Introduction 

This is a casual saunter through my life, touching on the events that helped shape my spiritual understanding. I hope it will help people who are searching for meaning in their lives and don’t know where to look. Maybe it will help them forward a little. That’s my hope.

My early life was overshadowed by two fears, one more understandable than the other, and they were the fears of death and of infinity. It may seem strange, but I am grateful to both of them. It was the fear of death that drove me to search beyond the normal channels for the truth about life after death and it was the fear of infinity that showed me there was more to life than could be understood by our finite minds. They were very real fears at the time – the awful dread that one day everything would be over turned me into a hypochondriac at an early age. If I had a bump on my leg it had to be cancer. Nowadays there would be a counsellor for that kind of problem, but back then you sorted yourself out… or not.

I always felt that I had a mission in life, something that I had to do. I wanted to serve and help people and to do this I needed a better understanding of who we are and why we’re here. For me the greatest question in life was always, What is the purpose of it all?

I was seeking answers from an early age, but for a long while I was unable to find any that satisfied me. I know that many people find themselves in a similar situation. Nowadays I often get letters from people who don’t know where to turn for information.

The best place to look is within. Each of us is on an individual journey and each of us will find our own answers. So I always write back and say, ‘As you go to sleep, say to God, or the universe, or your higher self, “Help me to understand.” If you keep repeating that, sooner or later something will cross your path that will give you the answer. It can be anything from a person to a headline, or even just a thought, but you will recognize it when it’s there in front of you.’

I know that if you ask for understanding, you will get it, because it has happened to me. Sometimes the results have been quite magical.

I belong to no religion, philosophy or group, but would call myself a seeker for the truth. The views that I am putting forward are mine and my understanding of the great truths. If there is anything in these pages that offends your reason, just leave it. That’s fine. My hope is simply that anyone who is on a similar journey to mine will find this helpful.

I have now lived quite a long time and I feel I haven’t advanced as far as I should have done. But if you don’t have that feeling, you won’t continue to move forward. It is what drives us on. So I know I will always be searching, always seeking greater knowledge and understanding.

To further my knowledge I read a lot of esoteric books. I’m really interested in those by teachers from the spiritual realms, people like Silver Birch and White Eagle and books like In Tune with the Infinite. These books are really the only ones I want to read. I could read them all the time; the words are just beautiful. Some of the phrases that have meant a lot to me are scattered throughout this book. Sometimes I have noted their origin; mostly I have not. Often I have taken a phrase and made it my own, changing the words slightly. I often pick out something that strikes me and keep it in my mind throughout the day, almost like a mantra, pondering on it and searching for new insights. A simple little sentence can have so many different meanings at different times. I hope that these words will help you, too.

My search for the great truths of life remains highly important to me. If we all understood our spiritual nature and what happens after death, it would very much affect, for the better, the way we live our lives, and what could be more important than that?