Captions and Credits

All pictures not credited are from the collection of the author.

LC: Library of Congress; LGC: Lester Glassner Collection; VVC: Vincent Virga Collection

Frontispiece: “Jimmy, New York City, 1982,” by George Haas, courtesy of the artist

I. Origination

Background image: New York City at Night, LC

Foreground images, clockwise from far left:

Author’s confirmation picture, 1952

“440,” mixed media, 7’ x 70’ (detail), 2000, by Darragh Park, courtesy of the artist

Author with friends at high school dance, 1957

Ljuba Welitsch as Richard Strauss’s Salome, 1951, VVC

Eve Harrington (Anne Baxter) and Margo Channing (Bette Davis), from Mankiewicz’s All About Eve, 1950, frame enlargement, LGC

Author’s father, 1928

II. Investigations

Background image: map of Greenwich Village, LC

Foreground images, clockwise from far left:

Tallulah Bankhead, by Carl Van Vechten, 1934, LC

“Soldier Asleep on Greyhound Bus,” by Esther Bubley, 1943, LC

The two faces of Kim Novak in Hitchcock’s Vertigo, frame enlargements, LC

The Hotel Astor, LC

Carnegie Hall, United Artists, 1947, movie poster, LC

A Star Is Born, Warner Bros., 1954, movie poster, LC

“Shubert Alley,” by Lester Glassner, 1953, courtesy of the artist

III. Breaking Out

Background Image: “Couple on Fire Island,” by Jarry Lang, 1965, VVC

Foreground images, clockwise from far left:

Harry Blair

Author with friend and mother at opening of Metropolitan Opera, 1963

Diane DeVors, by Jarry Lang, 1964, VVC

From Drags to Riches, program, Cherry Grove Playhouse, 1964, VVC

Dixie, 1964

Everard Baths, New York City, advertisement

Partisan Review, Fall 1964

IV. Expatriates

Background image, right: Author’s letter from London, 1969

Background image, left: Piccadilly Circus, London, LC

Foreground images, clockwise from far left:

Author in London, 1970

Author (center) with Vincent Virga (left) and friends in London, 1970

Svetlana Beriosova in Ashton/Walton’s Facade, VVC

Author’s letter from London, 1970

Victoria de los Angeles as Massenet’s Manon, courtesy Xavier Vivanco

Jacqueline Du Pré, LC

V. Return Engagements

Background image: New York City subway map, LC

Foreground images, clockwise from far left:

“David with the Head of Goliath,” by Caravaggio, Borghese Gallery, Rome, courtesy of Matthew Fink

Herman Melville, LC

Tennessee Williams, LC

Maria Callas and Luchino Visconti in rehearsal, La Scala, Milan, VVC

Raymond Chandler, LC

Mawrdew Czgowchwz, book jacket design by Lawrence Ratzkin, 1975, Farrar, Straus & Giroux

Gaywyck, 1980, Avon Books

Dancer from the Dance, 1979, Bantam Books

The Boys in the Band, National General Pictures, lobby card, 1970, LGC

VI. Dead Reckonings

Background image: “Silver Lining,” by John Paradiso, 1995, courtesy of the artist

Foreground images, clockwise from far left:

James Schuyler, by Clay Felver, 1985, courtesy of Darragh Park

James Merrill, by J.D. McClatchy, courtesy of the artist

Bruce Ritter, AP photo/Richard Drew, 1989

Time Remaining, book jacket design by Chip Kidd, Alfred A. Knopf, 1993

“Seductive,” by John Paradiso, 1991, courtesy of the artist

Dorothy Dean

Neil Cunningham

Vincent Virga and the author in pool, Rancho Mirage, New Year’s Day, 1980, by Jarry Lang, VVC

VII. Lost Angeles

Background image, right: “Palm #2, Echo Park, 2002,” by George Haas, courtesy of the artist

Background image, left: “Palm #7, Silver Lake, 2002,” by George Haas, courtesy of the artist

Foreground images, clockwise from far left:

Mural on Cahuenga Boulevard, Los Angeles, photo by the author, 1983

Helen Phillips (Jane Wyman) and Bob Merrick (Rock Hudson), from Sirk’s Magnificent Obsession, 1954, VVC

Deep Joan, LGC

Joan Crawford (Faye Dunaway), from Perry’s Mommie Dearest, 1981, LGC

Sister Ruth (Kathleen Byron), Sister Clodagh (Deborah Kerr) and Mr. Dean (David Farrar), from Powell’s Black Narcissus, 1947, LGC

Los Angeles postcard

Mae West, LGC

Bob Cohen and Richard Rouilard, by Greg Zabilski, courtesy of Bob Cohen

Queer Street, jacket design by Rubina Yeh, W. W. Norton & Company, 2003

Douglas Sirk, LGC