24

WHEN I OPENED my eyes it was a few minutes before noon. I picked myself up off the floor and walked straight into the shower. I turned the water on full force, paying no attention to the HOT or COLD. I dealt with whatever came—the freezing and scalding ribbons of water.

It was the strongest shower I’d ever felt in my life. Without moving a muscle, I let the powerful stream pour over my head. It ran across my eyelids and down the corners of my mouth. I stood there for a long time, letting it soak into every part of me. All at once, I felt clean enough to move on, to face anything.

I found a shirt and pants that fit from the boxes of clothing Papi had sent. I wouldn’t even waste my time at a mirror. Then I went out into the living room. Neither Gabriel nor Luis was anywhere to be seen. Uncle Ramon was seated in the kitchen. He was on the cell phone that Papi’s lawyer had left him. At first, I figured that’s who he was talking to. But just before he ended the call, Uncle Ramon said, “I can’t wait to see you again either.”

My uncle put the cell down on a granite countertop as his eyes met mine.

“Was that Papi?” I asked.

Uncle Ramon nodded in response. Then there was a long silence, and I could sense the weight he was suddenly carrying—much heavier than not putting me on the phone with my father. And there was a look in his eyes, one that seemed to say, I was wrong about a lot of things.

That’s when I understood that Uncle Ramon knew.

“What’s his son’s name?” I asked, in a tone that probably sounded like an accusation. “And don’t tell me it’s Julio.”

My uncle appeared absolutely stunned.

“You knew?” he asked, from the opposite side of the counter. “How?”

“The transistor.”

After a moment, Uncle Ramon said, “Milo. He’s named for your grandfather.”

“And that’s the reason we’re here in this apartment? So we don’t intrude on his new life?” I said.

“I can’t say that for sure,” said Uncle Ramon. “It sounds too harsh.”

“Does it? Why didn’t he talk to me? Were you supposed to break the news about this instead of him?”

“No. My brother said he wanted to tell you himself, in person.”

“Well, it’s too late for that, isn’t it?”

“Your papi says he’ll be here as soon as the Series is finished.”

“And maybe I won’t be,” I said, before walking out the apartment door.

I didn’t know where I was going. I didn’t have money, food, or a phone. I decided to stay clear of that guard in the little booth out front. So I started wandering between the buildings of the complex for a while. I walked off a lot of frustration in the midday heat, before finally settling in the shade of a palm tree behind some shrubs. I was about forty yards from the pool, where it looked like Gabriel was giving Luis a swimming lesson.

At my feet, I saw a small green lizard with a long tail. As it moved from the leaves of the shrub to the trunk of the palm, its bright color began to fade. Given enough time, I suppose the lizard’s scaly skin might have turned brown to match. But before it ever did, I kicked at the surrounding dirt, sending that lizard scurrying in another direction.

I didn’t remember much about my grandfather. I was only five or six when he died. If Uncle Ramon hadn’t told me his first name, I probably would have been hard-pressed to recall it. I knew that he loved baseball, too, yelling words at umpires that Mama would never let me repeat. And he was always trying to feed me hot peppers, to see how much I could take before I screamed for a glass of water.

Off to the side of me, there was a big patch of grass. A mother walked past with her two little boys. She was headed toward the pool in a terry cloth robe. But her kids had on baseball caps and were carrying a yellow plastic bat and a white Wiffle ball. The two of them started running around that open space, chasing each other in circles. Then the one with the ball began pitching. The other kid knew how to swing all right. Only his hands were too far apart on the bat, and he was nearly corkscrewing himself into the ground. So I walked over to where they were playing. They saw me coming and froze up a little bit.

In English, I asked them, “Brothers?”

They smiled wide and said, “Yes.”

I reached out for the yellow bat and the kid gave it to me.

Pushing my hands close together on its narrow neck, I said, “This way.”

I took a swing. The bat sliced through the air with a whoosh, and both kids seemed really impressed. Then I handed the bat back. On the next pitch, the kid swung with his hands in the right position. He blasted one over his brother’s head and started running a diamond shape around imaginary bases.

Their mother noticed me. It looked like she was about to walk over, probably to find out who I was. Only Gabriel, who was out of the pool now, said something to her first. After that, she sent a little wave in my direction instead. Then she settled back into her lounge chair.

Those kids seemed to be having the time of their lives. It wasn’t even real baseball. But that didn’t matter. They were laughing and smiling at everything they did. That’s how I used to feel about baseball—before Papi defected, before Moyano tried to run my life, and before the World Series became more important to Papi than me. And suddenly, I was jealous of those two kids just learning to play.

I looked up and Luis and Gabriel were almost right on top of me.

“One more lesson and I should be swimming like a fish,” said Luis, standing barefoot on the grass in his trunks, drying himself with a towel. “I want to look good on the beach. No more being bait, with a rope tied around my waist.”

“I didn’t know you were a teacher, too,” I told Gabriel.

“Not me,” he said, leading us back toward the apartment. “I’m a student, always learning.”

“I’d like to be a teacher one day,” said Luis, already grinning at some joke that was coming.

“Why’s that?” I asked, as if I was grooving him a pitch at batting practice.

“So I could get one of those books with all the answers in it,” he said proudly.

“I’m right behind you on that,” I said, pulling the towel from his hands and snapping it at his butt cheeks.

Just as we got back, a delivery man was coming down the apartment stairs.

Uncle Ramon was still at the door and said, “Now we have a refrigerator full of food. And right before that, a messenger came and left an envelope.”

“Maybe there are tickets for tonight’s game in it,” said Luis excitedly.

“Gabriel’s name is on the envelope,” said Uncle Ramon, pointing to the counter where it sat. “If there are tickets inside, he’d have to invite us.”

“Open it, please,” said Luis.

Picking it up, Gabriel seemed to weigh it in his palm. Then he slowly ripped the envelope’s edge from top to bottom, before blowing inside to make it open. From over Gabriel’s shoulder, I caught a glimpse of the check he pulled out. I didn’t see the exact amount. And I didn’t care. But there were enough zeros to end any money worries Gabriel might ever have.

“I take it you won’t be sleeping on the couch tonight,” Uncle Ramon said to Gabriel.

“I told you I wasn’t leaving until my job here was done,” he said, sliding the check back inside the envelope. “And Luis needs another swimming lesson.”

Over the next few hours, I realized that we had plenty of food, but no cash, and no car. That was probably the way Papi wanted it, with his new family sitting behind the dugout at Marlins Park and us anchored to this apartment, watching on a flat-screen TV.

From the living room window, I could see the top of the stadium. I tried hard not to look at it, or even acknowledge it was there. But when the sun went down and a halo of lights glowed around its crown, I could barely take my eyes off of it.