrapnel of words.
When he reached Reffo, he kneeled beside him and touched first his body and then his legs, then Reffo screamed and died.
Hands – perhaps one was his own – grabbed Tommy Callaghan and pulled him away.
Petersen the medic wrapped the stump in gauze, then took a knife and cut through Callaghan’s greens. There was blood on his chest like a map of Australia.
But with no Tasmania, thought Callaghan. So how will I get home?
The helicopter hovered and dropped.
The rest of the patrol surrounded the chopper, pointing their weapons outwards at the idea of enemies. They put the pieces of Reffo in a bag.
‘My arm,’ said Callaghan.
Rocky the corporal turned to look for it, but had to stay on the cleared trail.
‘I can’t . . .’ he said.
There was a tear in Rocky’s eye because it seemed like the smallest thing you could do for a mate was to find his hand, but Rocky knew there could be other mines, planted like onions near the surface of the ground.
I wonder if Baby Marie will still love me with only one arm, thought Callaghan. He realised how lucky he was to have been called up. He would not have known Baby Marie if it hadn’t been for the army. He would never have made love to a girl like that.
The medic spoke to Callaghan while he bandaged up his chest. He told him he’d got himself a homer, that he would be going back to Launceston in the summer. He touched him below the heart and asked if it hurt.
The others crowded around, trying to keep him awake.
‘Typical Monkey,’ they said, as if he got blown up by a jumping-jack mine every day of the week, and had spent most of his service looking for his arm. ‘Half your luck,’ they said. ‘You’ll be right in no time.’
He vomited.
What did I drink that was black? he wondered. When did I swallow blood?
His chest seemed to swell and sag, swell and sag. Each time it fell, he felt a boot crush his lungs. Darkness drifted down behind his eyes. The faces of his friends became fingerprints, then blobs of light, flickering candlewicks. He knew suddenly that he should have asked the girl in the blue dress to dance with him in the memorial hall when he was fifteen years old and feared rejection more than death. The girl in the tall shoes. The girl with the green eyes. The girl with the long smile.
He hoped someone had remembered to bring the bag full of Reffo.
Tommy Callaghan was glad to have been a soldier, grateful to have known his mates, but wished he’d had more time.
The new sister had heard the sirens before she saw the dustoff chopper, and ran into the operating theatre to scrub up and tie on a gown. The helicopter squatted on the vampire pad, where the medical orderlies stretchered off the casualties, calling and yelling and trying to figure out who was hurt the most. The bag containing Reffo was taken away. The sister and the other nurses swarmed around Tommy Callaghan, telling him he was fine and handsome and young and strong and fit and Australian and safenowsafe, and everything was going to be all right.
Callaghan used his right hand to point to the place his left hand used to be, as if they hadn’t seen, in case they didn’t know. He could see the smile of his baby boy – unconceived, unborn – and it warmed him like the sun, as if the sun were shining for Tommy Callaghan, on Tommy Callaghan, to keep Tommy Callaghan warm while he was shaking with chills.
A soldier screamed and didn’t stop.
That bloke’s finished, thought Callaghan, and then he realised the voice was his own.
He had always imagined the soul to be a shadow, a silhouette. The essence of a man was the shape of man, and Callaghan was calling out because he could feel his life fleeing his body, and was shouting after it to come back.
‘Please! Please!’
An intravenous drip hung from Callaghan’s remaining arm, with a line leading to a sack of fluid.
The sack looked like an organ to Callaghan, although he couldn’t say which one. It was a part of his body outside his body, connected by a clear vein.
Dr Clarke ordered all non-medical staff out of the area. He was a tall man who stooped. At forty-four, he had only recently given up playing basketball for the army. In his quarters, he composed poetry in classical Greek. He felt lonely in Vietnam, in Vung Tau, and in the field hospital.
‘Mum!’ cried Callaghan. ‘Help me!’
Callaghan had been raised by his father, couldn’t recall his mother, had never seen his mother, was the only man born without a mother to hold him.
‘Mum!’ he cried. ‘Mum! Mum! ’
The sister attended him, although there was no point. Dr Clarke tried to wave her towards one of the more lightly wounded casualties, but there was too much shouting and shoving and she was too new to understand.
Callaghan clawed at the air with his good hand and his no hand, like a cat on its back, or a national-service trainee trying to pull himself up a rope ladder, anxious not to be left behind by his mates.The sister took his fingers in hers.
Anderson the orderly barked at the sister. It wasn’t his place, since she outranked him, but he’d found a man who could be saved, and she was just standing there like some kind of fucking monument over the body of a boy who should’ve been dead when they brought in the dustoff and was only hanging on – by one fucking hand – because he had a woman to wipe away his tears.
He should’ve gone to the Americans at 36th Evac, thought Anderson. And we’re giving him fucking penicillin.
‘Mum!’ yelled Callaghan.
Blood bubbled over his lips.
‘Mummy!’ he screamed, then fell silent and dropped the sister’s hand.
She watched his fingers fall.
Anderson was a fat South Australian with black-spider hair. He smoked Lucky Strikes, and left long stubs crushed on the hospital floor for the Vietnamese cleaners to gather like rice. He was good at triage. He was a survivor himself, but some men, he knew, had only a light hold on life.
The sister turned to face Anderson, as if she’d at last heard him call her.
‘It’s okay, love,’ he said, but she felt there was something mocking in his tone, and he should have called her ‘sister’.
The sister didn’t think of herself as the kind of person who took against her workmates. She wondered if it was because Anderson was ugly. That made her feel shallow. Then she thought, Why is this even in my mind when a boy just died? And she felt shallower still.
Anderson thought she was mourning the man who’d passed. ‘You’ll get used to it,’ he said.
‘I am used to it,’ the sister snapped. ‘I’m a trained nurse. What do you think I’ve been doing for the past four years, orderly?’
Anderson didn’t care. Words were just noises. He hunched a shoulder and, without touching the sister, he bullied the air around her and had it push her towards a patient who would leave the ward with only a scar on his temples and a purple-rose burn mark.