Acknowledgments

Thanks to my addiction counselor and friend Simon Mott of Hope Rehab Thailand, who gave me so much incredible insight into the disease of addiction. His influence is all over this project.

Thanks to my family, who have been so unbelievably supportive and kind throughout these difficult past few years. You’re all in my heart.

Thanks to my agent, Byrd, at Waxman-Leavell—I know it is not always easy working with me.

Thanks to Simon & Schuster and my first editor, Sarah Knight—I’ll never forget the lovely letter you sent when I started to give up, and thanks to my second editor, Emily Graff. You’re sharp as a syringe, my dear—I’m very lucky to have you.

Thanks to all the incredible people in publishing I ever worked with and/or for, from the Vanity Fair fashion closet all the way to Vice.

Shout out to all of my downtown friends, who keep the magic glittering in between my ears. Thank you for all the inspiration, drink tickets, travel, and laughs. I adore you all.

Thanks to Jason Dill of Fucking Awesome clothing, from whom I lifted “HOW TO MURDER YOUR LIFE” from a shirt.

Thanks to Chris Habib for those insane days of final edits when I couldn’t talk, read, or process what was being read aloud to me.

Thanks to Christos Katsiaouni for the author photo.

And thanks to Britney Spears and Pete Doherty. I love you guys!!!