AIR SHOW IN BARBADOS

How could it ever end,

his silvery jet blades

slicing the day open

like the carcass

of a wide blue animal?

The fire he steals

begins and ends with him,

as migrated wonder,

and he chews on that thrill

like the raw meat it is,

though fear’s a lame buck

flung over his shoulder,

antlers probing deep.

“Kick the tire, light the fire,

and go!” he says,

climbing into an isolation

booth where he lusts

for precision.

Muscle is out of date.

When he asks the computer

to bankroll a loop,

he is six again, playing

Simon Sez. Barrel roll?

he asks with the touch

of a dragonfly

landing on the console,

then accuses a button

with one finger,

and the F-15 veers

through turns at 7 g’s,

wave-lap to stratosphere

in eight seconds,

his G-suit puffs hard

to full leg, full belly,

squeezing toward a heart

already at its limit

able only to pump blood

to the center of his eyes.

Panorama fades:

he sees the world through a small tube:

as he angles straight up

at glass-shattering speed

from deep sea

to the Barbados of dollar

and shack-talk

and cinderella liberty

and bathers recently amazed

by jockeys swimming

thoroughbreds out to the reef.

A wasp, his heartbeat

stings in his chest.

But it’s all so abstract

now: the idea of flight

he rolls around his tongue,

his jet the loudest word

the air speaks,

sound an erupting mumble

that wells

up in his mind,

flits to his finger,

then zooms toward a future

he explodes with a shout.

At the Hilton pool, later,

servicemen flirt

and play water games.

They address him as “Killer”

and beg him to join in.

But he stands up to his waist

in a remote corner,

short, wiry, and silent,

watching clouds stalk

the sky-blue water,

his mind an abacus

cleared after a large sum.