On a fundamental level, I am someone who would throw sand at children. I know this because I have had to resist doing it, and that means that it’s what I would naturally be doing if I wasn’t resisting it.

I would also shove everyone, never share anything, and shout at people who aren’t letting me do exactly what I want.

I don’t do those things, though. Because I don’t want to have to know that I did them. It would hamper my ability to feel like a good person. I don’t even want to know that I would do them.

Thankfully, I have an entire system of lies and tricks in place to prevent me from realizing how shitty I actually am.