Crimson light flickered over the hide walls of the shelter, accenting the fear and longing in people’s eyes. They huddled silently around the low flames, letting the dark smoke warm them.
One Who Cries lifted the hafting of his new stone dart point to his teeth, finding the nub of sinew with his tongue. He clamped it tightly between worn incisors and pulled hard, feeling the knot go tight. With a critical eye, he examined the binding, grunting satisfaction at the set of the stone point in the split end of the dart shaft.
Singing Wolf poked at the smoldering chunk of mammoth dung in the fire pit. Along with dried moss, it made a meager source of heat. It had been a day of good luck; one of the children had found the fuel where the wind had stripped the snow away. The sadness of his baby’s death still rested heavily in his eyes. The dung glowed red, smoke hanging thick and musty in the air.
One Who Cries sighted down the long shaft of his dart to the chunk of wolf meat in the middle of the floor. “Do I have to sit here all night and stare at that pile of meat?”
“What’s stronger? Your stomach? Or your fear of what Crow Caller will do to you if you eat wolf?” Singing Wolf wondered aloud, hungry eyes on the thawing wolf quarters. The side of meat nearest the fire glowed eerily red. Singing Wolf swallowed hard, as if the watering in his mouth irritated him.
“Shamans!” One Who Cries muttered, twirling the dart
anxiously in his fingers. “Playing for Power while the People starve … I’m eating the meat.” He started crawling across the floor.
“And going south with Runs In Light?” Singing Wolf lifted an eyebrow.
One Who Cries stopped short, hovering over the meat. Perplexed lines gouged his brow. He set his stubby teeth in his lower lip. His round face looked almost pudgy in the light cast by the fire. High broad cheeks emphasized his mashed-flat nose. Hunger ate at the perpetual merriment in his eyes.
Uncertain now, One Who Cries lifted a shoulder. “Raven Hunter says his brother’s a fool. A fool can talk himself into believing things. You know Runs In Light, he’s always seeing things. Maybe—”
“Raven Hunter, now there’s a man with sense. How can two brothers be so different?”
“So, what do we do? Look at that meat.” He stabbed a hand at it. “Why do spirits have to get mixed up with my stomach? Get mixed up with us at all with death all around.”
“Because shamans are all crazy,” Singing Wolf groaned.
“I’m going to eat it. You trust spirit meat?”
Singing Wolf scratched under his arm, eyes squinted thoughtfully. “Don’t be an idiot. Of course not. Spirits are unpredictable.” A pause. “Crow Caller didn’t want to sing for my child. Didn’t want to!” Behind him, Laughing Sunshine’s eyes grew bright with tears. He clasped her hand firmly.
One Who Cries gave him a pained look. “You saw Light’s eyes, huh? Did you see the Dream in them?”
He shrugged uncomfortably. “I don’t know. There was something there, but …”
“But what?”
“Raven Hunter said—”
“I know what he said,” One Who Cries grunted in disgust and rocked back on his heels, jaw vibrating with grinding teeth.
Singing Wolf shook his head, angrily jerking a burin from his pack. A graving tool with a sharp pointed end, he’d carefully crafted it for grooving wood, bone, or antler. From the ice-packed floor, he pulled a fragment of split mammoth rib—long since boiled for any marrow butter it might have held.
The lines above his eyes deepening, he began scratching figures into the cortical bone with the burin tip. Coolly he added, “Crow Caller cursed anyone who eats wolf.”
“So? Both Crow Caller and Runs In Light are right about one thing. We’ve got to leave here—but we’re not going to make it very far on empty bellies.”
Green Water, One Who Cries’ wife, crawled over, a wolf-hide blanket pulled tight around her shoulder. “Sitting here won’t fill bellies either,” she added in her well-modulated voice, an eyebrow raised. Not even hunger dulled the love in her eyes as she studied her husband. “No one has seen game … seen even sign. Will we have strength to even walk if we stay longer?”
One Who Cries glanced at his rehafted dart and took time to sing a spirit song under his breath to bless it before he slipped it into his caribou fawn-skin quiver. “I’m eating the meat.”
“My child is dead,” Singing Wolf added flatly, eyes going to where Laughing Sunshine sat watching him, quiet, pain in the set of her mouth. He looked back to the glistening meat. “All my children are gone.”
The women stared, Laughing Sunshine’s expression hollow-eyed as her husband studied her. The silence stretched.
Singing Wolf continued, “Is Laughing Sunshine next? Huh? Me? Am I next? Who starves next?”
One Who Cries lifted a shoulder helplessly, digging soot from the corner of one eye with a stubby finger. “Crow Caller says you … if you eat that meat.”
“My child …” Singing Wolf repeated, “would have been a beauty, a bringer of life to the People.” He paused. “Crow Caller wouldn’t even sing for her. A worthless life, he said. Another death … and there lies meat. How many days have we gone out? How many times have we seen nothing but blowing snow?”
“Too many.”
Singing Wolf expertly bent his fingers around the burin as it scritched on the flat bone he held.
“Throwing Bones went out and found Grandfather White Bear,” Green Water reminded him evenly.
“And that’s another thing,” One Who Cries continued.
“Who ever heard of Grandfather White Bear this far south? Some spirit wants us out of here.” One Who Cries sniffed at the cold and ran his thumb along the edge of the broken point he’d removed from the dart shaft. “I’ll have to resharpen this. Good tool stone is getting scarce this far south. Maybe we’d find some obsidian on the other side of the Big Ice, huh? Or some fine quartzite? Maybe those lost dead of Crow Caller’s will point the way? You think?”
Laughing Sunshine spoke softly. “How much bad could come of eating spirit meat?”
Singing Wolf sighed confusion. “If I have to choose between Spirit Dreams, I choose Runs In Light. He—”
“He’s barely a man.”
“Crow Caller’s been right in the past,” Green Water reminded them, fumbling with a fold in her hide robe.
“Two rights?” One Who Cries wondered. “Each going a different direction? There isn’t enough of me to keep two Dreamers happy! I can’t split down the middle!”
“But did you see the look in Runs In Light’s eyes?”
“I think I’ll starve before letting my stomach turn inside out. You remember that time Crow Caller cursed Seal Paw? All his teeth fell out.” One Who Cries shuffled through his pouch, finding his fine-point antler tine and a thick square of rawhide with a hole cut for the thumb. In the red haze of the fire, he studied the damaged point and grunted. From long practice, he settled the stone in the leather where it would protect his hand. Squinting down his flat nose, he placed the antler tip against the edge of the tool and pressed, snapping a long pressure flake off the stone.
“Hey!” Singing Wolf growled. “Do that outside. I get those sharp little flakes stuck in my hands every time I sit down. They go all over … get in the food and stuff.”
“So? We leave here tomorrow. You think wolf will mind when he snuffles around looking for something we missed? Unlike you, he can tell sharp stone from ice.”
Green Water sighed irritably and bent her efforts to mending a long boot bottom, driving a bone awl through thick leather. She scowled at the men from the corner of her eye.
The click-snapping of the resharpening continued as Singing Wolf carved on the mammoth bone in his hand, turning it occasionally to study the image in the red glow. “Broken
Branch says Crow Caller’s Power is gone. Crow Caller says Light is just a boy playing at being a shaman.”
“Huh!” One Who Cries snorted. “Go north and we’re right in the lodge doors of those Others. You know they killed most of Geyser’s band—took a lot of the women and destroyed the camp. Those who lived and got away barely stayed ahead of them last Long Light. Those Others, they’re bad men. Got sick spirits.”
“Raven Hunter wants to kill them,” Singing Wolf mused. “He thinks there’s a way to drive them back. Get them to leave us alone. I wonder if maybe he isn’t right? I wonder if we couldn’t—”
“Raven Hunter wants status,” One Who Cries snapped. His thoughts drifted to years before. Runs In Light and Raven Hunter were always fighting, the latter always winning. “Let him go die. There are better places for darts than my belly.” He tested the knife edge against the callused pad of his thumb. “I’m going to eat the meat. Wolf wouldn’t let Crow Caller torment us. That’s not His way.”
“Crow Caller is afraid of the south,” Green Water added, eyes shifting back and forth between the men. Her gentle expression urged them to think. Green Water had that manner about her, strong yet sensitive, thoughtful, and composed.
“Yeah,” Singing Wolf agreed, licking his lips. “What scares a man with Spirit Power like his?”
“Ghosts,” One Who Cries said. He looked steadily at Singing Wolf, waggling the resharpened dart point as he talked. “If he has any Power.”
“Runs In Light is unafraid.”
“Uh-huh. Fools are like that.”
The burin in Singing Wolf’s fingers scritched hollowly on the bone. The flint caught the faint gleam of light from the fire as it turned in his strong fingers. “Now me, I wouldn’t look cross-eyed at Crow Caller. Next time I needed to hide from Grandfather White Bear, Wind Woman would blow my stink right up his nose because Crow Caller killed my medicine.”
“Don’t worry. With your stink, Grandfather White Bear would probably run the other way anyhow.” Singing Wolf gave him a disgusted look. “Be serious. I don’t care what Broken Branch says, that old man has Power.
And Runs In Light didn’t even blink when Crow Caller called down his spirit magic. Didn’t even blink!” He looked over to where Laughing Sunshine hunched, eyes on the meat, sorrow creasing her expression.
He lowered his eyes, pursing his lips. The little bundle on the snowdrift weighed on his mind, too—heavy like an old bull’s ivory tusk.
“So? What are you going to do?”
Laughing Sunshine interrupted, “When there is no game, no chance of finding food, what does anyone do? The question is to go south, or back the way we came. We don’t know what can be found in the hills to the south. Maybe overwintered berries exposed by Wind Woman, if nothing else.”
“And how long will those last? What if Runs In Light is wrong? What if his Dream was nothing more than a kid’s imagination?” Singing Wolf asked harshly.
One Who Cries squinted at the floor. “Well, then, we can always come back. The Renewal meets in the same place every year. If Light is wrong and there’s no hole in the ice, we can join up with Buffalo Back’s clan at Renewal. He’ll take us.”
Singing Wolf swallowed and stopped his carving, looking down at the splinter of flint he held. “My child starved to death.” He flipped the flat piece of bone in the air. One Who Cries caught it deftly and turned it to the light.
Singing Wolf looked quickly to Laughing Sunshine as he bent over the rear quarters of wolf that lay near the smoldering red eye of flame.
In the dull glow of the fire, One Who Cries stared at the bone while Green Water crawled to the meat. The best artist in the band, Singing Wolf had carved a four-legged beast with a long snout and pointed ears. The etching might have lacked distinction—it might have been a fox or dog. But it wasn’t.
“Wolf meat?” One Who Cries grimaced. “That’s like eating someone’s old sweaty moccasins … but moccasins taste better!” Reluctantly, he crawled over next to Singing Wolf, using his new knife to cut long slices of rich dark meat from the haunch. With a weak smile, he handed slices to Laughing Sunshine and Green Water as they moved to join him.
The two old women sat close, the deep folds in their wrinkled faces glistening with smeared fat in the light of the fire. Long shadows stretched across the warm shelter to climb the opposite wall.
With skilled hands Broken Branch cracked the thighbone down the middle, exposing pink marrow. Using a long curled thumbnail, she neatly scooped the channel clear. Twisting the marrow in half, she handed a portion to Gray Rock.
“So much for spirit meat, eh?” Broken Branch grinned wickedly.
Gray Rock licked her fingers. “Curses scare me less than starvation.”
“I always knew you were a smart old witch.”
“No, you didn’t. You’ve told me a hundred times—”
“Well, forget what I’ve told you before. I changed my mind.”
Gray Rock smiled, chewing more of the fat. “Such a pity. You’ve finally come to your senses, and I won’t have a chance to enjoy it.”
“Come with us. Ha-heee, there’s Power in the south! I feel it deep in my heart.” Broken Branch used a bone sliver to pick at the spongy joint area, heedless of the sharp flakes in the whitish pink paste she spooned into her mouth. “One advantage of not having teeth,” she mumbled with a grin. “There’s nothing for the bone to stick in.”
“Uh-huh,” Gray Rock growled. “It’ll just scour your old butt good and raw when it comes out the other end.”
“At least it’ll come out. Your problem is you plug up. Affects your disposition. Makes you cranky like you ain’t had a man in a year or so.”
Gray Rock waved her away with a desultory hand. “Who needs a man? All they do is moan and groan and you spend nine months packing their get—and that’s the easy part.”
“Come south with us,” Broken Branch pleaded, looking up from beneath stubby gray lashes. “I need you. I’ll be stuck with these kids. No one sane to talk to. Come. It’ll be—”
“The farther south you go, the rougher the country gets. More piles of rock to climb over—and I’m not as nimble as I used to be.” She bowed her head in thought, throwing
tender glances at her friend. “Besides, I owe Crow Caller. He saved my life that time I got fevered.”
“That was then. His Power’s all gone now. Been gone for years.”
“I don’t know.” Gray Rock pulled her legs under her, wincing at the pain in her swollen joints. “Remember when my last tooth rotted? Whole side of my face swelled up from the poison.”
Broken Branch cackled, bobbing her head at the memory. “Your face looked like a blowed-up walrus bladder … all pooched out and skintight! Ha-heeee!”
“Yes, and you remember what Crow Caller did?”
“Don’t glower at me like that, you old hag. Of course I do. How could I forget you howling like a wolf with his nose caught in a clamshell?” Broken Branch slapped her leg, chuckling dryly. “It took how many hunters to hold you down while old One Eye worked his healing? Five? Ten?”
“That’s not the point!” Gray Rock bristled, wrinkles pulling tight as she hissed, “The point is, he saved my life.”
“Bah!” Broken Branch smacked her lips. “He drilled a hole through your cheek with a big bone awl. I could’ve done that. And just as good!”
Gray Rock pouted before adding sullenly, “Still, he saved my life.” She paused. “I’m going north.”
Broken Branch carefully scooped the last of the marrow from the bone. She licked the shine of the fatty material from her fingers and the fractured bone before pocketing the fragments to boil later for whatever grease she could render.
“Well … go.” She shook her finger at Gray Rock. “See what his Power brings you. You’ll turn south soon enough—if one of them Others don’t stick your guts with a dart.”
Gray Rock worked her tongue over empty gums as she studied her friend. “Darts may be better than the ghosts of the Big Ice.”
“What would they want with an old hag like you anyway? You’d be nothing but trouble for them—get in their way. Foul up their ghosting or something.”
Gray Rock smiled weakly. “I told Jumping Hare to go with Runs In Light.”
“You what? That’s not right!” she gasped. “Your son should stay with you. Singing Wolf and that ‘yes-no’ One
Who Cries are going with Light. Crow Caller’s band won’t have enough hunters. If you’re thinking that going south is really right, why don’t—”
“Raven Hunter will be enough.”
“Bah! He’ll get you in trouble with those Others. Young idiot! All he wants is war. Something bad in his blood. I remember when he was born. Blood … bad blood.”
Gray Rock looked through the crack in the hide door to see how much time remained. Dawn light grayed the sky. “They’re getting ready to go. I hear them.” Almost as an afterthought, she asked, “Do you really think Heron went that way?”
“I know she did. I saw her leave.”
“Most people think she’s a myth, that she never really—”
“Only the old ones still remember.”
Gray Rock frowned uneasily. “The stories tell how wicked she was, how she consorted with the Powers of the Long Dark. Why’d she go? Did the clan drive her off?”
Broken Branch shook her head awkwardly. “No. She left on her own. Needed to be alone, she said.” Guilt tinged the old woman’s voice, guilt and remorse.
Gray Rock eyed her downcast face seriously. “What’d you do? Kill Heron’s mother? That look on your—”
“Quit asking things that are none of your—”
“All right,” Gray Rock said wearily. “I was just making talk.”
Broken Branch rose slowly to her feet, offering a hand to her crippled friend, who struggled vainly to rise. “You’re walking to find another clan of the People? You can’t even stand up!”
“Oh, shut up, you old bear bait,” Gray Rock spat. But she took the hand, bones crackling and straining as she fought to stand. “Once I’m up, I do fine. Get me started and I don’t stop. It’s what all them oversized kids did to my hips that keeps me down!”
In an uncharacteristically gentle voice Broken Branch added, “Well, don’t sit down, then. I won’t be there to pick you up.”
Gray Rock nodded, hobbling to the flap and ducking under it. In the faint light, she looked back toward Crow Caller where he gathered the People going with him. “See you
among the stars,” she whispered, wrinkling her antique face in one last wink before she tottered off toward the old shaman.
Broken Branch watched her go, a familiar pain of loss smoldering around her heart.