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What Experienced Teens Say About Sex

What you are about to read are stories from guys and girls told to you as if they were your closest friends. Imagine sitting across from your best friend as he or she tells you about his or her sexual situation. You would be hearing not just how and what happened, but how they felt afterward. Many of these guys and girls, as you will see, are ringing with regret. Listen to their stories carefully and try to see life through their eyes. Feel their heart as you listen to their stories.

How old were you the first time you had sex?

14 (female)

What was the situation?

I was with two guys in a truck outside my house. They were both pressuring me to have sex. I continually kept saying “no” or “I don't know,” but I finally gave in because I thought they wouldn't like me. I lost my virginity to two guys on the same night. It was my first night for everything.

What did you go through emotionally?

I went through guilt. I do regret doing it.

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How old were you?

17 (female)

What was the situation?

I'd fooled around with a couple of guys, but I hadn't actually had sex. There was a guy who I had a big crush on, and he wanted to sneak over to my house in the middle of the night. We made a regular habit of this, and I did everything with him except actually have sex. One night, he decided he wasn't going to listen to me. I kept telling him no, but he did it anyway.

What did you go through emotionally?

Emotionally I had some big problems. I hated myself and felt like I wasn't good for anything. I felt like a whore, even though what happened wasn't my fault. I've torn myself apart by doing things with him and other guys. I'm heartbroken.

How old were you?

15 (female)

What was the situation?

I got used by a guy. He and I don't talk anymore. I only did it because I thought it would change the way he felt about me and make him actually like me.

What did you go through emotionally?

I went through depression, regret and sorrow. I regretted ever thinking about doing anything with him. And, to this day, I still wish I hadn't done anything.

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How old were you?

16 (female)

What was the situation?

I haven't had sex, but I'd say I've lost my purity.

What did you go through emotionally?

Very much regret. I felt like a slut, a tramp.

How old were you?

16 (female)

What was the situation?

I was pressured into it from a guy I thought I really liked. Then afterward he wanted to break up when I didn't want to mess around anymore.

What did you go through emotionally?

It was definitely hard, like a slap in the face. I felt lost and broken, and I was too embarrassed to talk about it to anyone. I completely regretted it.

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How old were you?

16 (female)

What was the situation?

I had oral sex.

What did you go through emotionally?

I felt guilty at myself, and I felt like part of my childhood was gone.

How old were you?

16 (female)

What was the situation?

The first time just started with a kiss. After I kissed him, he told me he would never try to take my purity, but I was thinking, “Hey, you are right now,” and then we ended going a lot further.

What did you go through emotionally?

Even when I was kissing him, I knew he wasn't the one. And I wanted so badly for him just to hold me and love me, and not expect anything.

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How old were you?

17 (female)

What was the situation?

The first time I slept with a guy was because of a horrible decision I made based on being left alone by a previous boyfriend. When I say “left” I really mean it–he left without even saying “it's over” or “goodbye.” The guy I slept with was a friend whom I found refuge in, and because we were just friends, I felt safe that he would not abandon me.

What did you go through emotionally?

After having sex for the first time, at the moment I felt glad that I had done it, because I felt satisfied. But when I went to church the next weekend, my mistake was staring me in the face. I suffered a lot after my bad choices. I always felt guilty, and sex was never satisfying.

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How old were you?

There's been a Couple of times–12 and 16 (female)

What was the situation?

When I was 12 I was babysitting with a family friend who I referred to as my “cousin.” He was two years older than me, and I was curious.

What did you go through emotionally?

I felt bad, but I didn't know why, so I told my mom. Yeah, I regret it, because I sort of lost her trust.

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How old were you?

15 or 16 (female)

What did you go through emotionally?

I felt nasty, like trash, after the first time it happened. I ran to my best friend's house at 4:00 in the morning crying. I felt dirty, like damaged goods, but it was nothing compared to the rape.

How old were you?

15 (male)

What was the situation?

I was dating a girl who went to my church, and it happened at my house.

What did you go through emotionally?

I felt uncomfortable after the affair, because she was 18.

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How old were you?

17 (female)

What was the situation?

I snuck my boyfriend into my bedroom at night, and then it just happened.

What did you go through emotionally?

Regret. I still have trouble forgiving myself.

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How old were you?

Sadly, I was only 12 (female)

What was the situation?

I was with a boy who told me he loved me, and I believed him.

What did you go through emotionally?

I didn't feel like a child anymore, and I was disgusted with myself.

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How old were you?

12 (female)

What was the situation?

I was going out with this guy who was 16–almost 17–and he pressured me into it.

What did you go through emotionally?

I was completely changed, and I regret it with all my heart. I wish I could take it back.

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How old were you?

Almost 15 (female)

What was the situation?

I was with this guy I liked, and he was really into worldly things.

What did you go through emotionally?

I went through a really hard time afterward. I regretted it a lot.

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How old were you?

15 (female)

What was the situation?

I was forced into it by a boyfriend.

What did you go through emotionally?

I felt pretty dirty, I mean, I felt low.

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How old were you?

14 (female)

What was the situation?

I started dating this guy who was 23 whom I had met through a friend. He gradually led me into kissing and more physical things, and then one night I gave in after many make–out sessions and gave away my virginity..

What did you go through emotionally?

I regretted it so much–more than anyone can know. He said he loved me, and I was confused. But he didn't love me, and he broke my heart..

How old were you?

15 (female)

What was the situation?

It was not sex, but oral sex with my boyfriend.

What did you go through emotionally?

I cried and regretted it and tried to change.

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How old were you?

14 (male)

What was the situation?

I was at a party and me and this girl started flirting, and one thing led to another and…yeah.

What did you go through emotionally?

I was excited at the time, but regret came later when I got saved.

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How old were you?

15 (female)

What was the situation?

I was at a boy's house after homecoming. We were the only ones home.

What did you go through emotionally?

I mostly felt the loss of innocence and regret because my future husband wouldn't have me first.

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How old were you?

11 when I started messing around; 14 when I lost my purity (female)

What was the situation?

I was in a relationship with a l7–year–old. We were both Christians and we tried to stay pure, but we kept putting ourselves in bad situations. He graduated high school and had come to live with my family. At night I would go and lie next to him and fall asleep…and we let our emotions go crazy. He was gentle with me, but it started really hard sexual bonds in both our lives..

What did you go through emotionally?

I felt as if I failed, so I just kept messing around with guys. I felt like every guy was going to treat me the same way, and for the most part they did. I lived a lie from my parents, and it was emotionally hard because I needed my mom. God was continually convicting me, but I didn't know how to get free from this trap..

How old were you?

14 (female)

What was the situation?

I was at a high school party and was dancing with this guy who enjoyed my presence. As we were dancing, he pulled me over to this chair and began to grope me, and then one thing led to another.

What did you go through emotionally?

It was one of the hardest things, because he moved away at the end of the summer and never called or kept in any kind of contact with me. I felt used, unworthy and broken.

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How old were you?

16 (female)

What was the situation?

I have not lost my sexual purity, but with my first boyfriend my friends and his parents encouraged us to move quickly. We played with one another's emotions.

What did you go through emotionally?

Much regret. I felt disgusted and gross!

How old were you?

16 (female)

What did you go through emotionally?

I felt so dirty and unworthy. I cried so much, because I knew I had disappointed my parents and had given in to my stupid culture that said, “They will love you more if you do it.” I regret it so much.

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How old were you?

16 (male)

What was the situation?

It started with what seemed like innocent kissing, but escalated very quickly. The setting was a dark room with no one around–a dangerous setting to be in.

What did you go through emotionally?

A ton of sadness and depression. I felt very alone, even with many people around.

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How old were you?

17 (female)

What was the situation?

My boyfriend spent the night at my house, and I snuck out of my room to join him on the couch.

What did you go through emotionally?

I was shocked at my own behavior, and it started a cycle that was hard to break.

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How old were you?

14 female)

What was the situation?

My brother had a friend over and so did I; we just all hooked up when my parents were sleeping..

What did you go through emotionally?

When I was younger I thought it was cool, but as I continued hooking up as I got older I felt serious regret..

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How old were you?

16 (female)

What was the situation?

It was on a dare, and I didn't want to be a chicken..

What did you go through emotionally?

I now regret everything I did. I didn't feel like I was loved unless I slept with guys.

How old were you?

16 (female)

What was the situation?

I was caught by the cops in my parents’ van in a park.

What did you go through emotionally?

I was kicked out of my parents’ house for a time. Despair. Regret. Guilt. Frustration. Constant tears.

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How old were you?

15 (male)

What was the situation?

I was riding in the back seat of a car with a girl, and stuff happened.

What did you go through emotionally?

Even now I regret what happened. Every time I see her, it comes back.

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How old were you?

16 (female)

What was the situation?

I was going out with a guy for months, and we both wanted to stay pure. One night we went to a party together and left early. We ended up having sex in the back seat of the car.

What did you go through emotionally?

I was so angry at myself. I regret it completely.

Here are some other comments from teens about what they felt after having sex for the first time:

I was an emotional wreck.

(Female, age 19)

I thought I loved her and she loved me, but that wasn't the case. I regret all of it!

(Male, age 19)

I didn't regret it until we broke up, and then I felt shame and deep regret. I thought it was forever, but I was just naive about the whole situation.

(Female, age 19)

I felt disgusted, stupid, trapped, ugly—like I was a plaything.

(Female, age 19)

It is said that wisdom comes from learning from the mistakes of others. All of us can say, “I sure learned from that mistake.” How much better would it be if we could learn from others’ mistakes so we do not actually have to live through those pitfalls! Read between the lines of these stories, and you will see wisdom. The wisdom of their experiences is the same wisdom spoken of in the Bible.