‘Ramshackle loveliness’ was the phrase I wrote,
then cancelled and kept free for use elsewhere:
the whole feel of the place – as much
the countryside as his house –
is in that sense of unachieved perfection
and slight neglect that makes for beauty. It might be
the receding lip of a stone step
foot-worn to a wave,
or a tie-beam, the curved thew of a bough
black with pitch, or the way each block of stone
(crudely dressed, set on the soil
it was dug from time out of mind)
fits so closely yet roughly against stone.
I come outside and imagine him living there,
as the wind heaves and the loaded tree
lurches, towards the wall,
its freight of apples. In there, he draws or writes
and apple and grey stone are in his work
as leaves and feathers are, which seem
(ruffled in draught, the dust
blown from their pores) fresh from creation. What
is this I feel but love for the man he was
or must have been? The river willows
tense hard against the wind
as I drive by a rutted track for the M4:
it is only five miles off and yet (with the river,
clear as its source, flowing between)
might as well be a thousand.