The following morning, I woke to find myself dry-mouthed but surprisingly clear-headed. As I lay there, still with the soft tendrils of sleep around me, the thought of Sophie filled my mind so vividly that I felt, with but a minute extra effort, I could reach out my hand and touch the warm, living woman.
I sat up in bed and saw on the corner of the washstand the letter I had written her the previous evening. Before she could read it, however, I had to find her. Though it was probable that she was with the Carswalls at Margaret-street, it was by no means certain. I hoped that if I strolled through the neighbourhood for long enough I might catch a glimpse of her. Perhaps – and at this point my heart began to beat faster – I might even be able to press the letter into her hand. For I dared not trust it to the two-penny post. An hour or so later it would be in Mr Carswall’s hands, for every letter to the household was seen by him. I thought him more than capable of reading any that came for Sophie.
My plan was by no means perfect but it had two outstanding merits – that it gave me something to do, and that it gave me a chance of seeing Sophie again. True, there was a danger that I might be recognised by another member of the household. But I had recently purchased a dark green topcoat from the sorrowful Russian gentleman on the second floor, a garment which would be unfamiliar to any who had known me before. If I wore the collar turned up and my hat pulled down, and if I exercised caution at all times, I was reasonably sure that I could avoid detection.
It was a little after eleven o’clock when I made my way northwards from the crowds in Oxford-street and entered Margaret-street from its western end. Mr Carswall’s house was on the north side, in the block between Lichfield-street and Portland-street. With my eyes averted, I hurried along the opposite pavement.
It was too early for anyone to be about, apart from servants on errands and tradesmen’s delivery boys. Indeed, there were so few foot passengers that I felt myself conspicuous. Never before had I realised that a spy must feel as though his profession were stamped in red upon his forehead for all the world to see.
In a flurry of panic, I turned into Great Titchfield-street and darted south towards the rumble of vehicles in Oxford-street. I spent the next hour perambulating the immediate neighbourhood of the house. I saw the weaselly Pratt, Carswall’s creature, in his morning livery, ogling the women as he sauntered through Oxford-market. I ducked into a shop until he had passed.
At last my patience was rewarded. In Winsley-street, I noticed two boys walking ahead of me. I recognised their backs at once, and with an unexpected pang of sadness. I had not realised until then that I missed the boys. A moment later I tapped Charlie on the arm.
“Why! It’s you, sir. I say, Edgar! Stop!”
The boys shook my hand vigorously. They were momentarily tongue-tied but I could not mistake the pleasure on their faces.
“Are you come to call on us, sir?” Charlie said at last.
“No. I – I happened to be passing.” I saw Edgar drive his elbow into his friend’s side in a manner he evidently believed to be discreet; Charlie’s face coloured with embarrassment. “It is such a fine day. I was taking the air.”
“Yes, sir,” said Charlie. “Just what occurred to me: it is a beautiful day, perfect for a walk.” He spoke in a gabble but his intention was entirely kind.
“I am surprised you are here,” I said, “though of course I am very happy to see you. But I had imagined you would be at school. Or at least that Edgar would be.”
“Mr Carswall said Charlie could come back with me after all,” Edgar said. “So we are both at Mr Bransby’s still.”
I nodded. Mr Bransby had been most obliging to Mr Carswall so the latter’s change of mind was understandable. “That must be agreeable for you both. So has Mr Bransby given the school a holiday?”
“Not the school, sir,” Edgar said. “Only Charlie and me.”
“Yesterday was my cousin Flora’s birthday, sir,” said Charlie. “There was a big dinner, and afterwards there was dancing and cards, and lots of people came. Flora begged for us to be invited, me because I am her cousin, and Edgar because he is my most particular friend. Captain Ruispidge came to fetch us from school. Only fancy! He drives a bang-up curricle gig and we sat squashed up beside him when we drove off. All the fellows were sick with envy.”
“But we return to Mr Bransby’s this afternoon,” Edgar put in. “Mr Allan’s clerk will take us.”
“And the bird, to be sure,” Charlie said.
“The bird?” I said.
“A parrot, sir. Mr Carswall gave it me. And we are to take it back to school: Mr Bransby has given us leave. We have just been to buy seed for it. It does not say much yet but we shall teach it.”
“Oh, sir,” Edgar said, after an awkward pause in the conversation. “There is a new man at the school now, Mr Brown, and the fellows don’t like him half so well. They – we – wish you hadn’t left.”
“I regret it myself,” I said, realising from this that Carswall and Bransby had not published the reason for my dismissal, or perhaps even the fact of it. Neither of them stood to gain from the scandal being known abroad.
“I beg your pardon, sir,” Charlie said. “But was there a disagreement between you and Mr Carswall? We could not understand why you left Monkshill so suddenly, and Mr Carswall will not let your name be mentioned at home.”
“There was a disagreement.” I smiled down at them. “But I need not trouble you with the details. Now, I must not detain you any longer.”
“Should you like to see the bird, sir?” Edgar asked. “It is uncommonly interesting. And singularly intelligent, too. It keeps saying something, only we do not yet quite understand it.”
“I should like it above all things. However –”
“Edgar and I are to walk with it to Mr Allan’s this afternoon,” Charlie said suddenly. “Mr Carswall cannot spare the carriage. Mama says there is no need to go to the expense of a hackney for such a short walk. If you cared to join us, we should have the pleasure of showing it to you.”
I bowed. “That would be most kind.” My conscience gave a twinge at the thought of making an unlicensed rendezvous with the boys. All at once, however, I thought of a stratagem which would not only be kind to my scruples but also of practical assistance. “Pray, Charlie, may I ask a favour of you? I have a letter for your mother here, which I meant to leave at the house as I passed, but it slipped my mind. I wonder if you would be so kind as to give it to her.”
Charlie said he would be delighted to be of service. I noted a look of intelligence passing between the boys, and knew there was no need for me to hint that discretion was desirable. The boys were accustomed to living under tyranny, whether Mr Bransby’s or Mr Carswall’s, and tyranny nourishes the ability to keep secrets. It was arranged that we should meet in Bedford-square, which lay on the route they would take to Southampton-row since it allowed them to skirt safely to the north of St Giles.
I spent the intervening time constantly in motion, for I was filled with a restless energy that would not let me stand still for a moment. I tramped north, past the new St Pancras Church they were building at the top of Woburn-place and up to Clarendon-square. There I panicked, thinking I might be late, and walked south again as though the devil himself were at my heels, reaching Bedford-square a good twenty minutes before the appointed time. I paced up and down the square and the surrounding streets until at last, at ten minutes past the hour, I saw the two small figures approaching, walking in file. As we drew nearer, I discovered that the boys carried on their shoulders a pole, from which hung a birdcage covered in blue serge cloth. We came together at the corner of the square, and they set down their burden with infinite solicitude.
“When the cover is on, the bird believes it night-time,” Charlie said. “It falls asleep directly.”
He crouched and slowly raised the cover. Having seen how the cage swung on the pole, I was not surprised to find its occupant already awake. It was an unkempt creature, its plumage dull and ragged, with a wicked look in its eyes. The cage itself, on the other hand, was spotless. Charlie was still in the honeymoon of proprietorship. I desperately desired to know what answer Sophie had given but I knew better than to ask for it.
“Has the bird a name?”
“It has two, sir,” Edgar said.
“His name is Jackson,” Charlie said. “After Gentleman Jackson, the pugilist. I’m sure the bird would be a doughty fighter if he could. But I said Edgar could choose a name for him too, though he is my bird, for there is no reason why a bird should not have two names any more than a person has.”
“Very true,” I said.
“My name for him is Tamerlane.”
“That is a very grand appellation.”
“He is a very grand bird,” Edgar said gravely. “I am sure he is intelligent. We shall teach him heroic poetry.”
“He already speaks,” Charlie put in. He poked a finger through the bars of the cage and prodded the unfortunate fowl, which scuttled away to the other end of its perch. “Come, Jackson, talk to us.”
The bird preserved an obstinate silence. Despite the boys’ pleading, it stared balefully through the bars and refused to utter a sound.
“I’m so sorry, sir,” Charlie said. “You would have enjoyed it enormously. He speaks so clearly – it is just as though he were a real person, only one cannot quite make out what he is saying.”
“It is no matter. Tell me, were you able to give my letter to your mother?”
He looked up at me, his eyes apparently guileless, and as so often with children, I wondered how much he noticed, how much he understood. “Oh yes, sir. Mama sent her compliments, and said there would be no answer.”
I nodded, hoping that my expression somehow implied that this was entirely what I had expected.
“Ayez peur,” squawked the wretched bird.
“What did that –?” I began, and choked back the rest of the question.
Edgar clapped his hands. “There! I knew he would. Is it not quite splendid, sir?”
“Yes, indeed.”
“And does he not sound exactly like a person?”
“Oh, identical.”
“Can you make out what he says?” Charlie said.
“Ayez peur,” repeated the bird, and pecked at his seed.
“I believe I can,” I said, “though he has not perfectly mastered the consonants. Does he not say ‘I hate beer’?”
“Ayez peur,” said the bird for the third time and defecated on the floor of the cage.
“Yes, that is undoubtedly it,” I went on. “Does he abstain from all liquor, or is it only beer that arouses his disgust?”
My feeble attempt at wit struck the boys as exquisitely funny. We talked for a few minutes more until Edgar touched his companion’s arm.
“We must walk on, Charlie,” he said. “Mr Allan will not be happy if his clerk is kept waiting.”
Charlie bent over the cage and carefully restored the blue cover.
Edgar said, his voice so low that only I could hear: “Mrs Frant goes to the burying ground this afternoon, I believe. I heard her telling Mrs Kerridge. Mr Frant’s headstone has now been set up.”
“There,” said Charlie. “It is night again. I daresay Jackson does not mind the swaying of the cage as we carry him, for quite probably it reminds him of the swaying of the trees in his native jungle.”
“Thank you,” I said to Edgar, and then again, more loudly, “Thank you so much for showing me Jackson Tamerlane. I am sure you will soon succeed in teaching him entire poems.”
We shook hands and parted. I stood for a moment watching their little procession hurrying along the pavement towards Southampton-row. And then I too began to move slowly in an eastward direction, though bearing towards the north, so that I would not follow in their footsteps.
I blundered along, a man in a trance, sometimes brushing against walls and other pedestrians, sometimes stumbling. Passers-by avoided me, gave me disapproving looks. I felt dazed, as though I had woken from a heavy sleep and found myself in a time and place that were entirely strange to me.
In my head I heard over and over again the sound of Jackson Tamerlane squawking out the only words it knew: Ayez peur, ayez peur.