“So, what are you taking this semester, Hol?”
Holly rubbed her eyes, yawning. “The usual. Finishing up credits. Need one more year of French.”
“Anything for fun?”
“New Mexico Geology looked interesting.”
“I wish I’d taken that one. Sally took it and she said it was fun. They did a lot of field trips.”
Holly had her own field trips in mind. A lot of them up one particular mountain trail.
Madison slowed as they passed through a small town. Her car—a Vega wagon that had been the first car both she and Holly had driven—was aging but still sound. The front wheel drive was good in snow, and Boulder got even more snow than Las Palomas.
“Last chance for junk food for a while,” Mad said. “I think I want some coffee at least. Want to be bad?”
Holly nodded, stifling another yawn. She’d had plenty of sleep—with no dreams, unfortunately—but getting up at six didn’t agree with her much.
She pointed to the red and gold sign of a fast food chain ahead. “Hash browns. Orange juice.”
“And coffee. Let’s do it!”
Madison parked so they could make it a bathroom break as well. When they were back in the car with food and drinks, she headed north on the highway that would take them to Alamosa.
Holly remembered the route, vaguely. Dad had driven the family up to Aspen for Christmas a couple of times.
She bit into her hash browns—salty delicious crunch—and gazed out the window. Some of the roads that went through northern New Mexico and southern Colorado were pretty empty, though the scenery was good. Holly wasn’t surprised that Madison wanted company on this stretch.
They would turn east at Alamosa, cutting across to I-25 instead of continuing up into the mountains. The Interstate would take them through Denver to Boulder. Holly remembered some family trips in that direction, too—but those memories were more vague, from when she’d been a little kid. She hadn’t seen Denver in years.
“What are you taking this fall?” she asked Madison.
“Basic stuff, mostly. Trying to get all the required courses out of the way. I’ve got one fun elective, though—Landscape Painting.”
“You were always great at art. How come you’re not majoring in that?”
“Because I’d like to earn a decent living. In art, the chances of that pretty much suck. Your best shot is to teach it, and that doesn’t interest me.”
“Really? I always thought you’d like being a teacher.”
“Nah. I don’t have the patience.”
Holly noticed a slight tension in the way Mad gripped the steering wheel and leaned forward as if she wanted to see the sky as well as the road. Holly, remembering how differently she had seen the forest yesterday, looked at Madison differently now.
Her sister had always radiated confidence, but she saw that there was a note of anxiety underlying it. Why hadn’t she noticed that before?
“Well, you’ll do great in geology,” she said.
“Actually, I’m thinking I might go with a general science degree. CU has a good research program. There may be opportunities for developing new energy technologies.”
“Is that what you want?”
“I think it could be fun.”
Which wasn’t an answer. Holly gazed at Mad, suddenly feeling sad for her. The direction Madison was pursuing sounded sensible, but Holly suspected her heart wasn’t really in it. What if she went a few years down that road and discovered she hated it?
Holly couldn’t say any of that, of course. Mad wouldn’t appreciate hearing her opinion.
“Well, I hope you keep up the painting, even if it’s on the side,” she said.
Mad glanced at her, quirking an eyebrow. “Thanks.”
Mad changed the subject, bringing up a movie they’d both gone to a week earlier. Holly had read the book and thought it superior, but she kept that to herself. The film version had still been fun, and picking it apart occupied them for an hour or so. Another hour of reminiscing about family road trips brought them to Alamosa, where they stopped for gas.
Holly went into the station and bought chewing gum, sodas, a bag of cheese puffs, and some mini-donuts while Mad filled the tank. When she got back Mad headed inside, and Holly hauled out her laptop case and extracted her library book.
“Mind if I read?” she asked when Mad came back.
Mad shrugged as she buckled in. “Sure.”
“Or I could drive for a while, if you want.”
“Nah. I might need you to talk to me later, keep me awake. The next stretch is kind of boring.”
“Just say the word.”
Mad popped open the soda Holly had bought her and took a long pull on it, then sighed. “You can read for now.”
Like Holly needed her permission. She’d just asked in order to be polite, and here Mad was getting all prickly. Ordinarily Holly would bristle in response, but she thought about Ohlan’s patience and decided to let it go.
Ohlan. Was he wondering where she was? Hoping she would show up soon?
Holly bit her lip and opened the book, A Secret Summer. The introduction mentioned how the author, Amanda Cope, had worked as a secretary at the boys’ school in what would become Las Palomas, and how when the place was taken over by the military she’d stayed on to work for the secret high-tech wartime project. This was plainly the book’s main commercial appeal. Las Palomas was famous for that project even now, seventy years later, but back then almost nobody knew about the little boys’ school up on the mesa.
Holly was more interested in descriptions of the area around Las Palomas. She flipped through the opening chapter about Amanda’s parents and childhood, pausing only to note that the family had moved to Santa Fe when Amanda was six. When she got to the author’s arrival at the boys’ school, she slowed down.
We had often visited Taos and the little pueblos along the Rio Grande, but I had never been up to these mesas. No one lived there except the staff and students of the school, though some adobe ruins attested to previous residents in centuries gone by.
Holly knew the ruins she meant: the foundations of a house and a couple of outbuildings from a long-abandoned pueblo. The boys’ school had been built near them, making use of the well that still gave good water, even today.
Was there a spirit in that well, she wondered? A friend of Ohlan’s? She’d have to go check.
She read on, getting lost in Amanda’s account of life at the school. The quick sketches of people were witty and sharp, and the descriptions of the school and the mountains, including many places Holly knew and loved, were vivid. Holly gave up on skimming for information and settled in to enjoy the book. She was just getting to the beginning of the summer of 1941, the season referenced by the title, when Madison slid a CD into the stereo and cranked up the volume.
Nine Inch Nails blasted Holly out of her book. She closed it, using a gum wrapper for a bookmark.
“Where are we?” she asked.
Mad, bobbing her head to the music, said, “About fifty miles from Walsenburg.”
Middle of nowhere, in other words. Holly looked out at flat plains dotted with sagebrush and juniper, then dug out the Colorado road map. Walsenburg was a pretty small dot.
“Is there a gas station there?”
“Don’t need gas.”
“That’s not why I’m asking.”
Mad looked annoyed. “There’s a place we can stop.”
“Thanks.” Holly studied the map. “Where do you want to have lunch, Pueblo or Colorado Springs?”
“C Springs has better restaurants.”
“OK.”
Getting there would take two or three hours, at least. Holly wanted to read some more, but the music kept her from concentrating. She figured that was a huge hint, and tried to think of something Mad would want to talk about.
“What are your roommates like?”
It was the best she could come up with. Madison had hated living in a dorm, and halfway through her first year of college she’d found a place just off campus to rent with three friends.
“Well, you’ll meet them,” said Mad. “They’re cool. Sheila isn’t there much; she works all the time when she isn’t in classes. And Carla’s usually in some play, so she’s always out at rehearsal. It’s really not as crowded as you might think.”
“Are there any good hikes close by? I mean, that you could walk to, like at home?”
“Sure. We’re real close to the mountains. You’ll see.”
The conversation limped along like that, mile after mile. Holly scrounged up more questions, and Mad answered them, but without a lot of enthusiasm. They’d been pretty good friends all through grade school, but since Mad had gone off to college they’d grown apart.
They reached the Interstate and turned north, after which Mad didn’t need Holly to keep her awake. There was plenty of traffic for that, and the farther north they went, and hence the closer they got to Denver, the hairier the traffic became.
Holly took note of signs advertising Manitou Springs, and recalled some vague childhood memories of a visit there. A big drinking fountain; a street full of old-timey buildings, mostly shops. She remembered a candy shop. Was there a guardian spirit at that spring, or had humans driven it away with all their noise and bluster?
“You remember Manitou Springs?” she asked over burgers in Colorado Springs.
“Yeah. Kind of boring. You liked the North Pole better, kiddo.”
Mad’s words recalled a stop at another place near Colorado Springs, with Santa’s workshop, open year round. Holly grinned.
“Feeding deer.”
“And goats,” said Mad. “And the horse that could do math.”
“That was a trick.”
“Yeah, but it was fun when we believed it.”
Holly glanced at her sister, the perpetual skeptic. “Did you believe it, or were you just pretending for me?”
Madison paused before answering, poking her straw into her shake. “I believed it, back then. You believe stuff when you’re little.”
But shouldn’t when you’re grown. Holly looked out the restaurant window at the trees in the shopping mall, wishing she could share her wondrous discovery with Mad, knowing her sister would never accept that Ohlan was real.
Maybe it was better to keep him to herself. She couldn’t picture Mom or Dad being happy about her hanging around with a supernatural being.
“You done, kiddo? I’d like to get rolling, get through Denver before the dinner rush.”
Holly pushed the rest of her limp fries away. “Yeah. Just need a pit stop.”
They washed up and climbed back in the car. Madison put on a different CD, much more mellow. Holly was tempted to read some more, but decided to keep Mad company instead. That was why she’d come along, after all.
Traffic had thickened, and stayed that way. They didn’t talk as much, because Madison needed to concentrate on driving. This was what she meant when she talked about all the people, Holly guessed. Too many people.
Madison had to drive through this every time she came home to visit. No wonder she had only come for Thanksgiving and Christmas.
Holly was grateful she wouldn’t have to make this trip back home. Mad would drop her at the Denver airport and she’d be in Albuquerque in a couple of hours, where Mom would pick her up. She wished it was going to be today instead of Wednesday.
Finally they got through Denver and left the Interstate. Traffic was still busy but less hectic. Holly admired the blue-white mass of the Rockies Front Range to the west, and the several small lakes they passed. The sun was dropping toward the mountains as signs for the University started showing up. Madison turned off into a residential area and pulled into a parking space in front of a row of townhouses.
“Here we are. Home sweet home.”
The building was blocky and modern looking. Uninviting. Holly wasn’t impressed, but she kept her mouth shut as she slung her gym bag over her shoulder and followed Madison into the townhouse.
Apartment carpet smell greeted her. The carefully neutral colors of the furniture implied that it came with the place. To compensate, the walls were covered with bright posters—a mix of rock and roll, skiing, and theatrical—and some houseplants livened up the living room a bit.
“Anybody home?” Madison yelled. When no one answered, she turned to Holly with a shrug. “All out to dinner, probably. Usually we go out on weekends.”
With dates? Holly didn’t ask. She didn’t want to be too nosy.
“You can have your choice of the sofa or an air mattress in my room. Sofa’s probably more comfortable, if you don’t mind people coming through on the way to the kitchen.”
Holly stepped over to the sofa and pushed a hand against the seat. Madison joined her, pointing out a lever on the side.
“It opens into a bed.”
“OK,” Holly said, and set her bag down on an end table. She had the feeling Mad wanted her privacy.
Mad went into the kitchen and started banging around. Holly sat on the couch, tired even though she’d just sat in a car all day. She pulled a magazine from under her gym bag and flipped through the pages.
“Not much here for dinner,” called Mad from the kitchen. “There’s some cheesy macs, or we can go out or go for groceries.”
“Cheesy macs are fine.”
“Good. I’ll shop tomorrow.”
Holly put aside the magazine and went to the kitchen, where Mad was filling a saucepan with water. “Want me to fix it?”
Mad, who hated to cook, cast a grateful glance at her. “If you don’t mind, that would be great. I need a shower.”
Holly picked up the pasta box. “Go ahead. This’ll take about fifteen minutes.”
“Thanks, kiddo!”
Mad gave her a quick hug and left. Holly put the pan of water on the stove, then poked around in the refrigerator, looking for something to throw together as a salad. That was a failure; all that was in there was milk, beer, sodas, butter, the end of a loaf of bread, and a bunch of dried out scallions.
While she waited for the water to boil she hunted out the downstairs bathroom, then opened the blinds at the back of the living room to reveal a sliding glass door that gave onto an enclosed patio. Mountains loomed to the west, blue and beautiful. Holly stepped out to admire the dozen large pots that crowded the patio, all rioting with pansies and petunias. One of Mad’s roommates must have a green thumb.
This was her favorite spot in thecompansate apartment so far. She sat in one of four lawn chairs and gazed at the mountains. Maybe she’d take Mad’s air mattress and sleep out here.
Before she could get too comfortable, she went inside to check on the water and found it boiling. Added pasta, couldn’t find a timer so she checked her watch.
Rummaging in the cupboards, she found a shot glass and filled it with water, then took it out to the patio and pinched off a few pansies to put in it. Purple and bronze went together nicely—three of the flower bowls had that combination, and Holly took a couple of blooms from each. She hoped the gardener wouldn’t mind.
She put the flowers on the coffee table by the couch, then grabbed a soda from the fridge and returned to the patio. Peaceful out here. Gazing at the mountains made her think of Ohlan, though.
She winced. By now he would have realized she wasn’t coming. She hoped he’d forgive her when she explained.
Sadness washed through her. This was why she hadn’t wanted to come up here with Mad, why she wasn’t hot to plan for college. She didn’t want to leave Las Palomas, especially now that she’d found Ohlan.
Well, she was supposed to be planning her future, so she might as well start now. She thought long and hard about what it would be like if she didn’t go to college.
First off, her folks would be angry. They’d given up a lot to save money for her education, and they’d be disappointed if she didn’t use it. Even if she could make peace with them over that, what would she do in Las Palomas? Get a job in some store? That might be OK for a year or two, but for the rest of her life?
This raised the same old question: what did she want to do with her life? She didn’t know, and she didn’t want to think about it.
Remembering the pasta, she checked her watch, then jumped up and hurried to the kitchen. She’d caught it just in time, before the macaroni got too soft. She found a colander and drained it, then turned down the heat and fixed the cheese sauce. She was stirring in the pasta when Madison came in, rubbing her hair with a towel.
“Smells good!”
“It’s ready. Want to grab some plates?”
They dished up and sat at a small round table in a nook off the kitchen. The window looked out toward the mountains.
Holly sprinkled a ton of pepper on her pasta, then took a bite and watched Mad. Her sister looked tired, and there was a small crease between her brows as she stabbed at her pasta.
“Um, do you have Internet?”
Mad looked up. “Oh, yeah. Pam set up a wireless network. I’ll get you the key.”
“Thanks.”
“Do you want to go to a movie or something after dinner?”
“I think I’d just like to relax, if that’s OK.”
“Sure.” Mad smiled, which meant Holly had said the right thing. “Tomorrow we’ll go to campus and I’ll show you around. Anything in particular you’d like to see?”
Holly shrugged. “Not really.”
“Well, we’ll look at the science department, at least. I’ll need to stop at the bank, and hit the campus bookstore. There’s a textbook I still need to get.”
“Bookstore sounds good.”
“And I need to drop a form off at registration, which’ll be nuts. You can hang at the Student Union while I do that.”
Mad’s brain was off in planning mode. Holly merely nodded, knowing no more was required. They finished eating and cleaned up, then Mad offered to show her the lake behind the apartment.
“I didn’t know you had a lake!”
“It’s not ours, actually. Technically it’s part of the neighborhood to the west, but it’s a real lake so they have to allow public access.”
“Real as opposed to man-made.”
“Right. Want to see?”
“Sure.”
Mad led her out to the patio and through a gate. The sun had set, and the sky glowed deep blue. A swath of grass sloped down to a running path, and beyond it was more grass going down to the lake.
It was fairly large, to Holly’s surprise. The houses to the west looked expensive, with docks and boathouses. The water glimmered in the light of antiquey-looking lamp posts spaced along the path that followed the shore.
They walked down to the lake and watched a handful of geese playing hide and seek in some rushes. Holly stepped right to the edge of the water and looked into it. Mossy stuff growing in there. She wondered if there were fish.
Or other things. Did lakes have guardians? Did rivers? Oceans?
She peered intently, wishing it wasn’t so dark. Were those eyes, looking back at her?
“If you’re thinking about a swim, I’d advise against it.”
Holly stepped back. “I wasn’t.”
Mad gazed at her for a long moment, eyes narrowed. “We’ll come back in the daylight. Bring some bread for the ducks.”
She turned and headed uphill toward the townhouse. Holly followed, thinking she might come back alone for an early walk.
Music reached them before they got to the patio; jazzy, with a male singer Holly recognized but couldn’t name. Mad unlatched the gate and held it open for her.
“Pam’s home. Come on, I’ll introduce you.”
Laughter came from the kitchen, where a cushy blonde was cutting up a lime while a guy with short, black hair and a U2 shirt was making a pitcher of something that involved alcohol. Holly could smell the fumes from the doorway.
“Hi, Pam,” said Mad. “This is my sister, Holly. Holly this is Pam Sheevers, and this is Rick.”
Pam put down the knife and smiled as she wiped her hands on a towel. “Hi, Holly. Nice to meet you.”
“Want a margarita?” asked Rick.
“She’s underage,” said Mad. “Come on, Holly. Grab your laptop and I’ll give you that network key.”
“You’re underage, too,” Holly whispered as Mad dragged her out to the living room.
“Pam’s a junior,” Mad answered in a low voice. “I have a drink with them now and then, just to be social. Don’t tell the folks, OK?”
Holly shrugged. “None of my business.”
Mad would be twenty-one in a few months, anyway. And Holly had tried a few drinks herself, at parties—mostly just beer or wine. She didn’t really get what the attraction was.
They went upstairs to Mad’s room, which looked different from her room at home. In high school she’d been on the drill team and had sports stuff all over her bedroom. This room had less personality, more functionality. The blinds on the window were closed. The room overlooked the parking lot, so no loss. The TV that Mom and Dad had given Mad as a going-away present sat on top of a milk crate at the foot of the bed.
Holly sat on the bed and took out her laptop while Mad looked up the key on her own computer. While she waited, she noted the only decoration in the room: an art print on the wall opposite the bed, Monet’s Water Lilies.
“So, you like this better than the dorm?”
“Way better. Dorms are crazy noisy, at least the one I was in was. Parties all the time. You’d hate living in one. Here it is—ready?”
Holly had already booted her computer and sniffed out the network. She typed in the key Madison read to her and immediately checked her email.
“Mail from Dad.”
“Yeah, he cc’d me. I should have checked when we got in.”
“I’ll answer it.”
She tried to think of cheerful things to talk about; how nice the apartment was, the pretty patio flowers, the lake. She mentioned meeting Pam, but left out the boyfriend and the margaritas.
When she had caught up on her email and other online stuff, Holly packed up her computer and went downstairs. Pam and Rick were in the living room with frosty glasses, watching TV. The half-full pitcher sat on the table. Holly set her laptop down by the end of the sofa and got out her book, then headed for the patio.
There was a porch light, fortunately. She turned it on and settled down in one of the lawn chairs to read. Amanda Cope’s version of Las Palomas filled her mind, making her feel at home.
When the secret project came in, Amanda got a job as a secretary for one of the scientists. The pay was better, and the school had closed—bought out by the government. The whole place was being turned upside down. Military personnel came in and started building housing east of the school. Holly paused to think about those apartment buildings. They were still standing, old now.
Amanda didn’t talk much about the project itself, but instead described the people she worked with and the changes that developed as Las Palomas was created mostly from scratch, built around the core of the boys’ school. Absorbed in the gossipy details she’d never known before, Holly kept reading until the patio door slid open and Madison stepped out.
“Aren’t you freezing?”
“Um … now that you mention it, it is starting to get nippy out here.”
Mad put her hands on her hips. “What’s the matter?”
“Nothing. I just wanted to read.” Holly closed her book and stood up. “What time is it?”
“Almost ten. Rick’s gone home. Carla and Sheila are here, if you want to meet them.”
“Sure.”
Wondering why Madison was annoyed with her, Holly followed her inside. It couldn’t be that she was reading, could it? Mad knew she read all the time.
She smiled as Madison introduced her to Sheila, a plump girl with frizzy dark hair and glasses, and Carla who had light brown hair cropped short and the lean body of an athlete. Both seemed nice. Holly hid her awkwardness with a question.
“Which of you guys picked the posters?”
“Oh, all the theater ones are mine,” said Sheila, “and the skiing and hiking ones are Carla’s, and the music ones are Pam’s.” Her voice was a bit on the loud side, but cheerful. She reminded Holly a little of a girl in her class.
“And who planted all the flowers out there?” Holly gestured to the patio. “They’re beautiful.”
“That’s Pam,” Mad said, picking up the empty margarita pitcher and carrying it to the kitchen.
Pam, who was on the couch with her feet curled under her, smiled. “Glad you like them. I have to have flowers around.”
“I hope you don’t mind that I picked a few.” Holly gestured to the shot glass of pansies.
“I saw that. It’s fine. I usually keep some in my room, too.”
The TV was still on. Holly put away her book and watched the evening news with Mad’s roommates while Mad clattered around in the kitchen. At the commercial break Holly went in to see if she could help.
“No thanks,” Mad said, putting glasses in the dishwasher. “It’s under control.”
“I could cook dinner tomorrow night, if we go shopping. As a thank-you to everyone for letting me stay a couple days.”
Mad shrugged. “Carla usually eats at work, and Pam just has a yogurt or some salad most of the time.”
Holly was already planning. Spaghetti with garlic bread, and a big salad for Pam. Extra sauce so Carla could have some later if she wanted; it was easy enough to boil pasta. Holly opened a cupboard by the stove, hoping to see what spices they had on hand.
“Looking for something?”
Mad’s voice was sharp enough that Holly shut the cupboard door with a snap. “Sorry. Just checking if you had basil.”
Mad turned to face her and leaned against the counter, crossing her arms. Holly gritted her teeth while Mad stared at her for a long moment.
“It’s nice of you to offer, but it really isn’t necessary to cook for us. We usually fend for ourselves.”
“Hang on,” said a voice from the doorway. “How good a cook is she?”
Holly looked up at Sheila, who was lounging against the door frame. She flashed her a shy smile.
“I like to cook.”
“She’s OK,” Mad said. “But I figured it might be hard to get everyone together at once.”
“For a home-cooked meal? I think we can manage.” Sheila smiled at Holly. “None of us are great cooks. We should have made that a requirement the last time we advertised for a roommate.”
“Hey!”
Mad whip-snapped a kitchen towel in Sheila’s direction. Sheila ducked behind the wall, then leaned in to stick out her tongue. Holly grinned in spite of herself.
“Guys!” Sheila called to the others in the living room. “Holly’s going to cook us a feast tomorrow night!”
“I don’t know about ’feast’,” Holly said, but Pam’s whoop of approval drowned her out.
She looked up apprehensively at Madison. “I won’t if you’d rather I didn’t.”
Mad looked annoyed, but she shrugged and went back to loading the dishwasher. “Who am I to rock the boat?”
Figuring she’d dodged a bullet, Holly slipped out and joined Sheila on the couch for the rest of the news. When the weather was over, Pam stood up, yawned, and waved a goodnight as she headed for the stairs. Carla stayed through the sports, then got a glass of water from the kitchen and went down the hall toward what must be the master bedroom.
Holly realized she’d been hearing the hum of the dishwasher for a while. She hadn’t seen Mad go upstairs, but when she went in the kitchen it was empty. She got herself a glass of water, then noticed through the glass panel in the front door that the porch light was on.
She walked up to it and peered through the beveled glass. Mad was out there, leaning against the house and staring out at the night. Holly opened the door and Madison jumped, looking at her like a startled deer. In her hand was a lit cigarette.
“You don’t smoke!” Holly blurted, then realized how stupid it sounded.
“Not at home.” Madison took a puff, then dropped the cig and smushed it out with her shoe. “Only once in a while here, and not in the house. The others don’t, except for Pam but she only smokes grass.”
Holly gaped at her sister, still unable to believe it. Mad’s mouth twisted into a smile.
“I’ve been smoking since tenth grade. Didn’t know that, did you?”
Tenth grade? That was three years ago!
Holly shook her head. She felt like an idiot. A sad idiot.
“There’s all kinds of things you might learn if you took your nose out of a book once in a while.”
Madison bent down to pick up the crushed cigarette and brushed past Holly on her way into the townhouse, leaving a smudge of tobacco on the sidewalk. Holly stared at it, wondering if Mad had changed that much, or if she had never really known her.