In the worst phase, I know
Each desperate word
Is only a handhold
And there’s a sheer fall below.
In the other, the pressure’s
Suddenly gone,
And I stroll along
As calm phrases unfold;
Soon, I’ve become deluded—
My guard’s down
And I’m convinced
It will always be like this:
A steady catalogue
Of my hard-earned bliss.
That’s when it opens
Beneath my feet—recurrent abyss.