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Ordinary Chaos

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101

Vast is the sky!

We all leave and dive into the sea,

Heat is our life and our enemy,

Time to drive,

Along the mountains,

And let ourselves be,

Free.

Free.

102

Virtual reality,

Certain equality,

Magic gig and fearless plan,

Here we have a start-up plan.

Time to live,

Time to try,

Before we all perish and die.

Hit the like button make it worth a cry,

Roar and ‘why?’

103

Weak and powerless,

Useful in an hourglass.

Over time,

I decided,

I am ending all the fighting over you.

104

Shallow is the dance of youth,

We are all just drained and seeking,

For an excuse.

Nothing to win,

Something to lose.

105

Sad and frowned face,

Has little to no grace.

We are all an inception,

Of our minds,

Walking blind in this world.

Forget it all,

Let the sorrow disappear.

Misery and pain feed on fear.

Smile and let the cloud vanish.

That is all.

Be sincere.

Lady or sir.

106

Every time you rise,

Somebody falls,

Again and again,

Like a sunset and sunrise,

We interchange with it all.

107

Neo platonic, tectonic waves,

We are all one,

Here, with the same fate,

To face the ruthless,

Only with grace.

108

Only courage gives the might,

If you lived till now,

You probably will live some more.

After all, that courage

Can open the locked door.

Don’t hesitate to fight,

To get over obstacles at once,

You shouldn’t surrender, not even once.

Courage and fire are your keys.

Open the doors blocked with fears.

109

Once a vampire,

Once a God,

I don’t know what I begot.

Only seizure and endless pain,

Every hero live through a disdain.

110

The older you get,

The tougher you get.

Only time gives

And tames strength,

You are familiar

With your own mind.

It takes time, only time.

111

I want to sleep,

But the sun is still up,

The wind is blowing,

And crib is going

Tip-tap,

Tip-tap,

Time for a round up.

112

Believe in yourself,

Be like a lion,

Keep on trying,

There is no better time,

Be like a lion!

113

Horizon and the sun,

We’ll rise when all is done,

Saddle the horses,

Load the gun,

Time to run,

Time to run!

114

As the wind blows,

So my mind has its own shows,

I cannot say that that’s okay,

I just go away,

It’s a cold way.

115

Brilliant shepherd,

Guard of all sheep,

May he be curious,

May he be concrete,

Time is money,

And money is time,

We are descendants

Of those who were sublime.

We have little left

And most valuable asset

That we had was time.

116

I eventually will grow,

To know there is a better world,

To live in and to hold.

But is it really that easy,

To get peace for your soul?

Or is it all just a mirage,

That disappears when we behold?

117

You can speak out loud,

So everyone would listen,

To your inside.

But money given by the angels,

Matters the most,

If I’m the one,

You would ask.

118

I’ve been broken before,

I was shallow and ruthful,

I was dark, I took all the marks,

Then I went home,

And so is disease.

My ecstasy, let it go,

Let it be,

I’m on my way to the world,

Where God and Devil obey to me.

If it’s a dream, it’s one worth living,

Even if it all will be ceasing.

119

Sorry mum, but I must run.

Sun is down,

I have to run,

Count my dollars,

Load my gun,

The endless game,

Just has begun.

120

Nothing,

Arrive with nothing,

Fire in the sky,

Makes it matter.

Whatever you feel,

Be sincere,

The valuable moments,

Make you bear.

Nothing is nothing,

And it maybe your strong side,

The strong side of your true me.

121

What’s the meaning?

Who are you calling?

What’s your thing?

I can’t beg to be,

But if you don’t get it,

By now, somehow,

I’ll take you to see the down town.

122

The door you open,

Leads to a star,

I came across,

As an angel,

I never been with anyone,

Blood and tears wash me out,

Out of town.

I see you kneel,

I don’t want to change your mind,

I came across as an angel,

I don’t know really why.

123

Nothing to give,

But we still ask for more,

I just feel like,

There is no tomorrow,

Eyes are filled with sorrow,

Why to say: “what to do?”

If it’s something

That would only outdo?

124

A piece of fortune is all I need,

A quiet mind, a page to bleed,

I seek for a line, but find nothing,

I’m all so tired to be cursed with blessing.

125

Daddy lost in races too many times,

I know that it is a sweet bitter line,

Now that you remind.

I’m just passing by,

Out of lines,

Out of lines.

126

Don’t shoot your gun when it is loaded,

Why all the panic,

When you cannot hold it?

Is it alright with you?

I hope you forgot to kill,

And spread flowers instead of bullets,

On your behalf.

127

Somebody new,

And I get no excuse to not need you.

Every time I look into your eyes,

It breaks a little piece from my heart,

That is only covered with ice.

128

Can you talk to me, a little bit?

Or can you walk with me, the lane, a bit?

I only want to be the best part in our story,

Worthwhile and out of denial.

Please take care of what is good, for you,

And let the rest be.

129

Losing the battle,

Losing the ground,

I hope you read your letter,

And found the answer to your doubt,

Time to move on,

And speak of those who truly belong.

130

Star front,

Like a broken record,

You dance with me.

Whatever happens,

Make that count,

As a drill.

Seed worth a spreading,

Beat your fear into defeat.

131

Medium – is the message,

Make it count.

Whatever you say,

Make it count,

Cause you can’t do it,

Over again.

Machine isn’t coming short at hand.

132

Out of sight,

Say, if you were me,

How your life would be?

Say it loud,

Let in the crowd.

Say it loud,

I’m out.

133

All the stories,

Concentrate around good,

But all you really need, is love and food.

Maybe sometimes being understood.

Make the story worth your kindness and good.

134

Some things unite us,

Some other divide, our souls,

All we can do is stay true to the shell,

And to the reason it grew so strong.

135

Fire, infinite desire,

Devil, angel, demon,

All that can fall and rise,

You are attention seeker,

Stuck in paradise.

136

Blame it on the light,

Darkness shines bright, tonight.

I can see your eyes,

Turning bright,

Manipulated by the shams and gold,

That is lying here, and is centuries old.

137

Sending words to the random space,

Waiting for the divine grace,

Can you see, can you see, what I do?

I know you can, and you do,

Let it fall,

Pour it through.

138

Go dust,

Make it fall,

Appear new,

Once and for all,

The behemoth of truth.

Satan has little to lose...

Can you feel the blood flowing, through?

Can you?

139

Turn the page,

Say to me “Just beat it!”

And touch my soul with feelings,

That are going dry,

As the red wine,

And I will say “nay”.

No pain,

No gain,

Only strain,

Understand my mind,

And let it go,

It’s all, in your soul.

140

We need your life,

Believe it, give us your love,

Complete it.

Time to shed your cloth,

Believe in the future,

Complete the groove,

Time for us to see, what is true.

141

Kindness drains out our souls,

They used to last,

Now calm down,

What has past become,

Is clearly a past.

142

What I am to you,

Is not what you need,

What I give to you,

Isn’t something good,

I beg, forget about the two,

Let yourself follow the beat,

Another, useful need.

143

The ink and blood,

Carrying a friend,

And that is a friendship that won’t last.

I don’t wander, anymore,

I know I am hungry,

For more,

But the time, is only teacher,

That is worth my while.

144

Love and food,

Pure darkness in the sea,

Pure ecstasy of words, to be.

145

Waiting and waiting,

One miracle,

One way,

We bleed it out.

Waiting,

Mild agony,

And sands of doubt,

Let’s goeth out.

146

Ignite the fire, of passion,

Transgression.

Time to go,

Time to fly,

Time to escape,

The dome,

And make another home.

147

Don’t play dead,

Cause, some day,

You may wake up and say:

“You cannot chase me.”

And I will say:

“Your son of grace is bullshit!”

And we would walk away,

Like if no one said a thing.

148

She drown a gun,

I was just lusting for fun,

She begun to shoot,

I vaporized as dead as could be.

Very pessimistic,

Her ability to become,

My perfect adversary.

149

To get what I came for,

To get what I need now,

To get what belongs to me,

Sick, tired, bored, and broiled on fire.

Give it to me.

Give it to me.

It belongs to me.

150

The brutal truth,

Left in youth,

Left and forgotten,

Now, that, you got yourself begotten,

Take responsibility for thoughts and actions,

There are no second hand resurrections.

151

So glad to see you well,

And you have cast your demons out,

May the blessings lead your hands,

While you walk the stairs up and down,

To infinity of heaven, and wellness all around.

152

Ignore the smoke,

And fire,

Light turned green,

Will cause you,

Turn, your life around.

153

Slippery insanity,

Slippery prevention,

Of a great default.

I’m searching for an answer, like we all.

Shooting from a canon onto the wall,

May gates of heaven fall.

May hell be gone.

154

Fretted by the fire,

Sweet revelation,

Swett...

Taking my doom,

Taking my doom,

Thinking of her,

And blending in,

Through.

155

Tomb stone,

Sitting on an ire,

Somewhere,

Where we could be higher.

But the tune is gone,

And what is left is our faded weather,

We wouldn’t take with us,

Even if we got higher than this bloody ire.  

156

We delve into the lyre,

Lyre, may cure us all.

Let the ion lights guide you home.

Before you die,

And fall, your final fall.

157

No longer,

Violin plays my favorite song,

And obsidian is like a chalk,

Not giving its secrets to the old.

Only young have the chance to see me fall.

Such is the brevity of life, and all.

158

I would be honored if the Devil,

Could let me go,

But instead I stay for it all.

Haunted,

Paying the price,

Shallow,

Down,

Into the oblivion,

Into demise.

159

Show and tell,

Like a lamb hero.

Sacred trail to go...

I’m often faded,

Often letting it all go.

And the raven

Stands upon my tombstone,

Only feathers fall.

160

Doomed are the peaceful,

Doomed are the true,

Everything is vain,

Hurts to see you sustain the pain.

Ciao!

In the name of the saint.

161

In the family name,

Let’s slay the dragon,

And run away with the princess,

After all by centuries,

This is what we are expected to do.

Gathering,

Gathering,

New love,

New light,

Something to do.

162

Oh, can you listen, oh ancient one?

I’ve done what other mortals do,

Now I can see through myself,

But then again all that I do,

You could say about me,

That I did it all for you.

163

Tragedy is a song of pain and misery,

None can help you

Just when you are turning

Yourself to nothing,

No second thoughts,

Just wishes for self-destruction,

It is a message to hell and heaven,

When we are dissolving and getting even.

164

Atomic bomb,

I’m here to stay.

My whole mind is blown away.

Atomic bomb explodes,

Takes lives and goes away.

Even Merlyn Monroe can’t say “OK”

We are all dying anyway.

165

Fallen angel going mad,

Into the hospital,

So sad,

Like if an angel,

Never lived,

Before he has gone dead.

166

Mad maniacs causing pain,

Each other they are slaying,

It’s not written,

Not written anywhere.

It’s not right,

Nowhere near,

I want to be closer to you,

Closer too.

167

Last breath of a soldier,

Life is gone in vain.

Cutting the veins,

Running cold,

Out of blood,

I swear to God,

I won’t let you fall,

I will make you forget it all.

168

When I listen,

But you can’t hear,

When I call,

And you react with fear,

Where is the essence?

Why aren’t you sincere?

I’m asking you to face your shadow,

To face your fear.

169

Malady or cure,

I beseech what is pure,

No agony, no pain,

Just misery to go insane,

Where is the God?

Or even the Devil?

When I need someone to be carrying,

And able to handle.

170

Book worm,

Is it warm?

Are you don or are you gone?

People and poets,

Unite before the great tide,

And Noah collapses to say,

“You are a goner, anyway!”

171

Not self-consumed,

Brutal,

But I still dare,

I swear, I’ll find that gold,

One chase for you,

To care about words,

I link with ink,

To fade in green fallacy of a tree.

172

Writer of words,

Inventor of poems,

Drawer of swords,

Slayer of fears,

Waiting to be recognized,

Sincerely.

So sure,

So rare,

Doing so much to care,

But lost inside of a gaze,

A stare.

173

That is as dead as it can be,

And your abilities decay

As no one could see.

Maybe, I’m better off my way,

Better off my way to say,

“Hell, be with you today!”

174

Cutting wings,

Let it float,

Like a drunk bastard,

I can talk.

But not every word said,

Is better than silence,

Or a fresh baked bread.

175

The brute in me dies,

A lonely death,

As gentleman in me oaths to rise.

I tend to count sheep,

But when I die and when I awake,

The sheep are all at Nye.

At zero stake.

176

Voices of fire,

In my soul,

I get lost,

In it all,

Baby, come on,

Hold my hand,

And let’s go,

I wish you could,

See it in my whole.

177

I’m as lost as you’re, kid,

I beg, I cheat, and run

I try what is my due for fun,

But overall, I’m as lost as you are, son.

178

Bathing in truth,

What’s your grudge?

What’s the use?

No narcotics, no booze,

I only practice the art,

Of nothing to gain,

Nothing to lose.

179

What is keeping me from killing you?

I’m not done,

I’m not yet through,

What is keeping me from killing you?

I’ll tell you.

It’s brevity of thought,

Deepness of the God.

That’s what’s keeping me from killing you.

180

Hostile thief,

What have you done?

Why won’t you run?

I have with me my loaded gun,

Run thief, run!

181

11th floor

I cannot ignore,

The perfect sky,

One bullet of shame,

One bullet of lie,

Time to gain control,

And find yourself in it all.

182

It’s not like you killed at once,

Cherish what is wise.

Demon stands here in front of your eyes!

I admit,

I am still no one.

Waiting for Armageddon to begin,

Just like you,

I tend to sin.

So much ashamed,

How all that good,

Has abandoned your mood,

But it’s not like you killed someone,

So I guess the game isn’t done.

Be one!

Be one.

183

Poisonous script,

Cypher verdict,

I must admit,

Before I’m done, and gone,

I have to shut the minds of all,

To turn on the rotten gold.

Bone, oh, my broken bone!

Son of a gun, I’m done...

184

What else to be?

Asked the sun.

Broken gun,

Heal me!

Heal me!

I’m gone.

185

Lying to myself again,

Lightness, such a mess,

Such a mess, poetess!

186

Pupils are wide,

I step again, outside,

Help me if you can,

Just it is cold as hell,

Help me understand,

This addiction to no land.

I want to fight the Devil-God,

To destruct one bullet at a time,

Till everyone freezes or burns,

And dies.

187

Counting on Lucifer,

Trying not to scare,

Walking clown, up, on the ground,

I fall off and I fight it out.

Don’t stop,

Don’t stop me now!

I’m only digging holes in the holy ground!

188

Ferocious snake,

Around your neck,

And chokes you back,

While all your life is at treat,

How are you going to face,

Those who made you hold back?

And blow it out?

Blow it back?

189

Is that what puts your Halo down?

I’m a little bit curious,

How are you, going,

To take the chance,

And face the dead?

When there you Halo is down,

And there is nothing ahead?

Try not to forget,

Not to forget,

That there is still some fight in you, yet!

190

You know I drew out my hand,

And painted it,

Now it says:

“You are not dead. So get a hell with it!”

I only expect you to understand,

That there is more to this world,

That your gaze can land,

And less than you can contain at one preset.

191

The Devil knocks your door,

Your actions are all off shore,

Now that you are dead as dead can be,

You understand you better stand and do

What others can see.

So that your deeds would be registered,

In the history of men,

Trying to liberate the second son

And the whole land.

192

People beg and fall,

I’m what I’m after,

I just need you to understand,

That there is no sacred end.

193

Let the morons fall,

Blend them all,

Let the graves be filled with stupid corpses.

I don’t know what you do,

But you may use a friend,

Knock the door again,

There may be someone,

Who will understand,

And will give you a hand.   

194

It’s a bad taste,

To get used to things.

We get used to kindness,

We get used to abuse,

We shouldn’t get used but value,

Value every moment we have,

Be it good or bad,

It’s just a monument,

Don’t get used to it.

195

Best day ever,

Say it never,

I beg you, run,

Dodge the stones,

And run, run, run!

Run an crawl,

Towards the truth.

Another victory,

Nothing to lose.

Best day ever,

Say it never.

196

To be or not to be,

The modern trick or treat,

The destiny of England...

Behold its gold,

The destiny of world is never told,

By praising Gods and Goddesses of old.

I urge you to submit into the rule,

Of humble men.

Cannot disdain, not even a fool,

Can play this game!

The people who are worthy

Of good words, and might.

The people who aren’t

Stricken by the absence of the light.

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An open person,

A closed socket,

An open mind,

An empty pocket,

I keep on doing,

What I do,

In hopes that someday,

I’ll find you.

198

Body paint for the saint,

There is no such thing,

Keep your body color, natural,

There is no need in being extra casual.

199

Baby steps towards success,

Let thine game pass,

Baby steps towards success,

Let the cheaters break their glass.

200

Parachute,

Jumping off the plane,

Gliding towards the Earth,

Like insane.

Parachute.,

Is my second name.

Thank you for reading this book. I hope you have enjoyed it and have gained something for yourself along the way. I want to wish you well along the road of life.

If you would, please leave a review for this book. People like to know what other people think, and if you could be so kind and let them know, I would remain forever grateful.

For more of my works, you may visit my website: www.dragonpoe.com

Twitter: @ASdragonpoe

For personal inquiries, write me at welshdragonmcmillan@gmail.com

Thank you.

Truly yours,

Adam Smith

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR

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Adam Prockstem Smith is an entrepreneur, blogger, and an international author. At the age of sixteen, he started his first business building one-page internet marketing websites. He speaks fluent Russian, Hebrew, and English. 

After finishing high school, he proceeded with self-education and exploration of the nature of the human mind. Through extensive research, and many trials and errors, Adam has become experienced with Zen. His particular style of choice is the Kwan Um School of Zen, of which he is a moderate practitioner. He is always ready to help others and learn new things.

Adam is the founder of DragonPoe.com and RussianPoe.com. He is also running a Slack channel to discuss creative writing with like-minded people.