| LIST 83 | 19 Suicide Notes |
I admit to a fascination with suicide notes. Obviously, they're a goldmine for trying to get insight into why people take their own lives and, thus, how we might be able to prevent it. In a completely different vein, writing a note is one of the last acts of a person about to willingly go into the great beyond, and it is a creative act—a final burst of thought, self-expression, communication before leaving this vale of tears forever. In some senses, these notes form an unrecognized genre of literature. Below are quotes taken from actual suicide notes.
1
Female, 21-years-old. “I don't want you to think I would kill myself over you because you're not worth any emotion at all. It is what you cost me that hurts and nothing can replace it.”
2
Male, 51. “Though I am about to kick the bucket I am as happy as ever. I am tired of this life so am going over to see the other side.”
3
Male, 48. “Imagine God playing a dirty trick on me like another life!!! I've lived 47 years—there aren't 47 days I would live over again if I could avoid it….
“Will you see Valerie through college—she is the only one about whom I am concerned as this .38 whispers in my ear.”
4
Male, 45. “My darling, May her guts rot in hell—I loved her so much.” (This is the entire note.)
5
Male, 74. “I married the wrong nag-nag-nag and I lost my life.”
6
Female, 52. “I'm so tired and lonely. There goes a siren. Oh how can I stand being left. I need to go to a Dr. but I am afraid. I'm so cold.”?
7
Female, 31. “My boss, Kenneth J., seduced me and made me pregnant. He refuses to help me. I had not had intercourse in two years. He says that I will have to suffer through it by myself.”
8
Male. “I love you you stupid head.”
9
Male. “God I don't know why in the hell it has taken me all these years to be able to tell you I love you. You needed this all this time. My heart is puring out for you now. I can only hope its not to late.”
Female. “The negatives of all the pictures I took in Germany and Holland (for 10 years) are in the large metal box on the shelf; the prints themselves are in one of the soft sided bags on the shelf in the closet.”
11
Male. “Bury or Burn me as cheap as possible I don't care where.”
12
Male. “Buy a Steak, Dope, Booze and go out with a BANG! (And see a couple of ladies first!!!)
“Discussion closed!————”
13
Female. “Don't let the kids in the bedroom I'm dead.”
14
Male. “If your interested you are welcome to what ever you want in the garage.”
15
Male. “The grass is greener on the other side.”
16
Female. “I don't want those assholes Jane & Joe to get my car.”
17
Male. “I am tired of failing. If I can do this I will succeed.”
18
Male. “What a rotten sham to pull. It's too bad I don't have enough personality to be ashamed of myself.”
19
Female. “The Art of Listening Be Patient—listen to the whole question Don't start thing @ your response Listen to Nature/God Listen” 