The orders were that while Caesar and the major part of his army were in Britannia, none but the most urgent communications were to be sent to him; even directives from the Senate had to wait in Portus Itius on the Gallic mainland until Caesar returned from his second expedition to the island at the western end of the world, a place almost as mysterious as Serica.
But this was a letter from Pompey the Great, who was the First Man in Rome—and Caesar’s son-in-law. So when Gaius Trebatius in Caesar’s office of Roman communications took delivery of the little red leather cylinder bearing Pompey’s seal, he did not post it in one of the pigeonholes to wait for that return from Britannia. Instead he sighed and got to his feet, plump and taut like his ankles because he spent the vastest part of his life sitting or eating. He went through the door and out into the settlement which had been thrown up upon the bones of last year’s army camp, a smaller compound. Not a pretty place! Rows and rows and rows of wooden houses, well-packed earthen streets, even the occasional shop or two. Treeless, straight, regimented.
Now if this were only Rome, he thought, commencing the long traipse of the Via Principalis, I could hail me a sedan chair and be carried in comfort. But there were no sedan chairs in Caesar’s camps, so Gaius Trebatius, hugely promising young lawyer, walked. Hating it and the system which said that he could do more for his burgeoning career by working for a soldier in the field than he could by strolling—or sedan-chairing—around the Forum Romanum. He didn’t even dare depute a more junior someone else to do this errand. Caesar was a stickler for a man’s doing his own dirty work if there was the remotest chance that delegation might lead to a stuff-up, to use crude army vernacular.
Oh, bother! Bother, bother! Almost Trebatius turned to go back, then tucked his left hand among the folds of toga arranged on his left shoulder, looked important, and waddled on. Titus Labienus, the reins of a patient horse looped through the crook of one elbow, lounged up against the wall of his house, talking to some hulking Gaul hung with gold and blazing colors. Litaviccus, the recently appointed leader of the Aedui cavalry. The pair of them were probably still deploring the fate of the last leader of the Aedui cavalry, who had fled rather than be dragged across those heaving waters to Britannia. And had been cut down by Titus Labienus for his pains. Some weird and wonderful name—what was it? Dumnorix. Dumnorix… Why did he think that name was connected with a scandal involving Caesar and a woman? He hadn’t been in Gaul long enough to get it all sorted out in his mind, that was the trouble.
Typical Labienus, to prefer talking to a Gaul. What a true barbarian the man was! No Roman he. Tight, curly black hair. Dark skin with big, oily pores. Fierce yet cold black eyes. And a nose like a Semite’s, hooked, with nostrils that looked as if someone had enlarged them with a knife. An eagle. Labienus was an eagle. He belonged under the standards.
“Walking some of the fat off, Trebatius?” the barbarian Roman asked, grinning to show teeth as big as his horse’s.
“Down to the dock,” said Trebatius with dignity.
“Why?”
Trebatius itched to inform Labienus that it was none of his business, but he gave a sick smile and answered; Labienus was, after all, the general in the absence of the General. “I’m hoping to catch the mail pinnace. A letter for Caesar.”
“Who from?”
The Gaul Litaviccus was following the conversation, bright-eyed. He spoke Latin, then. Not unusual among the Aedui. They’d been under Rome for generations.
“Gnaeus Pompeius Magnus.”
“Ah!” Labienus hawked and spat, a habit he’d picked up from too many years hobnobbing with Gauls. Disgusting.
But he lost interest the moment Pompey’s name was said, turned back to Litaviccus with a shrug. Oh, of course! It had been Labienus who trifled with Pompey’s then wife, Mucia Tertia. Or so Cicero swore, giggling. But she hadn’t married Labienus after the divorce. Not good enough. She’d married young Scaurus. At least he had been young at the time.
Breathing hard, Trebatius walked on until he emerged from the camp gate at the far end of the Via Principalis and entered the village of Portus Itius. A grand name for a fishing village. Who knew what name it had among the Morini, the Gauls in whose territory it lay? Caesar had simply entered it in the army’s books as Journey’s End—or Journey’s Beginning. Take your pick.
The sweat was rolling down his back, soaking into the fine wool of his tunic; he had been told that the weather in Further Gaul of the Long-hairs was cool and clement, but not this year! Extremely hot, the air laden with moisture. So Portus Itius stank of fish. And Gauls. He hated them. He hated this work. And if he didn’t quite hate Caesar, he had come very close to hating Cicero, who had used his influence to obtain this hotly contested posting for his dear friend, the hugely promising young lawyer Gaius Trebatius Testa.
Portus Itius didn’t look like any of those delightful little fishing villages along the shores of the Tuscan Sea, with their shady vines outside the wine shops, and an air of having been there since King Aeneas had leaped down from his Trojan ship a millennium before. The songs, the laughter, the intimacy. Whereas here was all wind and blowing sand, strappy grasses plastered against the dunes, the thin wild keening of a thousand thousand gulls.
But there, still tied up, was the sleek oared pinnace he had hoped to catch before it put out, its Roman crew busy loading the last of a dozen kegs of nails, all it was carrying—or, at its size, could hope to carry.
When it came to Britannia, Caesar’s fabled luck seemed permanently out; for the second year in a row his ships had been wrecked in a gale more terrible than any gale which blew down the length and breadth of Our Sea. Oh, and this time Caesar had been so sure he had positioned those eight hundred ships in complete safety! But the winds and the tides—what could one do with alien phenomena like tides?—had come along and picked them up and thrown them about like toys. Broken. Still, they belonged to Caesar. Who didn’t rant and rave and call down curses on all winds and tides. Instead, he proceeded to gather up the pieces and put the ships back together again. Hence the nails. Millions of them. No time or personnel for sophisticated shipwrights’ work; the army had to be back in Gaul before winter.
“Nail ’em!” said Caesar. “All they have to do is make it across thirty-odd miles of Oceanus Atlanticus. Then they can sink, for all I care.”
Handy for the office of Roman communications, the pinnace which rowed back and forth between Portus Itius and Britannia with a dozen kegs of nails going out and messages going in.
And to think I might have been over there! said Trebatius to himself, shivering despite the heat, the humidity, and the weight of a toga. Needing a good paper man, Caesar had put him down for the expedition. But at the last moment Aulus Hirtius had taken a fancy to go, all the Gods look after him forever! Portus Itius might be Journey’s End for Gaius Trebatius, but better that than Journey’s Beginning.
Today they had a passenger; as he and Trogus had organized it (in the colossal hurry Caesar always demanded), Trebatius knew who the Gaul was—or Briton, rather. Mandubracius, King of the Britannic Trinobantes, whom Caesar was returning to his people in return for their assistance. A blue Belgic, quite horrific. His gear was checked in mossy greens and shadowy blues, into which his skin, painted in a complex pattern with rich blue woad, seemed to merge. They did it in Britannia, so Caesar said, to blend into their interminable forests; you could be scant feet from one and never see him. And to frighten each other in battle.
Trebatius handed the little red cylinder to the—captain? was that the correct term?—and turned to walk back to the office. Thinking, with a sudden rush of saliva, of the roast goose he was going to have for his dinner. There wasn’t much one could say in favor of the Morini, except that their geese were the best in the whole wide world. Not only did the Morini stuff snails, slugs and bread down their throats, they made the poor creatures walk—oh, walking!—until their flesh was so tender it melted in the mouth.
*
The pinnace oarsmen, eight to a side, rowed tirelessly in a perfect unison, though no hortator gave them the stroke. Each hour they rested and took a drink of water, then bent their backs again, feet propped against ridges in the boat’s sloshing bottom. Their captain sat in the stern with the rudder oar and a bailing bucket, his attention expertly divided between the two.
As the soaring, striking white cliffs of Britannia came closer, King Mandubracius, stiffly and proudly sitting in the bow, grew stiffer and prouder. He was going home, though he had been no further from it than the Belgic citadel of Samarobriva, where, like many other hostages, he had been detained until Caesar decided where to send him for safekeeping.
The Roman expeditionary force to Britannia had taken over a very long, sandy beach which at its back dwindled into the Cantii marshes; the battered ships—so many!—lay behind the sand, propped up on struts and surrounded by all the incredible defenses of a Roman field camp. Ditches, walls, palisades, breastworks, towers, redoubts that seemed to go on for miles.
The camp commander, Quintus Atrius, was waiting to take charge of the nails, the little red cylinder from Pompey, and King Mandubracius. There were still several hours of daylight left; the chariot of the sun was much slower in this part of the world than in Italia. Some Trinobantes were waiting, overjoyed to see their king, slapping him on the back and kissing him on the mouth, as was their custom. He and the little red cylinder from Pompey would start out at once, for it would take several days to reach Caesar. The horses were brought; the Trinobantes and a Roman prefect of cavalry mounted and rode off through the north gate, where five hundred Aeduan horse troopers swung to enclose them in the midst of a column five horses wide and a hundred long. The prefect kicked his mount to the column’s front, leaving the King and his noblemen free to talk among themselves.
“You can’t be sure they don’t speak something close enough to our tongue to understand,” said Mandubracius, sniffing the hot damp air with relish. It smelled of home.
“Caesar and Trogus do, but surely not the others,” said his cousin Trinobellunus.
“You can’t be sure,” the King repeated. “They’ve been in Gaul now for almost five years, and for most of that among the Belgae. They have women.”
“Whores! Camp followers!”
“Women are women. They talk endlessly, and the words sink in.”
The great forest of oak and beech which lay to the north of the Cantii marshes closed in until the rutted track over which the cavalry column rode grew dim in the distance; the Aedui troopers tensed, cocked their lances, patted their sabers, swung their small circular shields around. But then came a great clearing stubbled with the relics of wheat, the charred black bones of two or three houses standing stark against that tawny background.
“Did the Romans get the grain?” Mandubracius asked.
“In the lands of the Cantii, all of it.”
“And Cassivellaunus?”
“He burned what he couldn’t gather in. The Romans have been hungry north of the Tamesa.”
“How have we fared?”
“We have enough. What the Romans took, they’ve paid for.”
“Then we’d better see it’s what Cassivellaunus has in store that they eat next.”
Trinobellunus turned his head; in the long gold light of the clearing, the whorls and spirals of blue paint on his face and bare torso glowed eerily. “We gave our word that we’d help Caesar when we asked him to bring you back, but there is no honor in helping an enemy. We agreed among ourselves that it would be your decision, Mandubracius.”
The King of the Trinobantes laughed. “We help Caesar, of course! There’s a lot of Cassi land and Cassi cattle will come our way when Cassivellaunus goes down. We’ll turn the Romans to good use.”
The Roman prefect came back, horse dancing a little because the pace was easy and it was mettlesome. “Caesar left a good camp not far ahead,” he said in slow Atrebatan Belgic.
Mandubracius raised his brows at his cousin. “What did I tell you?” he asked. And to the Roman, “Is it intact?”
“All intact between here and the Tamesa.”
*
The Tamesa was the great river of Britannia, deep and wide and strong, but there was one place at the end of the tidal reaches where it could be forded. On its northern bank the lands of the Cassi began, but there were no Cassi to contest either the ford or the blackened fields beyond. Having crossed the Tamesa at dawn, the column rode on through rolling countryside where the hills were still tufted with groves of trees, but the lower land was either put to the plough or used for grazing. The column now bore east of north, and so, some forty miles from the river, came to the lands of the Trinobantes. Atop a good broad hill on the border between the Cassi and the Trinobantes stood Caesar’s camp, the last bastion of Rome in an alien land.
Mandubracius had never seen the Great Man; he had been sent as hostage at Caesar’s demand, but when he arrived at Samarobriva found that Caesar was in Italian Gaul across the Alps, an eternity away. Then Caesar had gone straight to Portus Itius, intending to sail at once. The summer had promised to be an unusually hot one, a good omen for crossing that treacherous strait. But things had not gone according to plan. The Treveri were making overtures to the Germans across the Rhenus, and the two Treveri magistrates, called vergobrets, were at loggerheads with each other. One, Cingetorix, thought it better to knuckle under to the dictates of Rome, whereas Indutiomarus thought a German-aided revolt just the solution with Caesar away in Britannia. Then Caesar himself had turned up with four legions in light marching order, moving as always faster than any Gaul could credit. The revolt never happened; the vergobrets were made to shake hands with each other; Caesar took more hostages, including the son of Indutiomarus, and then marched off back to Portus Itius and a minor gale out of the northwest that blew for twenty-five days without let. Dumnorix of the Aedui made trouble—and died for it—so, all in all, the Great Man was very crusty when his fleet finally set sail two months later than he had scheduled.
He was still crusty, as his legates well knew, but when he came to greet Mandubracius no one would have suspected it who did not come into contact with Caesar every day. Very tall for a Roman, he looked Mandubracius in the eye from the same height. But more slender, a very graceful man with the massive calf musculature all Romans seemed to own—it came of so much walking and marching, as the Romans always said. He wore a workmanlike leather cuirass and kilt of dangling leather straps, and was girt not with sword and dagger but with the scarlet sash of his high imperium ritually knotted and looped across the front of his cuirass. As fair as any Gaul! His pale gold hair was thin and combed forward from the crown, his brows equally pale, his skin weathered and creased to the color of old parchment. The mouth was full, sensuous and humorous, the nose long and bumpy. But all that one needed to know about Caesar, thought Mandubracius, was in his eyes: very pale blue ringed round with a thin band of jet, piercing. Not so much cold as omniscient. He knew, the King decided, exactly why aid would be forthcoming from the Trinobantes.
“I won’t welcome you to your own country, Mandubracius,” he said in good Atrebatan, “but I hope you will welcome me.”
“Gladly, Gaius Julius.”
At which the Great Man laughed, displaying good teeth. “No, just Caesar,” he said. “Everyone knows me as Caesar.”
And there was Commius suddenly at his side, grinning at Mandubracius, coming forward to whack him between the shoulder blades. But when Commius would have kissed his lips, Mandubracius turned his head just enough to deflect the salutation. Worm! Roman puppet! Caesar’s pet dog. King of the Atrebates but traitor to Gaul. Busy rushing round doing Caesar’s bidding: it had been Commius who recommended him as a suitable hostage, Commius who worked on all the Britannic kings to sow dissension and give Caesar his precious foothold.
The prefect of cavalry was there, holding out the little red leather cylinder which the captain of the pinnace had handled as reverently as if it had been a gift from the Roman Gods. “From Gaius Trebatius,” he said, saluted and stepped back, never taking his eyes from Caesar’s face.
By Dagda, how they love him! thought Mandubracius. It is true, what they say in Samarobriva. They would die for him. And he knows it, and he uses it. For he smiled at the prefect alone, and answered with the man’s name. The prefect would treasure the memory, and tell his grandchildren if he lived to see them. But Commius didn’t love Caesar, because no long-haired Gaul could love Caesar. The only man Commius loved was himself. What exactly was Commius after? A high kingship in Gaul the moment Caesar went back to Rome for good?
“We’ll meet later to dine and talk, Mandubracius,” said Caesar, lifted the little red cylinder in a farewell gesture, and walked away toward the stout leather tent standing on an artificial knoll within the camp, where the scarlet flag of the General fluttered at full mast.
*
The amenities inside the tent were little different from those to be found in a junior military tribune’s quarters: some folding stools, several folding tables, a rack of pigeonholes for scrolls which could be disassembled in moments. At one table sat the General’s private secretary, Gaius Faberius, head bent over a codex; Caesar had grown tired of having to occupy both his hands or a couple of paperweights to keep a scroll unfurled, and had taken to using single sheets of Fannian paper which he then directed be sewn along the left-hand side so that one flipped through the completed work, turning one sheet at a time. This he called a codex, swearing that more men would read what it contained than if it were unrolled. Then to make each sheet easier still to read, he divided it into three columns instead of writing clear across it. He had conceived it for his dispatches to the Senate, apostrophizing that body as a nest of semi-literate slugs, but slowly the convenient codex was coming to dominate all Caesar’s paperwork. However, it had a grave disadvantage which negated its potential to replace the scroll: upon hard use the sheets tore free of the stitching and were easily lost.
At another table sat his loyalest client, Aulus Hirtius. Of humble birth but considerable ability, Hirtius had pinned himself firmly to Caesar’s star. A small spry man, he combined a love for wading through mountains of paper with an equal love for combat and the exigencies of war. He ran Caesar’s office of Roman communications, made sure that the General knew everything going on in Rome even when he was forty miles north of the Tamesa River at the far western end of the world.
Both men looked up when the General entered, though neither essayed a smile. The General was very crusty. Though not, it seemed, at this moment, for he smiled at both of them and brandished the little red leather cylinder.
“A letter from Pompeius,” he said, going to the only truly beautiful piece of furniture in the room, the ivory curule chair of his high estate.
“You’ll know everything in it,” said Hirtius, smiling now.
“True,” said Caesar, breaking the seal and prising the lid off, “but Pompeius has his own style, I enjoy his letters. He’s not as brash and untutored as he used to be before he married my daughter, yet his style is still his own.” He inserted two fingers into the cylinder and brought forth Pompey’s scroll. “Ye Gods, it’s long!” he exclaimed, then bent to pick up a tube of paper from the wooden floor. “No, there are two letters.” He studied the outermost edges of both, grunted. “One written in Sextilis, one in September.”
Down went September on the table next to his curule chair, but he didn’t unroll Sextilis and begin to read; instead he lifted his chin and looked blindly through the tent flap, wide apart to admit plenty of light.
What am I doing here, contesting the possession of a few fields of wheat and some shaggy cattle with a blue-painted relic out of the verses of Homer? Who still rides into battle driven in a chariot with his mastiff dogs baying and his harper singing his praises?
Well, I know that. Because my dignitas dictated it, because last year this benighted place and its benighted people thought that they had driven Gaius Julius Caesar from their shores forever. Thought that they had beaten Caesar. I came back for no other reason than to show them that no one beats Caesar. And once I have wrung a submission and a treaty out of Cassivellaunus, I will quit this benighted place never to return. But they will remember me. I’ve given Cassivellaunus’s harper something new to carol. The coming of Rome, the vanishing of the chariots into the fabled Druidic west. Just as I will remain in Gaul of the Long-hairs until every man in it acknowledges me—and Rome—as his master. For I am Rome. And that is something my son-in-law, who is six years older than I, will never be. Guard your gates well, good Pompeius Magnus. You won’t be the First Man in Rome for much longer. Caesar is coming.
He sat, spine absolutely straight, right foot forward and left foot rucked beneath the X of the curule chair, and opened Pompey the Great’s letter marked Sextilis.
I hate to say it, Caesar, but there is still no sign of a curule election. Oh, Rome will continue to exist and even have a government of sorts, since we did manage to elect some tribunes of the plebs. What a circus that was! Cato got into the act. First he used his standing as a praetor member of the Plebs to block the plebeian elections, then he issued a stern warning in that braying voice of his that he was going to be scrutinizing every tablet a voter tossed into the baskets—and that if he found one candidate fiddling the results, he’d be prosecuting. Terrified the life out of the candidates!
Of course all of this stemmed out of the pact my idiotic nevvy Memmius made with Ahenobarbus. Never in the bribery-ridden history of our consular elections have so many bribes been given and taken by so many people! Cicero jokes that the amount of money which has changed hands is so staggering that it’s sent the interest rate soaring from four to eight percent. He’s not far wrong, joke though it is. I think Ahenobarbus, who is the consul supervising the elections—well, Appius Claudius can’t; he’s a patrician—thought that he could do as he liked. And what he likes is the idea of my nevvy Memmius and Domitius Calvinus as next year’s consuls. All that lot—Ahenobarbus, Cato, Bibulus—are still snuffling round like dogs in a field of turds trying to find a reason why they can prosecute you and take your provinces and command off you. Easier if they own the consuls as well as some militant tribunes of the plebs.
Best to finish the Cato story off first, I suppose. Well, as time went on and it began to look more and more as if we’ll have no consuls or praetors next year, it also became vital that at least we have the tribunes of the plebs. I mean, Rome can suffer through without the senior magistrates. As long as the Senate is there to control the purse strings and there are tribunes of the plebs to push the necessary laws through, who misses the consuls and praetors? Except when the consuls are you or me. That goes without saying.
In the end the candidates for the tribunate of the plebs went as a body to see Cato and begged that he withdraw his opposition. Honestly, Caesar, how does Cato get away with it? But they went further than mere begging. They made Cato an offer: each candidate would put up half a million sesterces (to be given to Cato to hold) if Cato would not only consent to the election’s being held, but personally supervise it! If Cato found a man guilty of tampering with the electoral process, then he would fine that man the half-million. Very pleased with himself, Cato agreed. Though he was too clever to take their money. He made them give him legally precise promissory notes so they couldn’t accuse him of embezzlement. Cunning, eh?
Polling day came at last, a mere three nundinae late, and there was Cato watching the activity like a hawk. You have to admit he has the nose to deserve that simile! He found one candidate at fault, ordered him to step down and pay up. Probably thinking that all of Rome would fall over in a swoon at the sight of so much incorruptibility. It didn’t happen that way. The leaders of the Plebs are livid. They’re saying it’s both unconstitutional and intolerable that a praetor should set himself up not as the judge in his own court, but as an undesignated electoral officer.
Those stalwarts of the business world, the knights, hate the very mention of Cato’s name, while Rome’s seething hordes deem him crazy, between his semi-nudity and his perpetual hangover. After all, he’s praetor in the extortion court! He’s trying people senior enough to have governed a province—people like Scaurus, the present husband of my ex-wife! A patrician of the oldest stock! But what does Cato do? Drags Scaurus’s trial out and out and out, too drunk to preside if the truth is known, and when he does turn up he has no shoes on, no tunic under his toga, and his eyeballs down on his cheeks. I understand that at the dawn of the Republic men didn’t wear shoes or tunics, but it’s news to me that those paragons of virtue pursued their Forum careers hung over.
I asked Publius Clodius to make Cato’s life a misery, and Clodius did try. But in the end he gave up, came and told me that if I really wanted to get under Cato’s skin, I’d have to bring Caesar back from Gaul.
Last April, shortly after Publius Clodius came home from his debt-collecting trip to Galatia, he bought Scaurus’s house for fourteen and a half million!. Real estate prices are as fanciful as a Vestal wondering what it would be like to do it. You can get half a million for a cupboard with a chamber pot. But Scaurus needed the money desperately. He’s been poor ever since the games he threw when he was aedile—and when he tried to pop a bit in his purse from his province last year, he wound up in Cato’s court. Where he is likely to be until Cato goes out of office, things go so slow in Cato’s court.
On the other hand, Publius Clodius is oozing money. Of course he had to find another house, I do see that. When Cicero rebuilt, he built so tall that Publius Clodius lost his view. Some sort of revenge, eh? Mind you, Cicero’s palace is a monument to bad taste. And to think he had the gall to liken the nice little villa I tacked onto the back of my theater complex to a dinghy behind a yacht!
What it does show is that Publius Clodius got his money out of Prince Brogitarus. Nothing beats collecting in person. It is such a relief these days not to be Clodius’s target. I never thought I’d survive those years just after you left for Gaul, when Clodius and his street gangs ran me ragged. I hardly dared go out of my house. Though it was a mistake to employ Milo to run street gangs in opposition to Clodius. It gave Milo big ideas. Oh, I know he’s an Annius—by adoption, anyway—but he’s like his name, a burly oaf fit to lift anvils and not much else.
Do you know what he did? Came and asked me to back him when he runs for consul! “My dear Milo,” I said, “I can’t do that! It would be admitting that you and your street gangs worked for me!” He said he and his street gangs had worked for me, and what was the matter with that? I had to get quite gruff with him before he’d go away.
I’m glad Cicero got your man Varinius off—how Cato as court president must have hated that! I do believe that Cato would go to Hades and lop off one of Cerberus’s heads if he thought that would put you in the boiling soup. The odd thing about Vatinius’s trial is that Cicero used to loathe him—oh, you should have heard the Great Advocate complain about owing you millions and having to defend your creatures! But as they huddled together during the trial, something happened. They ended up like two little girls who’ve just met at school and can’t live without each other. A strange couple, but it’s really rather nice to see them giggling together. They’re both brilliantly witty, so they hone each other.
We’re having the hottest summer here that anyone can remember, and no rain either. The farmers are in a bad way. And those selfish bastards at Interamna decided they’d dig a channel to drain the Veline lake into the river Nar and have the water to irrigate their fields. The trouble is that the Rosea Rura dried out the moment the Veline lake emptied—can you imagine it? Italia’s richest grazing land utterly devastated! Old Axius of Reate came to see me and demanded that the Senate order the Interamnans to fill the channel up, so I’m going to take it to the House, and if necessary I’ll have one of my tribunes of the plebs push it into law. I mean, you and I are both military men, so we understand the importance of the Rosea Rura to Rome’s armies. What other place can breed such perfect mules—or so many of them? Drought’s one thing, but the Rosea Rura is quite another. Rome needs mules. But Interamna is full of asses.
Now I come to a very peculiar thing. Catullus has just died.
Caesar emitted a muffled exclamation; Hirtius and Faberius both glanced at him, but when they saw the expression on his face their heads went back to their work immediately. When the mist cleared from before his eyes, he went back to the letter.
There’s probably word of it from his father waiting for you back in Portus Itius, but I thought you’d like to know. I don’t think Catullus was the same after Clodia threw him over—what did Cicero call her at Caelius’s trial? “The Medea of the Palatine.” Not bad. Yet I like “the Bargain-Priced Clytemnestra” better. I wonder did she kill Celer in his bath? That’s what they all say.
I know you were furious when Catullus began writing those wickedly apt lampoons about you after you appointed Mamurra as your new praefectus fabrum—even Julia allowed herself a giggle or two when she read them, and you have no loyaler adherent than Julia. She said that what Catullus couldn’t forgive you was that you had elevated a very bad poet above his station. And that Catullus’s term as a sort of a legate with my nevvy Memmius when he went out to govern Bithynia left his purse emptier than it had been before he set out dreaming of vast riches. Catullus ought to have asked me. I would have told him Memmius is tighter than a fish’s anus. Whereas your most junior military tribunes are rewarded lavishly.
I know you dealt with the situation—when do you not? Lucky that his tata is such a good friend of yours, eh? He sent for Catullus, Catullus came to Verona, tata said be nice to my friend Caesar, Catullus apologized, and then you charmed the toga off the poor young fellow. I don’t know how you do that. Julia says it’s inborn. Anyway, Catullus came back to Rome, and there were no more lampoons about Caesar. But Catullus had changed. I saw it for myself because Julia surrounds herself with all these poet and playwright people, and I must say they’re good company. Had no fire left, seemed so tired and sad. He didn’t commit suicide. He just went out like a lamp that’s drunk all its oil.
Like a lamp that’s drunk all its oil… The words on the paper were blurred again; Caesar had to wait until his unshed tears went away.
I ought not to have done it. He was so vulnerable, and I traded on that fact. He loved his father, and he was a good son. He obeyed. I thought I’d smoothed balm on the wound by having him to dinner and demonstrating not only the breadth of my knowledge of his work, but the depth of my literary appreciation for it. We had such a pleasant dinner. He was so formidably intelligent, and I love that. Yet I ought not to have done it. I killed his animus, his reason for being. Only how could I not? He left me no choice. Caesar can’t be held up to ridicule, even by the finest poet in the history of Rome. He diminished my dignitas, my personal share of Roman glory. Because his work will last. Better he should never have mentioned me at all than to hold me up to public ridicule. And all for the sake of carrion like Mamurra. A shocking poet and a bad man. But he will make an excellent purveyor of supplies for my army, and Ventidius the muleteer will keep an eye on him.
The tears had gone; reason had asserted itself. He could resume his reading.
I wish I could say that Julia is well, but the truth is that she’s poorly. I told her there was no need to have children—I have two fine sons by Mucia, and my girl by her is thriving married to Faustus Sulla. He’s just entered the Senate—good young fellow. Doesn’t remind me in the least of Sulla, though. That’s probably a good thing.
But women do get these gnats in their minds about babies. So Julia’s well on the way, about six months. Never been right since that awful miscarriage she had when I was running for consul. The dearest girl, my Julia! What a treasure you gave me, Caesar. I’ll never cease to be grateful. And of course her health was really why I switched provinces with Crassus. I’d have had to go to Syria myself, whereas I can govern the Spains from Rome and Julia’s side through legates. Afranius and Petreius are absolutely reliable, don’t fart unless I tell them they can.
Speaking of my estimable consular colleague (though I do admit I got on a lot better with him during our second than our first consulship together), I wonder how Crassus is doing out there in Syria. I have heard that he pinched two thousand talents of gold from the great temple of the Jews in Hierosolyma. Oh, what can you do with a man whose nose can actually smell gold? I was in that great temple once. It terrified me. Not if it had held all the gold in the world would I have pinched as much as one sow of it.
The Jews have formally cursed him. And he was formally cursed right in the middle of the Capena Gate when he left Rome on the Ides of last November. By Ateius Capito, the tribune of the plebs. Capita sat down in Crassus’s path and refused to move, chanting these hair-raising curses. I had to get my lictors to shift him. All I can say is that Crassus is storing up a mighty load of ill will. Nor am I convinced that he has any idea how much trouble a foe like the Parthians will give him. He still thinks a Parthian cataphract is the same as an Armenian cataphract. Though he’s only ever seen a drawing of a cataphract. Man and horse both clad in chain mail from head to heels. Brrrr!
I saw your mother the other day. She came to dinner. What a wonderful woman! Not least because she’s so sensible. Still ravishingly beautiful, though she told me she’s past seventy now. Doesn’t look a day over forty-five. Easy to tell where Julia gets her beauty from. Aurelia’s worried about Julia too, and your mama’s not usually the clucking kind. As you know.
Suddenly Caesar began to laugh. Hirtius and Faberius jumped, startled; it had been a long time since they’d heard their crusty General laugh so joyously.
“Oh, listen to this!” he cried, looking up from the scroll. “No one’s sent you this item in a dispatch, Hirtius!”
He bent his head and began to read aloud, a minor miracle to his listeners, for Caesar was the only man either of them knew who could read the continuous squiggles on a piece of paper at first glance.
“ ‘And now,’ ” he said, voice trembling with mirth, ” ‘I have to tell you about Cato and Hortensius. Well, Hortensius isn’t as young as he used to be, and he’s gone a bit the way Lucullus did before he died. Too much exotic food, unwatered vintage wine and peculiar substances like Anatolian poppies and African mushrooms. Oh, we still put up with him in the courts, but he’s a long way past his prime as an advocate. What would he be now? Pushing seventy? He came late to his praetorship and consulship by quite a few years, as I remember. Never forgave my postponing his consulship by yet another year when I became consul at the age of thirty-six.
“ ‘Anyway, he thought Cato’s performance at the tribunician election was the greatest victory for the mos maiorum since Lucius Junius Brutus— why do we always forget Valerius?—had the honor of founding the Republic. So Hortensius toddled around to see Cato and asked to marry his daughter, Porcia. Lutatia had been dead for several years, he said, and he hadn’t thought to marry again until he saw Cato dealing with the Plebs. That night after the election he had a dream, he said, in which Jupiter Optimus Maximus appeared to him and told him that he must ally himself with Marcus Cato through a marriage.
“ ‘Naturally Cato couldn’t say yes, not after the fuss he created when I married Julia, aged seventeen. Porcia’s not even that old. Besides which, Cato’s always wanted his nevvy Brutus for her. I mean, Hortensius is rolling in wealth, but it can’t compare to Brutus’s fortune, now can it? So Cato said no, Hortensius couldn’t marry Porcia. Hortensius then asked if he could marry one of the Domitias—how many ugly freckledy girls with hair like bonfires have Ahenobarbus and Cato’s sister had? Two? Three? Four? Doesn’t matter, because Cato said not a chance of that either! ”
Caesar looked up, eyes dancing.
“I don’t know where this story is going, but I’m riveted,” said Hirtius, grinning broadly.
“Nor do I yet,” said Caesar, and went back to reading. ” ‘Hortensius tottered away supported by his slaves, a broken man. But the next day he was back, with a brilliant idea. Since he couldn’t marry Porcia or one of the Domitias, he said, could he marry Cato’s wife?’ ”
Hirtius gasped. “Marcia? Philippus’s daughter?”
“That is who Cato’s married to,” said Caesar solemnly.
“Your niece is married to Philippus, isn’t she? Atia?”
“Yes. Philippus was great friends with Atia’s first husband, Gaius Octavius. So after the mourning period was over, he married her. Since she came with a stepdaughter as well as a daughter and a son of her own, I imagine Philippus was happy to part with Marcia. He said he gave her to Cato so he’d have a foot in both my camp and the camp of the boni,” said Caesar, wiping his eyes.
“Read on,” said Hirtius. “I can’t wait.”
Caesar read on. ” ‘And Cato said YES! Honestly, Caesar, Cato said yes! He agreed to divorce Marcia and allow her to marry Hortensius— provided, that is, that Philippus said yes too. Off the pair of them went to Philippus’s house to ask him if he’d consent to Cato’s divorcing his daughter so she could marry Quintus Hortensius and make an old man happy. Philippus scratched his chin and said YES! Provided, that is, that Cato was willing personally to give the bride away! It was all done as quick as you can say a phrase like “many millions of sesterces.” Cato divorced Marcia and personally gave her to Hortensius at the wedding ceremony. The whole of Rome is flat on the floor! I mean, things happen every day that are so bizarre you know they have to be true, but the Cato-Marcia-Hortensius-Philippus affair is unique in the annals of Roman scandal, you have to admit that. Everybody—including me!—thinks Hortensius paid Cato and Philippus half of his fortune, though Cato and Philippus are denying it vigorously! ”
Caesar put the scroll on his lap and wiped his eyes again, shaking his head.
“Poor Marcia,” said Faberius softly.
The other two looked at him, astonished.
“I never thought of that,” said Caesar.
“She might be a shrew,” said Hirtius.
“No, I don’t think she is,” Caesar said, frowning. “I’ve seen her, though not since she came of age. Near enough to it, thirteen or fourteen. Very dark, like all that family, but very pretty. A sweet little thing, according to Julia and my mother. Quite besotted with Cato—and he with her, so Philippus wrote at the time. Around about the moment I was sitting in Luca with Pompeius and Marcus Crassus, organizing the preservation of my command and my provinces. She’d been betrothed to a Cornelius Lentulus, but the fellow died. Then Cato came back from annexing Cyprus with two thousand chests of gold and silver, and Philippus—who was consul that year—had him to dinner. Marcia and Cato took one look at each other and that was that. Cato asked for her, which caused a bit of a family ruction. Atia was horrified at the idea, but Philippus thought it might be smart to sit on the fence—married to my niece, father-in-law of my greatest enemy.” Caesar shrugged. “Philippus won.”
“Cato and Marcia went sour, then,” said Hirtius.
“No, apparently not. That’s why all of Rome is flat on the floor, to use Pompeius’s phrase.”
“Then why?” asked Faberius.
Caesar grinned, but it was not a pleasant thing to see. “If I know my Cato—and I think I do—I’d say he couldn’t bear to be happy, and deemed his passion for Marcia a weakness.”
“Poor Cato!” said Faberius.
“Humph!” said Caesar, and returned to Sextilis.
And that, Caesar, is all for the moment. I was very sorry to hear that Quintus Laberius Durus was killed almost as soon as he landed in Britannia. What superb dispatches you send us!
He put Sextilis on the table and picked up September, a smaller scroll. Opening it, he frowned; some of the words were smeared and stained, as if water had been spilled on them before the ink had settled comfortably into the papyrus.
The atmosphere in the room changed, as if the late sun, still shining brilliantly outside, had suddenly gone in. Hirtius looked up, his flesh crawling; Faberius began to shiver.
Caesar’s head was still bent over Pompey’s second letter, but all of him was immensely still, frozen; the eyes, which neither man could see, were frozen too—they would both have sworn to it.
“Leave me,” said Caesar in a normal voice.
Without a word Hirtius and Faberius got up and slipped out of the tent, their pens, dribbling ink, abandoned on their papers.
Oh, Caesar, how can I bear it? Julia is dead. My wonderful, beautiful, sweet little girl is dead. Dead at the age of twenty-two. I closed her eyes and put the coins on them; I put the gold denarius between her lips to make sure she had the best seat in Charon’s ferry.
She died trying to bear me a son. Just seven months gone, and no warning of what was to come. Except that she had been poorly. Never complained, but I could tell. Then she went into labor and produced the child. A boy who lived for two days, so he outlived his mother. She bled to death. Nothing stopped that flood. An awful way to go! Conscious almost until the last, just growing weaker and whiter, and she so fair to start with. Talking to me and to Aurelia, always talking. Remembering she hadn’t done this, and making me promise I’d do that. Silly things, like hanging the fleabane up to dry, though that is still months away. Telling me over and over again how much she loved me, had loved me since she was a little girl. How happy I had made her. Not one moment of pain, she said. How could she say that, Caesar? I’d made the pain that killed her, that scrawny skinned-looking thing. But I’m glad he died. The world would never be ready for a man with your blood and mine in him. He would have crushed it like a cockroach.
She haunts me. I weep, and weep, and still there are more tears. The last part of her to let go of life was her eyes, so huge and blue. Full of love. Oh, Caesar, how can I bear it? Six little years. I’m fifty-two in a few days, yet all I had of her was six little years. I’d planned that she’d let go of me. I didn’t dream it would be the other way around, and so soon. Oh, it would have been too soon if we’d been married for twenty-six years! Oh, Caesar, the pain of it! I wish it had been me, but she made me swear a solemn oath that I’d not follow her. I’m doomed to live. But how? How can I live? I remember her! How she looked, how she sounded, how she smelled, how she felt, how she tasted. She rings inside me like a lyre.
But this is no good. I can’t see to write, and it’s my place to tell you everything. I know they’ll send this on to you in Britannia. I got your middle Cotta uncle’s son, Marcus—he’s a praetor this year—to call the Senate into session, and I asked the Conscript Fathers to vote my dead girl a State funeral. But that mentula, that cunnus Ahenobarbus wouldn’t hear of it. With Cato neighing nays behind him on the curule dais. Women didn’t have State funerals; to grant my Julia one would be to desecrate the State. They had to hold me back, I would have killed that verpa Ahenobarbus with my bare hands if I could have laid them on him. They still twitch at the thought of wrapping themselves around his throat. It’s said that the House never goes against the will of the senior consul, but the House did. The vote was almost unanimously for a State funeral.
She had the best of everything, Caesar. The undertakers did their job with love. Well, she was so beautiful, even drained to the color of chalk. So they tinted her skin and did those great masses of silvery hair in the high style she liked, with the jeweled comb I gave her on her twenty-second birthday. By the time she sat at her ease amid the black and gold cushions on her bier, she looked like a goddess. No need with my girl to shove her in the secret compartment below and put a dummy on display. I had her dressed in her favorite lavender blue, the same color she was wearing the first time I ever set eyes on her and thought she was Diana of the Night.
The parade of her ancestors was more imposing than any Roman man’s. I had Corinna the mime in the leading chariot, wearing a mask of Julia’s face—I had Venus in my temple of Venus Victrix at the top of my theater done with Julia’s face. Corinna wore Venus’s golden dress too. They were all there, from the first Julian consul to Quintus Marcius Rex and Cinna. Forty ancestral chariots, every horse as black as obsidian.
I was there, even though I’m not supposed to cross the pomerium into the city. I informed the lictors of the thirty Curiae that for this day I was assuming the special imperium of my grain duties, which did permit me to cross the sacred boundary before I accepted my provinces. I think Ahenobarbus was a frightened man. He didn’t put any obstacle in my way.
What frightened him? The size of the crowds in the Forum. Caesar, I’ve never seen anything like it. Not for a funeral, even Sulla’s. They came to gape at Sulla. But they came to weep for my Julia. Thousands upon thousands of them. Just ordinary people. Aurelia says it’s because Julia grew up in the Subura, among them. They adored her then. And they still do. So many Jews! I didn’t know Rome had them in such numbers. Unmistakable, with their long curled hair and their long curled beards. Of course you were good to them when you were consul. You grew up among them too, I know. Though Aurelia insists that they came to mourn Julia for her own sake.
I ended in asking Servius Sulpicius Rufus to give the eulogy from the rostra. I didn’t know whom you would have preferred, but I wanted a really great speaker. Yet somehow I couldn’t, when it came down to it, nerve myself to ask Cicero. Oh, he would have done it! For me if not for you. But I didn’t think his heart would have been in it. He can never resist the chance to act. Whereas Servius is a sincere man, a patrician, and a better orator than Cicero when the subject’s not politics or perfidy.
Not that it mattered. The eulogy was never given. Everything went exactly according to schedule from our house on the Carinae down into the Forum. The forty ancestral chariots were greeted with absolute awe; all you could hear was the sound of thousands weeping. Then when Julia on her bier came past the Regia into the open space of the lower Forum, everyone gasped, choked, began to scream. I’ve been less frightened at barbarian ululations on a battlefield than I was at those bloodcurdling screams. The crowd surged, rushed at the bier. No one could stop them. Ahenobarbus and some of the tribunes of the plebs tried, but they were shoved aside like leaves in a flood. The next thing, the people had carried the bier to the very center of the open space. They began piling up all kinds of things onto a pyre—their shoes, papers, bits of wood. The stuff kept coming from the back of the crowd overhead—I don’t even know where they got it from.
They burned her right there in the Forum Romanum, with Ahenobarbus having an apoplectic fit on the Senate steps and Servius aghast on the rostra, where the actors had fled to huddle like barbarian women when they know that the legions are going to cut them down. There were empty chariots and bolting horses all over Rome, and the chief mourners had gotten no further than Vesta, where we stood helpless.
But that wasn’t the end of it by any means. There were leaders of the Plebs in the crowd too, and they went to beard Ahenobarbus on the Senate steps. Julia, they said, was to have her ashes placed in a tomb on the Campus Martius, among the heroes. Cato was with Ahenobarbus. They defied this deputation. No, no! Women were never interred on the Campus Martius! Over their dead bodies would it happen! I really did think Ahenobarbus would have a stroke. But the crowd kept gathering until finally Ahenobarbus and Cato realized that it would be their dead bodies unless they yielded. They had to swear an oath.
So my dear little girl is to have a tomb on the sward of the Campus Martius among the heroes. I haven’t been able to control my grief enough to set it in train, but I will. The most magnificent tomb there, you have my word on it. The worst of it is that the Senate has forbidden funeral games in her honor. No one trusts the crowd to behave.
I have done my duty. I have told it all. Your mother took it very hard, Caesar. I remember I said she didn’t look a day over forty-five. But now she looks her full seventy years. The Vestal Virgins are caring for her—your little wife Calpurnia is too. She’ll miss Julia. They were good friends. Oh, here are the tears again. I have wept an ocean. My girl is gone forever. How can I bear it?
How can I bear it? The sheer shock left Caesar dry-eyed. Julia? How can I bear it?
How can I bear it? My one chick, my perfect pearl. I am not long turned forty-six, and my daughter is dead in childbirth. That was how her mother died, trying to bear me a son. What circles the world goes in! Oh, Mater, how can I face you when the time comes for me to return to Rome? How can I face the condolences, the trial of strength which must come after the death of a beloved child? They will all want to commiserate, and they will all be sincere. But how can I bear it? To turn upon them a gaze wounded to the quick, show them my pain—I cannot do it. My pain is mine. It belongs to no one else. No one else should see it. I haven’t set eyes on my child for five years, and now I will never set eyes on her again. I can hardly remember what she looked like. Except that she never gave me the slightest pain or heartache. Well, that’s what they say. Only the good die young. Only the perfect are never marred by age or soured by a long life. Oh, Julia! How can I bear it?
He got up from the curule chair, though he didn’t feel the movement in his legs. Sextilis still lay on the table. September still lay in his hand. Through the flap of the tent, out into the disciplined busyness of a camp on the edge of nowhere at the end of all things. His face was serene, and his eyes when they met those belonging to Aulus Hirtius, loitering purposefully just beyond the flagpole, were Caesar’s eyes. Cool rather than cold. Omniscient, as Mandubracius had observed.
“Everything all right, Caesar?” Hirtius asked, straightening.
Caesar smiled pleasantly. “Yes, Hirtius, everything is all right.” He put his left hand up to shade his brow and looked toward the setting sun. “It’s past dinnertime, and there’s King Mandubracius to fete. We can’t have these Britons thinking we’re churlish hosts. Especially when we’re serving them their food. Would you get things started? I’ll be there soon.”
He turned left to the open space of the camp forum adjoining his command tent, and there found a young legionary, obviously on punishment detail, raking the smoldering remains of a fire. When the soldier saw the General approaching he raked harder, vowed that never again would he be found at fault on parade. But he had never seen Caesar close up, so when the tall figure bore down on him, he paused for a moment to take a good look. Whereupon the General smiled!
“Don’t put it out completely, lad; I need one live coal,” Caesar said in the broad, slangy Latin of the ranker soldiers. “What did you do to earn this job in such stinking hot weather?”
“Didn’t get the strap on my helmet fixed, General.”
Caesar bent, a little scroll in his right hand, and held its corner against a smoking chunk of wood still faintly glowing. It caught; Caesar straightened and kept his fingers on the paper until the flames licked round them. Only when it disintegrated to airy black flakes did he let it go.
“Never neglect your gear, soldier; it’s all that stands between you and a Cassi spear.” He turned to walk back to the command tent, but threw over his shoulder, laughing, “No, not quite all, soldier! There are your valor and your Roman mind. They’re what really win for you. However, a helmet firmly on your noddle does keep that Roman mind intact!”
Fire forgotten, the young legionary stared after the General with his jaw dropped. What a man! He’d talked as if to a person! So soft-spoken. And had all the jargon right. But he’d never served in the ranks, surely! How did he know? Grinning, the soldier finished raking furiously, then stamped on the ashes. The General knew, just as he knew the name of every centurion in his army. He was Caesar.